Turns Out He Is A Boy
The Painful Life

I instilled my intention to kill Robin on him. Since I won't die that easily, I will continue to rise. Even if the world rejects me so many times, I don't care! I will keep getting up, and trying. Until no one is above me!.

I ran towards him, and raised my feet in quick succession, to the right, and to the left like that next. I kept looking at her face, but she kept prying it with her hands. Then came my moment to raise my fist from the front as soon as he let his guard down.

Bugh! my punch made it in, and made him fall. A nosebleed spits out a lot of blood, then I keep attacking him, and won't let him get up. The situation turned upside down, he could not get up at all because I kept beating him when he would get back up.

No matter how hard my life is, I will not let anyone surpass me. I raised my foot up 180 degrees, then swung it fiercely once towards the head of that person. Crews! that guy held my attack using his right hand, and broke his bone.

Then he quickly got up, and jumped back to dodge my attack. I did not expect after I attacked in such a row that he could still rise up perfectly, and also his gaze was still as before, he did not change that horrible look at all.

Do I have any fault with him? until it makes him like that. Staring at me with the intention to kill, all the bruises on his body due to my attack were like nothing to him except his hatred towards me.

"It turns out you're a tough girl too.I didn't think you were so strong" she said suddenly.

"What makes you hate me so much?" ask me frankly.

"Huh!? it looks like yes, you want to know what my answer is. I'll tell you after you're dying, and you'll die. Then apologize to her, you jerk!" said the man who ran towards me with a burning anger in his heart.

He jumped up high, and prepared to hit my head with both hands. I raised my hand to fend it off, but suddenly my whole body became sick, and congested. I fell limp down before receiving an attack from him.

My breathing became irregular, it felt like something was happening to me that was causing me pain, and shortness of breath like this. Cold sweat soaked my body quickly, and it felt like I would die from this kind of pain.

Actually what makes me like this, once I remember back about my opponent's attack before. I remember that moment he kicked me in the stomach so tight, that I vomited blood from my mouth.

"Ugh.. akh. it hurts... once" I said trying to endure the excruciating pain.

"The pain you feel is not as painful as the pain I experience" said the person slowly approaching me, and sat down in front of me.

"W-what, you mean..."

"You. 'cause you. huhu.. you killed the only family I have!" said the man while banging this hard floor until it made his hand bleed.

"What cares about you that even you are a murderer! you who have no heart for what ask my sister's name!" yelled at the man while crying loudly.

"Sorry..."

"I'm sorry to my sister after I killed you!" said the man while lifting up a knife he took from my cooking utensils on the 4th floor. Then my tears began to pour down my cheeks.

That person was surprised to see me crying with guilt. He hesitated to kill me because he saw me cry. His hand, which had been filled with a great energy to kill me, was now beginning to tremble.

"It's inappropriate! it's inappropriate for someone like you to cry, and put on such a guilty face!" yell that guy.

"I-i. I..." I suddenly lost consciousness because the pain was getting worse. That person's suffering, just so you know.I may suffer more than you. The life I live, the life I live all this time means nothing.

I got nothing from my life but the pain, the regret, the crying, the suffering I was going through were all bad things. My life began to crumble just because someone was Robin.

I began to think if this was karma for me? because I killed someone who loved me so much. People who care about me are like a mother who loves her child.

He was my friend... Eren... Is this karma? the karma Eren gave me. Because I betrayed him, and threw him away just for my own sake. If that's why I'm willing, I'm willing to suffer like this. But if it wasn't for you, and because of other people, I wouldn't be willing to live a life like this at all.

If only time could I turn back as I please. I will definitely do my best for you, I will keep repeating the time until I do my best for you even for a second. I will keep repeating it until I get the perfection for your life.

But it's all just my delusion. To think that I could repeat time, but it was impossible in a world like this. I'm sorry, Eren, if only I hadn't betrayed you, and treated you well.

We will live together happily, without suffering. If only.. hiks...if I hadn't done it, huhu!. Hiks hyks.everything has passed, and my life will end right now.

will it be in nature there later.. I can meet you Eren? I'm so scared. I'm so afraid that I can't meet you, because I've done a lot of bad things in my life. Unlike you who always smile cheerfully, and always do good to others.

Your figure like that makes my heart envious when I see you. Why do you look perfect in my eyes, because of her perfection, I betrayed her, and took her precious life for me, as well as others.

I'm sorry I killed you, Eren, maybe it's too late for me to apologize like this. Haha! I am a stupid man! useless. If only we hadn't met then, and if only when we first met you didn't care about me. You're definitely not going to experience something like this Eren.