Turns Out He Is A Boy
Decisions

In that room I kept looking at the very charming face of Glasya. It was like an unparalleled pleasure just looking at his face. Which makes my heart beat so hard just nearby.

I became afraid of one thing.Would one day if I showed myself to Glasya, would Glasya leave me as before?. That's all I'm afraid of, maybe I'd better live in a shadow that I made myself.

Instead of showing me the truth, and making everything that has passed disappear just like that because of the truth. I want to continue forever like this, seeing her sweet smile, and her very gentle nature towards me.

"Why...why do you keep looking at me like that?" glasha asked embarrassed.

I didn't realize I was just staring at Glasya, thinking of something bad that was going to happen to us. I have confused this little princess, I will no longer worry her, because I will continue to be beside her to provide a sense of security.

"I'm sorry, tell me who you have that perfect face for" I said, teasing her a little, and it made her face like a huge tomato. Glasya turned his gaze away, and lowered his head while grumbling.

Then I stood up, and leaned forward while stroking his yellow hair. Of course Glasya was very surprised, and immediately looked at me with a smile that held back his embarrassment.

Then Glasya grabbed my hand which stroked his head. He put my hand on his cheek while tightly grasping my hand with a wide smile. Because of that, my heart stopped beating.

"I don't know.. Am I okay?" glasha asked who changed the look on her face to be sad all of a sudden. I was a little surprised because he suddenly turned this happy atmosphere into nothing.

"I think you're okay" I said bluntly.

"The palm of your hand is big enough for a beautiful woman like you" said Glasya, who continued to stroke my hand against her cheek.

"Ah really? haha.. I don't know what a compliment is or what, but.thank you" said I who smiled full of haru.

"Why not every time I look at you for so long. It was like seeing someone I had known for a long time. Maybe because you look so much like the people I know, I like you" said Glasya, who said it honestly while bowing his head.

His words left me in great shock because his words I needed a place to let go of everything. I immediately went to the toilet with a slightly limp body as soon as I heard it. I walked into the toilet and put my hand against the wall to help me walk.

As soon as I entered, I saw myself in the glass in the toilet. I looked at myself, and suddenly only my real self, Claude, appeared in the glass. It seems I started hallucinating because of the influence of the alcohol I drank earlier.

So I see myself who's a man in front of a mirror now. Though I was just silently looking at the bathroom mirror, but my figure in the mirror was smiling at me which clearly showed that he was very depressed all this time.

Fake smiles that have been given to people. I was surprised, and walked back slowly, but my figure in the mirror continued to look at me with that annoying smile. Then, strangely again, he spoke to me, at that time I thought that I was really crazy, because I drank too much alcohol.

"What do you mean by your words?" I asked a little scared.

"You must be able to hold it back, until our business is completely finished" said the mirror-message me, again with words I could not understand.

"Please.. hiks... don't give me a riddle... hiks... I'm fed up with all this" said I who sobbed, crouching.

"I wish for another me, because for now only you can solve all the problems that have happened for a long time" again I do not understand the meaning of his words.

I just cried while listening to it, and watched my whole body. I don't know why I didn't like my form like this, I felt like I wanted to go back to being who I really am, and erase the traces of Gillie that I've been carrying.

"Don't.this is my hope, so please solve our problems together. I beg of you, and hope for you" he said to confuse me, "What hope" is that?.

Why would he expect me? who we are the same person, then he begged me, and said solve my problems together. What exactly is the matter he means? a long-standing problem?.

After rethinking my words in the mirror, I finally realized, and understood everything he said. I immediately stood up, and looked at the mirror that was in front of me, but there was only myself currently in that mirror.

Now that I know everything, I understand. About what I said earlier. He asked me not to first show the real me to the world.

I had to hold back the real me until the problem I had been feeling was completely over. The problem in question is. robin.

Until I've actually solved my problem, or revealed the truth about Robin. Only then will I show the real me to the world, that all this time I've been shutting my true self by the shadows I created myself.

But...What about Yudo? is he ready for all this? does he want to continue living in the shadows he made for all eternity?. If it was the best thing for him, there was nothing I could do for him.

I don't care anymore what happened to Glasya once I know who I really am. It's not that I've given up on her, or that I don't love her anymore. Because I want Glasya to choose the path that is best for him.

If he wants to leave me again like that, then I won't chase him again like that. Because maybe it's the best choice for him, but if he still gives me a chance, or still accepts me for who I am.

Then I will not miss the opportunity that the world has given me. I'm gonna grab it, and make a world between the two of us. A very perfect world, not a cruel world like what I am feeling right now.

Wait for me. I. I. will do my best for myself. and show the world who I am... Claude.