The Struggle for Wife Love
Bag 139's

I was silent to see what was in front of me at this moment, I closed my mouth with two hands. Very strong, as if holding a scream in my esophagus to come out so that the files I will deliver become scattered. Without asking for my tears to shed, mixed feelings were in my mind. Between disappointed and happy, disappointed because they lied to me and happy to see people yes all this time we consider no now standing in plain sight. My legs and hands weakened, leaving me helpless. Zean approached me and wanted to catch me sitting on the floor.

"Stop Zean, don't come any closer" I said blankly.

But Zean ignored my words and still pulled my hand to stand up.

"Don't touch me Zean, get away from me. You're not dead, are you? If you're dead why show up in front of me?" say I'm angry.

"Raa this is not what you think, let's go in and we'll discuss this inside" Sean said softly.

I smiled at Zean and Andre, a cynical smile that I greatly admired with their acting.

"Aren't you guys done playing? I'll pretend I don't know and follow your game. I will always be a fool that you can deceive and you play as you please, let's play without burden. You're..... Why are you so cruel? Is it so great my mistake in the past that you play me like this, then why don't you just kill me." I said as I sobbed.

Andre and Zean were completely confused as to what they should do, as it was true that what they were doing right now was hurting Tiara's feelings greatly.

"Well, I'm just a stupid woman who believes in love. I love you so much, Zean, but you lied to me. Many times Zean, do I have to forgive you? And you pushed HIM.... She's my little best friend, who really understands me to be your substitute right? All right, let's play this game. I... I.." My disconnected speech held tightness in the chest at this time.

I really didn't expect them to be able to play me directly and make it seem like this was all real.

"Raa let's go in, let me explain everything to you. You don't know something very important, why I went to Raa." Zean said.

"Yes Raa, Zean's condition used to be very severe and had to be brought here. We just want you to recover quickly and live a normal life." explained Andre.

"Normal living...? Do you know how tortured I am to live my life? I used to think I could live by killing people, I was always in a state of regret. You know, it feels like I'd rather die than live on a dead man" I said, wiping away my tears that had soaked my cheeks.

I got up from my seat, stared blankly at the two of them and walked away from them. Zean followed my steps away.

"Don't follow me Zean, I won't see you. And I'll follow your toys." I said as I got into the elevator and closed the door.

Zean was speechless and stood stiffly in front of the elevator. Confused by what he had to do so that Tiara could hear his explanation. In the elevator I spilled all my tears, letting my tears out as hard as possible which made my chest very tight.

"You made me cry Zeanl many times." My inner self.

The elevator door opened, without waiting for me to run to Arnold's car and get inside. Seeing me cry Arnold was a little worried but didn't question it.

"I want us to go home to Arnold, I want to go home" I stammered.

"Alright, you drink first to calm down" said Arnold while giving a bottle of mineral water.

Without further ado I gulped down the mineral water, and my tears were getting out. Flooding my eyelids that were a little puffy, I fooled myself and cursed them in my heart. Arnold just kept quiet without asking me a word, maybe he was a little hesitant to ask people personal matters. Suddenly Arnold turned the street the other way, leaving me confused because it wasn't the way to our apartment.

"Rest, I'll take you somewhere that will calm your mind" Arnold said without waiting for me to ask.

I just quietly looked out the window with my tears occasionally wiped. I exhaled my heavy breath that was suffocating my chest and remained silent. Shortly after we arrived at a quiet park, I had eased my tears along the way.

I went out and obeyed Arnold. Arnold walked in front of me and I followed him, we walked a few feet uphill from where the car was parked. A moment later we arrived. I saw the moment we were standing in a small field with a stall hutting on the edge.

"Come here..." Take Arnold who has been sitting on a long bench.

I approached him and it turned out that we were at a high altitude, allowing us to see the lights of the house in every corner of the city. I can see the Eiffel Tower from here. And honestly this amazes me a lot and eases a little bit of my sadness.

"You know, this is my favorite place. I can spill all my emotions here. Look to your satisfaction and relieve all your emotions here as well" Arnold said.

I sat down next to Arnold and enjoyed the sight before my eyes. And again my wet tears flooded my cheeks.

"Thank you for bringing me here. I really need this right now, and I don't know what to do after this." I said softly.

"Start from the easy thing. Well I'll listen to you, if you want advice I'll give it to you too." Arnold said.

"You know Arnold, when I dropped the file I met two very disgusting people in my opinion. The other was my little friend and the other was my husband who I thought had died half a year ago. And I was confused to call him what." I said softly.

Arnold just kept quiet and thought, "it shouldn't just be Zean there. What does Tiara mean by Andre? Means Tiara was looking at Andre and Zean simultaneously back then."

"They lied to me Arnold, they cheated me out loud. Without them knowing that it really hurt me." Tiara said in tears.

"Maybe they have a reason behind it all Raa, shouldn't you find out first why they did something like that to you" Arnold said.

"What should be explained? They've obviously been deceiving me." I said annoyed.

"Isn't it good that you can meet someone you thought died?" ask Arnold.

Tiara frowned as if she did not understand the meaning of Arnold's words just now.

"Yes, because I also want to see someone who's gone before me, I think it's better than holding everything by myself. At least we are still given a second chance to see him and greet him again. Even a second chance to be by his side and look him in the face" Arnold said a little sadly.

"Have you ever lost Arnold?" ask me.

"Yes... I lost her on our wedding day. He died in an accident to the church, you know Raa? I waited for her there for two days, hoping my bride would arrive and we could continue our marriage" Arnold said.

"Sorry Arnold, I didn't mean to..."

"I'm fine Raa, sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I saw him again. Even if it's not with me, at least I want to see it again. That's enough." said Arnold.

I was silent to Arnold's words,

"Yes I should have been lucky to see Zean again. But I don't know why my heart is currently so refusing to meet him." My inner self.