The Struggle for Wife Love
Bag 114

I'm putting together some stuff that I'm going to bring, helped by Dita and Dad. My father came when I said I was going to Paris, and he was very happy to hear my words. Maybe for her that I can get a little out of my current comfort zone, so she supports me to go there.

"Your clothes are all this? Is anyone still in?" ask dad

"Udah well, Raa don't bring too many clothes. If Raa comes back to buy there again, Raa only brings important things" I said

"Hmm enjoy shopping there, you will definitely show off the same as me later right?" ask Dita annoyed

"Ha ha.... What the hell? Later if there are good things I buy for you yes. But your shipping costs are ok" persuade me

"Alright, do not forget your promise" said Dita reassured

I nodded with a smile towards him, there was a sense of sadness when he would leave him alone here. Dita has helped me a lot all this time, even always there for me.

"I've called my friend who is there, so your apartment is not ready yet" said the father told me

"Owh yeah yeah yeah yeah, thanks a lot. Raa almost forgot that Raa had not prepared a place to live there at all. Thankfully I was ready" I said with relief

"Yes I know you must not think until then, the nature of your chimney must be eliminated lo nduk. Work in the country of people can not be arbitrary, the rules of their lives alone are strict" said the father

I just smiled at my dad's nagging, this isn't the first time I've been far away. Even though you are home more often now, your connections and friends are everywhere. And it's not my heart that I don't want to start my father's business that has advanced, I'm just not ready for it. Suddenly Andre stood in front of my room, we were all shocked to discover Andre's arrival.

"Sorry, I've been to your house many times, and Anggi who opens the door. Keep fitting in saying you guys up top so I follow up, I guess there is no father. Sorry sir" Andre said a little awkwardly

"It's okay, come on in. We also don't know sampean dateng" ask dad

"Where are you packing Raa, where you going?" ask Andre wonder

"Well, you haven't told Andre nduk? What the hell are you?" ask dad suddenly

"Yes, I'm sorry Ndre I forgot. I swear I didn't mean to not tell you, but I completely forgot" I said

"Yes, you guys talk first. I want to have a coffee outside first" said the father as he left the room

"I also want to go downstairs, Raa, want to ask Anggi for a snack" said Dita as she passed

"You.... Until the whole thing is Raa you want to avoid me, I did not expect you like this like me" said Andre suddenly

I did not dare to look Andre in the face, even to refute his words I could not bear.

"I know Raa, you can't take my feelings. But I don't think so, does Raa? Do you have to leave without telling me like this? I don't end up thinking Raa is the same as you" said Andre with an upset tone

"Sorry Ndre, I also only got word yesterday when I went home with you. I continue to say goodbye tomorrow to the Zean family, and today is busy packing. So I completely forgot, to the extent that the apartment was just a father who took care of it" said I memelas

"You can say goodbye to Zean's family? While I who in front of your eyes is neglected? What is Raa?" ask Andre

"Yes I'm a reflex like Ndre, so that's it.." said I don't know what to say.

"Ok if so, may you succeed Raa" said Andre while leaving me

I was chasing after Andre who left me all of a sudden. I don't want him to be strong, because this isn't the Andre I know.

"Ndre... Andre.. I'm sorry, I know I was wrong" said I tailed behind Andre

Andre just silently heard my apology, he kept walking without even seeing me.

"Ndre you don't usually think you know? Are you being so selfish?" say I'm upset

Andre paused and turned towards me, he looked at me with an angry look.

"I...? Selfish...? You're not wrong to say I'm selfish Raa?" ask Andre back

"Yes you are selfish, I am sorry but you went without my forgiveness" I said

"Ok if you think like that, assume that what I have been doing all this time is a form of my egoism to you. And I was wrong all this time, I understand now" said Andre left me

I was silent at Andre's words, I was getting worse. Somehow the words can come out of my mouth, obviously all this time I was selfish and did not think about Andre's feelings at all. I sat on the living room couch where we had a fight earlier, Dita just looked at me from afar. He still did not want to ask me about my current problem. I also wanted to cancel my departure to Paris....