The Struggle for Wife Love
Bag 112

After we finished our meal and planned to go home, I was confused about how to start a conversation with Andre. Unlike usual I find it difficult to expose the berserkness in my heart to Andre.

"What are you so nervous about like Raa? There's a problem again, right? You can tell me" asked Andre

"Owh, no Ndre. I'm just a little less feeling well today, it looks like my mood is also not good today" I said reasoned

"You sick? Need me to take a check to the doctor? Have you taken your medicine?" ask Andre to be

"I'm fine Ndre, just not in the mood to say that" I replied awkwardly

"What if we find a place to hang out, so you can tell me everything" Andre bargained

"Wh don't need Ndre, I just want to go home quickly anyway. Again uncomfortable outside for now" said I refused Andre's invitation

Andre just nodded at my words, all the way we just kept silent without saying a word. Arriving in front of my house, I tried to dare to tell Andre the truth.

"Eemm thank you Ndre has brought me to eat and take me home too" said I m chatting

"Don't, just relax again. Tumben really use the event to say thank you" said Andre meledek me

I just smiled at her words, and bowed unwell.

"I know Raa, you're a little awkward with me. And I also know that you now understand how I feel about you" Andre said suddenly

I who heard Andre's words could only be silent and did not dare to look him in the face directly.

"I don't mind Raa, if you haven't been able to return my feelings. I don't want you to like me at all and open the door of your heart to me" said Andre again

"But what about the stiff Ndre? How long will you shut the door of your heart to someone else for me?" ask me suddenly

"I still don't know Raa, and also I'm still not used to it" Andre replied

"You have to try and get used to new things Ndre, I don't want to be your barrier" I said

"I'll try when I'm really tired of all this Raa, so please let me love you. Even though there is no hope for me" said Andre while holding my hand

I pulled my hand back from Andre's, somehow it felt a little different from the one I've known.

"I hope we can still be as usual, Raa, even if you know that I have feelings for you. I want you to remain the Raa I know" Andre said

"It may be a little bit difficult for me Ndre to be ordinary at this time, but I am very grateful that you have tried to tell me all this" I said as I opened the car door

I just smiled at Andre's words, there was a bit of awkwardness with the situation now. I stood at the door of my house and searched the house keys in the bag, suddenly my gaze was fixed on the post box attached to the wall of the house. There were some letters, and I took them. I opened the door and headed to the room, changed clothes and washed my face. Before long I heard someone enter the house, I came out of the room and tried to find out who was coming.

"Loh, you haven't slept Raa?" greet Dita who just came home

"Well, you're home? Tumben really ush home at this hour" I said while looking at the wall clock

"I'm a little uncomfortable for the road today Raa, honestly I still can't leave you alone" said Dita who sat on the sofa

"You don't dong, Richard's father, if you're a giniin. You don't have to be so good at Taa, I'm fine now. I also told Andre everything, and Andre also did not mean me" I said casually

"So you were with Andre? Yes, even Raa, I still think. Afraid of you depression continue to do strange things" said Dita panicked

"What the hell....? Very Alay deh" I said while leaving Dita in the family room

Dita decided to stay with me since that incident, she felt that I was a little depressed by the incident I was going through. And his house is now taken care of by Dita's mother's sister who was still contracted.

I was getting ready to sleep, but my eyes were on the pile of envelopes I picked up just as I entered the house. Usually the letters only contain offers of bank loans or insurance, so I am not too open about it and ignore it. But I was curious about one letter and tried to open it. When I opened the letter my eyes just wide as if they could pull out my eyeballs.

"TAA.... DITAAAA.." I shouted as I got up from the bed.

Dita who heard my screams, immediately panicked and approached me while running.

Braaakk.

"Jeez tuhaannn.... What the hell is Raa? you're gonna scream like that, make me hang you know?" ask Dita a little angry

"Look, I got away. I got a job offer, I'm glad to know?" I said while hugging Dita

"What the hell, here look. When did you apply for a job? how do I not know?" ask Dita curiously

"When you think I'm depressed, you see this. I got a job at VV company, this is a big company know nothak" I said proudly

"What....? VV companies? That means it's in...." Thought

"PARIISSS.." I cried happily.

I was jumping around excited like a little kid getting a big doll. My heart is so happy and somehow I really want to get there fast.