Turns Out He Is A Boy
Actually was...

I don't know why something like that is so important we can forget. About our wedding!? holy jeez! it is impossible for us to marry a man unless we are not normal men. Since we are already famous like this, surely rumors about our marriage will someday spread.

What if they think that I'm a woman marrying a woman. I am actually a man. We will not be married for ever because we keep this huge personal secret.

Then there were a lot of rumours about the four of us dating each other. But that's not all true! you stupid fans spread false rumors. Maybe I have one way to get all the marriage problems resolved.

"Hey Yudo.. Have you ever thought about your marriage someday?" my many.

Then Yudo paused for a moment, "Wedding huh? but what do you mean by.." Yudo suddenly froze, and did not dwell so much as to understand what I meant. His face turned pale, and his body became extremely cold like a corpse.

"You two don't have to bother thinking about marriage. Because we are the ones who will marry you" Akai said with a handsome face while holding both my hands.

Plaque! I slapped Akai tightly, "Talk what you're a jerk!" I said the upset one.

"Huhu.. You're still as fierce as you used to be" Akai said acting pretentious.

"Dismiss" muttered.

"Yes, what Akai said was true, because we had talked before" said Carlo, who brushed his hair.

"What do you mean?" my question, meanwhile, Yudo was still frozen. It seems like she was really shocked because of my words earlier, and maybe she was thinking about a bad thing that would happen to her!.

"Our point is. I will marry Miss Yaomi, and Akai will marry you Miss Gillie" Carlo said as he stroked Yudo's hair, but Yudo kept quiet, and he was still, and he didn't dwell because he didn't seem to be conscious.

"Yep! that's absolutely right! we've decided that!" akai said with a burning spirit.

"You make decisions with one side, whereas the other party will not necessarily agree with you or not. Because we! I will not marry a man!" I said that screamed loudly involuntarily because it was carried away.

Then everyone who was here was shocked, and looked at us in surprise. So did Akai, and Carlo who seemed to be very shocked by my words just now. Damnit damnit! I was wrong to speak because I got carried away, it's all because of these two fools!.

"What's!? don't-don't. y'all." said the two of them while pointing at us.

"It's not like that I mean you idiot! akhs! because of your misunderstanding I thought of the unknown!" I said shouting loudly.

"Then what did you mean Miss Gillie" Akai said.

"I mean is. We're currently planning not to think about plans to get married for a while. Because we still want to take care of our career first. Isn't that right, Yaomi?" I said while hitting Yaomi's back hard so that she would come to her senses.

"Eh!? what's!? yep! aye!" yudo.

Then it was time for us to get home from work, the four of us planned to eat together at the restaurant to talk about our live broadcast together with the famous artist Glasya later. We booked a VIP venue for the four of us, so that this conversation would not leak out.

"So...what's the reason you invited Glasya idol to come live with you?" akai asked while sipping a drink.

"Nothing to say, we just want to get to know Glasya more closely. Because maybe that way our popularity will increase, hahaha!" said Yudo who laughed horribly.

"Yes, what Yaomi said is true" I said.

"Yet again you just want to increase your popularity. Don't you guys have anything else to do? something that you want, not something that other people want" said Carlo who suddenly made this atmosphere more serious.

We both fell silent because the words that Carlo said were on target. It is true what Carlo said, if all this time we just follow the words of others, and pursue our popularity. To make us more famous, and to be loved by many, without thinking of our own desires.

"Ah stop! why are you busy taking care of other people. Take care of yourself" said I, who was upset that I couldn't return his words.

"But we're just worried about you two. Because you look like you've never been happy living a life like this" said Carlo, who kept saying piercing words to us.

"Hey stop! we're so happy you stupid. See us! our careers surpass yours, and we're so much better than you!" I said the upset one.

"But for what it's all worth, while you don't get the happiness you want" said Carlo, who again said.

"Hey already Carlo. Don't talk like this, you just offend them with your scathing words" Akai said.

Then things became awkward because of Carlo's words earlier. Actually what Carlo said was no harm, I actually wanted to be said like that again by him. So that I can be aware of what I really want.

Come to think of it. What do I really want to do to be happy. Somehow because of what Carlo said, all the happiness I went through was empty. The false happiness I made myself was not the real happiness that came from my heart.

My heart felt so empty that I couldn't think what made me happy. How long have I been feeling empty like this, all this time I didn't realize that I was living in the shadow of the person I made myself.

Because I keep faking the real me, and never show even once the real me to others. If I show my true self to others, I can change.

This emptiness keeps flowing inside me, I guess I've been so happy all this time. Because a lot of timeless people supported me, and praised me. They cheered me on endlessly, and I guess I was very happy about it.

It turned out that it wasn't real happiness, then what I was feeling at that moment. It was just a sense of pride because so many people supported me, and encouraged me. Maybe because that's what makes me feel happy.

But it is not true happiness. Because of all the people who supported me, they weren't actually supporting me. They only support the other me. The fake me, not the real me.