TOAST
* Slice 283, Sorry
Who has never felt hurt for someone who hurt us? every human has ever felt heartache. It's just that in expressing disappointment and heartache is different, ranging from silence, lazy to say hello to express it to people who have made a heartache.
Right now, it is raging in the hearts of those who are hurting with Iyus, a sense of resentment and hard to forgive. But whatever the force, the person who made the "life riots" in the past has been stiffened without life.
His eyes like Iyus withstood a great pain when he died, his lips were not tightly clenched. The local Ustadz tried to "tidy up" but did not "normal" his face.
There are not many neighbors who are literate tonight, mostly just brothers. Neighbors only came when Iyus had just died and only briefly sobriety. Iyus is indeed less favored here because of the style of petenteng petentengnya. So many people sympathized when he was sick.
Mak Nuha and Mak Nuha instead sat some distance away from Iyus' body. Nyai and Qeena sat together to read the Qur'an. Dafi was opposite Qeena and solemnly prayed for Iyus.
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A week before dying, Nyai called Dafi, apparently Iyus who asked to speak with Dafi.
"Mas Dafi .. don't hurt Qeena like you hurt Noah and Imah. Don't play with her loyalty, don't spill her tears out of anger. Mas .. he's a jewel of the heart that you've thrown away even not considered, but look .. now he's doing things you never gave. love. If Mas pinya wants to double, it's good to talk directly to him, if he asks for a farewell, grant his wishes. Let him be happy with the path he chose" Iyus said seriously.
Dafi was a bit surprised too, since he was sick, Iyus never talked to him. More silence when meeting.
"Sir .. She will be the only woman in my life. If I die first, want him to be happy without my presence. He wants to get married again or whatever. But if he whom God calls first, let my love be buried with his body. No one will take his place as my wife" Dafi promised at the time.
"Hahahaha.." Iyus' voice laughed out loud at Dafi's poetic response.
"Sir . I seriously said it" Dafi said reassuringly.
"You're funny. No man can live without a woman, but a woman can live without a man. Imah and Noah proved it" Iyus continued.
"Sir why talk gini rich? You want to see them all?" ask Dafi politely.
"Ga .. won't see them again. You want to go away from them. Remember they made Mr. crazy .. hahaha" replied Iyus again laughing out loud.
"Rpa ... Father why?" ask Dafi again.
"Because I have to make Qeena happy. Noah and I could be happy without my Father. But Qeena felt happy beside Mas Dafi. Qeena was a good boy, Qeena was a very good boy, Qeena a very good boy. "all of a sudden Iyus cried bitterly until as much as he pleased.
"Rpa ... Father rest yes, next week I play with Qeena to Nyai house yes, what do you want to bring?" ask Dafi slowly.
"Bawain rice boxes yes, next week many want to come home. You have no money to entertain them" said Iyus.
"What event is it, sir? any diving?" dafi asked confusedly.
"Not .. want a family gathering. Don't know what's going on" said Iyus while giving HP to Enyaknya.
Nyai continued the conversation with Dafi.
"What is Nyai doing?" ask Dafi again.
"Well there's nothing, know yourself Iyus again a lot ngehalu, don't take it seriously. Yes it was .. Nyai want to pray" pamit Nyai.
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"This is Mr. Mr. get together the family you said. Tomorrow, I buy rice boxes for tahlilan. Sir .. may Allah forgive all your sins and mistakes. Only do'a can be said for you. But Mas's promise to Qeena was no joke. Now .. in front of the body of the Father, Mas said that Qeena will be his last port Mas. The story of the Father will be a sign for us to live our wedding. Thank you Mr. .. for being a Father of a noble hearted daughter, where resentment and heartache can turn into love when you meet the Father again. Mas who knows how his views on the Father, but when the Father was sick . he changed a lot. After the prayer, he slipped the name of the Father between his prayers, something he never wanted to do. Mr. .. rest ..we who are still alive will continue this story until death before" said Dafi in his heart.
Dafi rubbed Iyus' face slowly while praying. Slowly Iyus' face looked calm, now his mouth was tightly closed, not grimacing like before. But his eyes were still closed like they were enduring pain.
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Once the Rida family group came, Mak Nuha and Mak Imah even came out of the house and sat in the yard of the house that had been installed tarpaulin. They're sitting in the bale.
Dafi, who saw both of her mothers come out, felt less worthy of her eyes, finally came out to bring her two mothers back in.
"Mr .. Mr. Iyus does not exist, sick of wounds that have been given to him. I just want to remind you both, in the Quran, the letter of An-Nur verse 22, and let them apologize and have a breast. Do you not want God to forgive you? And Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. Please Mak .. release all anger, forgive that noble attitude that everyone should have, because Allah is Oft-Forgiving and loves His servant. Who we are to forgive can't, but God alone forgives his abominable servant" Dafi recalls rushing into Nyai's house.
Mak Nuha and Mak Imah are still out of the house. The cold night air began to touch the skin, indeed they were wearing jackets, but still it was cold to touch the bones. The air tonight was cold, after the rain of the Maghrib.
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Only Rida's family came to see Iyus' body. It even seemed to strengthen Nyai and forgive each other.
Mak Nuha's family can not come because his parents Mak Nuha is in poor condition, his brother Mak Nuha was already very hurt, so he did not want to come. But her parents Mak Nuha called Nyai who was connected to Qeena. Mak Imah's family can be guessed if she will never come to set foot in this house. Mak Imah has tried to call and send a chat but there was no reply and response from her family.
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At midnight, in front of Iyus' body, Nyai began to tell him about how Iyus was before he died.
"Two days he was lazy to say, but this morning it was the same Nyai, he said he did not know how to wudhu, Nyai ajarin while practiced. Abis he was confused he said to wear a sarong how to, finally Nyai wearin. Continue to be pitched to the Qibla, because ga tau kalo pray madep qibla. Still he was confused to say what, Nyai ajarin very difficult to say Allahu Akbar. Prayer reading all forgotten. Finally he sat up with his hands up, repeatedly saying sorry .. can not also call the name of God. But he called everything he's ever been sick with... Nuha, Imah and Qeena. The repeated names continue to be the same as him" said Nyai stammered, Qeena gave tissue to Nyai and rubbed Nyai's back.
"Iyus sat apologizing for a long time and cried. Her tears were so bad, I saw it. That's why he asked for dumplings, he said long time no dumplings. Abis eats dumplings, she vomits and goes to sleep, she says her head is dizzy. Abis Maghrib asked for sweet anget tea, he said. Didwarin eat will not, he said to sleep. Abis Isya is also still literate, offered to eat even geleng-geleng. The door of his room was deliberately closed, pounding on the bed in front of the door. Pas Nyak want to go to the bathroom, about nine o'clock less, see Iyus rich fish no water, floundering so. Keep long hag rich people scared but can't talk, his eyes bulging abis it brushes, we keep think fainting. Call the neighbor he said he was dead. Out of curiosity, called a doctor in front of the road Clinic, yes already dead, said his doctor. It happened" said his brother Iyus.
"Is there a message or what?" ask Qeena.
"Boro-boro messages, people are invited to communication aja difficult" replied his brother Iyus.
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After the dawn prayer, Dafi contacted his secretary and asked for permission not to enter today because my father-in-law passed away. Qeena also contacted Erin to cancel the order, Erin was very aware of Qeena's condition and will be discussed again if you are free.
Because no one was waiting, at seven in the morning all the funeral processions have been carried out, he said, Dafi who financed everything because Dafi considered his last chat so that Dafi buy rice box is considered as the desire of Mr. Iyus to be taken care of all processions by Dafi. At the very least, this was Dafi's last devotion as a child.
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After Dzuhur, they decided to go home, but had already completed everything including the debts of Iyus. Qeena had also ordered boxed rice at one of Padang's restaurants away from Nyai's house for tahlilan after Maghrib. Dafi and his family could not follow because they were exhausted.
On the way home, my mother fell asleep. Actually Qeena sleepy, but if Dafi is not invited to chat can even follow drowsiness and very dangerous if the driver sleepy.
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Until the seventh day, there were not many neighbors who came to Nyai's house, Qeena was only on the third and seventh night only to come. But for seven days, he and Dafi were bearing food for tahlilan.
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Today Dafi was out of town for two days, Ms. Fia who felt lonely, slept with Qeena in Qeena's room.
At first a light conversation about everyday life, but over time even become serious.
"Mother does not even know where his father Mother until this moment. Still alive or not, still healthy.you're luckier Qeena. Still had time to meet the biological father even in a bad condition" said Bu Fia.
"Iya Bun .. The departure of the Father certainly makes sad, but sad tuh ga in a very deep. how to explain it .. yes just lost, not lost" said Qeena.
"It's only natural you don't feel too lost, because from a small age you don't know. But Mommy salutes your attitude of legowo accepting the presence of Iyus with all his problems" Bu Fia praised.
"You want to be taken angry and disappointed there must be Bun. Even not wanting to deal with a man because of him. But since the same marriage Mas Dafi all changed. Even far away if the bandingin Mas Dafi is the same as the Deceased, but from Mas Dafi it is Qeena to learn a lot about all the destiny that exists" replied Qeena.
"Yes .. Mas emang give a lot of positive vibes for people around him. Though the rich Mother feels she again there is a problem. The same business of KPK was he silent, his love was so finished. Now also Mother feels she has a problem, but be quiet if Mother asks. You know what kind of problem he has?" ask Ms. Fia.
"Maybe cape a few times Bun" Qeena closed.
Actually, he could tell Bu Fia about the problems faced by Dafi, but Qeena began to understand the same style of Dafi who did not want everything to be thought of because of the problem.
"Yes .he was hard work to interrupt, and that was it. Too serious and focused. While the taste of cape has not been felt again" said Bu Fia.
"But he could lose focus Bun if Qeena deketin .. hehehe" joked Qeena.
"That's not wrong anymore. So bucin is it, but it was not so much the same girl. Sorry for Qeena if Mommy remembers the past, but of all the girls known to us, there are no flirtatious Mas to the girl. Until the time we went to Sungai Penuh, already fiancee is also common, there is no mesra-friendly. Yes, just like you, Mommy sees him friendly, competitive, just hugging in front of us all. As the eldest, the prestige is high" said Bu Fia.
"Initially also Bun, still stiff. Fortunately we know from childhood, so yes already quite know each other" said Qeena.
"Thank you Ya Qeena .. already present in Mas Dafi's life, can make Mother better. Who would have thought the child that Mother used to underestimate, just a lot of love lessons. How the balance you equal the twist of fate, so life lessons for Mother who is much better than you. Mother's mother used to work anyway, so had a salary. No, no one from Noah had a job. Must be living a shortage, right? Don't go to school, make eating difficult. Alhamdulillah Mother can still school and eat, although all saved. Once you become a wife, you can make your husband better, even if you are young, but Mas Dafi can submit to what you say. Your struggle to change your fate with the cake trade also deserves thumbs up, until the point now must not be easy. A lot of sweat comes out, a lot of patience is tested and certainly a lot of do'a is bounced. Plus the death of Iyus, more and more Mother learns from you, accepts the past and is willing to forgive. Mother until this second never met the Father, even never terbesit desire to meet. So Mother never wondered about the past to the Mother's family, yes you could say Mother had buried it deeply in the story. It is still a light in our family. Father Dzul must be proud to have made you a child who can bring happiness and kindness to all of us" said Bu Fia sincerely.
The atmosphere made this son-in-law and in-laws embrace. There is a tear at the end of the eyelid.
"Bun .. thanks for accepting Qeena as a daughter-in-law at Mother's house. Giving your child pride for Qeena" replied Qeena.
"Udah ah don't be sad mulu, we have to show if we are strong and great women. Tomorrow you want to do the delayed order, right?" ask Ms. Fia.
"Yes Bun .. Erin tea still want order fifty pack ungkepan chicken same sambelnya. Kaya already open PO in Bakulan Bunda. Alhamdulillah was also open PO in Qukis by Qeena, there are five people who are cool. The chicken is already the same order Bakulan Bunda, yes share the benefits of Bun" explained Qeena.
"That's you, never want to go forward alone, must be hijacked. Last month, the first edition of Mother came to the police station RT yes, decades only aja name, which came represented by the same house people who were again relaxed. You can't come because you go with Mas Dafi, everyone says you know. He said the example of a wife is worth emulating. Udah people are good, have a business also ngajak citizens around, ga stingy love the science of cakes sold, wow anyway the value plus plus plus plus really deh. Which in-laws are not proud to try. Everyone says this Mother is a lucky in-law. O Mother answer me, Allah is All-Good to send you as a child of Mother" said Ms. Fia.
"Too high altitude" replied Qeena low.
"In fact .. until you praise your beauty, some even say that if all women se RT lined up, you are the most beautiful. Even the one who is still the girl on insecure is the same as you. Raise the dream level of the men around here to have a wife at least rich you standard" continued Bu Fia.
"But don't know them if Qeena was stubborn, difficult to say and still want to be free no one set. Fortunately, Mas Dafi's rich husband who understands the character of Qeena, if not mah Bun .. has been noisy every day" said Qeena.
"Hehehe. sometimes we women want to feel good. Dinasehatin instead we say to bawel. He knows we're smart. It's not hard because it's often hard. That's why we have a husband with a character that is much different from us .. let us insyaf .. hahaha" said Bu Fia.
Qeena laughed too. Both of them also sleep cuddling like Mother and daughter.