Turns Out He Is A Boy
Guilt

The next morning on a clear day a prince had just woken up from his bed that looked ordinary. He began to lower his toe to the floor, and walked slowly to the window to enjoy the fresh air in the morning.

Huuuft. That made him feel calm from all the problems he had faced so far. It felt... Geck! poke! poke! the prince heard a strange voice unknown where it came from.

"Wake up! you slackers! let's see when you sleep! wake up from your dream" shouted someone sitting on top of me. He's nothing but a fucking kid, what I mean is Yohan. He interrupted my beautiful dream, but it was a beautiful dream.

But it was all just destroyed by my immoral sister. Then I glared sharply, "You till when you keep sitting on top of me" I asked as I clenched my hand.

Then finally Yohan came down from my body, "It's not usual for you to wake up like this" Yohan said innocently.

"It's hour now, my God! why don't you wake me up huh!?" I said that I was very surprised to see the clock that I woke up late, which is exactly now 10 o'clock.

I ran here and there quickly to start my day. From like eating, then after bathing, and then again you must know. The only thing is to study in a room, without anyone being able to disturb the prince from his throne.

"Why does my sister look so childish today?" asked Yohan who was still in my room as soon as I finished eating, and took a shower.

"What's!? why are you still in my room! go there quickly!" I shouted in annoyance while driving him away. But Yohan insisted on staying in my room, maybe my patience was running out now, and it was time I had to...

"It's.. It belongs to brother's friend, right?" my sister said it showed me a book. The book surprised me and became sad. It was the book Eren had given me back then, "Human Heart".

But what makes me weird about Yohan the most is how she found out about this book when she was still an ungodly child. I mean he's still kicking in my mom's stomach.

"Remember.this book does not belong to my friend, but it is mine" I said, grabbing the book from Yohan's hand. This book was the only precious memory he gave. This is all I have to remember him.

Eh!? just wait! didn't I intend to forget my past last night! Argha! damn I hate it so much. But it's useless how hard I forget it, it's a waste to me. Because he has infused so many memories with me.

Of course, no one can forget a precious memory with someone in his life. Because of the memories that make us grow into a new personality, or better.

"Oh yeah.. by the way..how did you know about my friend? though at that time you were an ungodly child" I said who was curious how Yohan who knew nothing about me, turned out she knew it more deeply.

"Mother told me that she told me everything" Yohan said.

I was surprised again! is it true what Yohan said earlier!? if you tell me everything about my friend Eren?. If that's true... Yohan must have known my bad nature.

So no one believes what Eren's parents told him about what happened to his son. Then suddenly came the news that said that Eren's parents were crazy, and in the end they were put into a mental hospital, and he was kept there until now.

"W-what...have you...have you heard the story of my ugliness?" I said as I lowered my face in fear that someone might know about my ugliness.

"Yes, I already know that you're a very annoying sister to me. But on the other hand big brother is a very good person" Yohan said innocently.

Then I looked at him sharply to find out what he was thinking. It turned out that from the look of his innocent face, Yohan did not know about my ugliness at that time. Thank goodness I didn't tell you more about me.

"So.. Where did you tell me?" my many.

"Until the brother's friend goes abroad together with his parents" Yohan said.

So right, if Yohan doesn't know anything about my past. She also told me lies about her at the time. If only my mother had told me the truth, I might have been filled with guilt, and would have been afraid to meet other people right then and there.

"Then...Is there anything else that you're telling me? and how did you get this book?" ask me to hang out because I want to know what you told me about Yohan.

"At the end of the story mom only tells because that's why it's difficult to make friends because of brother's past. When it comes to this book, I accidentally found it on my sister's bookshelf. Then I saw someone's name in this book, and I asked my mother right then and there" Yohan said at length how she knew.

It turned out that it was not the mother who told him suddenly, but Yohan who asked suddenly. Even so, in this world there was only me, my parents, and both of Eren's parents who knew about the incident at that time.

"Oh yes brother.mom gave a photo, mother said this photo should be handed over to brother. He said this photo has a picture of his brother's friend" said Yohan gave me a picture.

I took the photo and saw it full. I turned my back, and told Yohan to come out, and then Yohan came out. Because it looks like Yohan's job is done until she gives me this photo.

There was only one photo given to me, or there were many more. But I didn't know that mom was taking pictures of me all this time. In this photo, I was asleep at the time, and leaned my head on Eren's shoulder.

At that time Eren was telling me a book until I fell asleep. That book was none other than the one he gave me, "Human Heart". I stared at the photo while holding back my tears so firmly.

But I couldn't hold back my tears, because my memories of being with him in the past kept appearing in my head. It makes me want to cry hard. My guilt for him, has not disappeared, if only I had met him in the blink of an eye.

I will definitely apologize for what I did to her, and live life as I did to her. Being friends with him, laughing with him, playing with him, I was eager to meet him and asked for forgiveness.