Turns Out He Is A Boy
Suffering

Then I have to how to get them to answer my question. It is impossible for me to show them my true identity in order for them to answer all my questions. After all, if it were like that, it would only make bad things happen to me again.

"You know what you did to my friend? you've made my friend die!" I said to Yudo.

"Then you're on your own. Don't you think your deeds are to innocent people. You just kill him like they're worthless" replied Yudo, who hates me.

Perhaps his hatred was because of my actions that had killed innocent people for him. After all, people like him want to understand about the lives of people like us who live on the streets. We are always in danger, wherever we are.

As for him, people who live well on the suffering of people like us who live on the streets. We have to be ready to fight, and compete on the outside, in order to survive. After all, this is all because of your actions I have to live like this.

"Hey... You know what about us, huh?" I asked while pulling his collar.

"What do you mean." asked Yudo who seemed like he really did not understand about our lives as a delinquent.

"Don't you know what kind of life we live every day! we live like rats, we never feel calm. Because these jerks are always looking for trouble with us! you know what about us who live as delinquents huh!" I shouted very angry.

Back Yudo was silent for a moment, "But you shouldn't have killed anyone else, and made a mess everywhere" Yudo said as he turned his gaze to me.

Plaque! I slapped Yudo hard in the face, "If we don't kill him, we'll die. If you don't make a mess how can we survive. You think living like a mouse is easy" I said, holding back my tears.

Yudo, and Peter who saw me was a little stunned, they could only be silent after I spewed the facts about life as a delinquent in the streets. Because living like that, will never make someone safe for him.

"You're trying to live as a delinquent like us for just a day. You'll soon find out how much we've suffered living like this. While you rich people, can live well without having to care about people like us" I said that makes them more cornered.

"I understand.your life must be very painful, no." said Yudo, who made us all surprised to see his face. Her face was full of tears, while still smiling, as if she had once felt the same way as us.

Is it true... does that face show us the truth? a face that looks very honest. Did he really experience the same thing as us, living on the streets somewhere, because life like this does not have a future anymore.

It was as if God had taken away the life that one had. Until someone no longer has a purpose in their life. Because the world he has, it no longer means anything to him, nor to anyone else.

Plaque! the plaque! the plaque! I kept slapping him crying, "Don't look at us like that!" I said keep slapping him.

"Just slap until you're satisfied, and trust me, even if you'll never believe me" Yudo said.

A few minutes later I was exhausted from slapping him in the face. But on the other hand, I was thinking about why I really feel like a woman. Argha! it's really embarrassing, unconsciously because I'm used to it. I became like a real woman, this can't be allowed.

But in the meantime, I saw the face of Peter who seemed to dislike me very much, and also Yudo for having behaved like that. It seems like Peter's heart is harder than I thought, maybe he's experienced something different from us, which makes his heart not care about others.

"Why... quit? just continue" said Yudo who kept asking to beat his face.

"W-what!? have you lost your mind? look at your face that's not shaped like that. But you still want me to beat up again?" I said inexhaustible with Yudo's attitude.

"Stop your stupidity Yudo! why are you doing this all for the sake of people like them! why do you pity people like them!" peter said to shout, as if he could not accept that Yudo did all this for us.

"Well, we're gonna die for what else we hate them. After all, they are very similar to me for a long time." said Yudo smiling sadly.

"You gave your life only to people like them" said Peter, who could not believe what Yudo had done.

"Of course, because they're similar to me. Don't you feel sorry for them? don't you empathize with them?" ask Yudo.

"Haha! why do I love fools like them! people who have no future. Basic murder!" said Peter whose eyes were glazed over as if he wanted to cry loudly. But Peter held back his tears from seemingly wanting to hide his pain.

"Do you hate me so much?" I asked Peter.

"of course! you jerks" Carlo suddenly came, and kicked Peter hard.

"Take care of your words to our lady!" carlo said with annoyance.

"Stop Carlo. Just take care of yourself, because they are my business" I said.

Then Peter followed, and went back together to see me talking to them. I thought I was the only one suffering, once I went through time with them. I feel their pain for living like this.

I used to be very selfish because I thought everyone was always happy. While I don't, I've always suffered, nobody likes me. They all hate me for no reason, I don't know why they used to be like that.

But for sure, they also have different sufferings. There are a lot of people who suffer more than me. I don't know why, to make others not think rationally. Let go of all false happiness, and turn it into hate.

That hatred continues to grow as long as they continue to suffer. Which makes people have the desire to kill, and no longer pity others. Has Robin ever experienced the same thing? even though I still don't understand why he did that to me.

I'm sure Robin's been suffering because of me. I don't know for what reason, I can figure it out because of my father's last message at the time. Because he's been hurt all this time, and I'm pretty sure that the person he was referring to was Robin.