Turns Out He Is A Boy
Guilt

An hour had passed, but Yudo kept looking at me with a smile like that. But I didn't care, and went to sleep. But somehow it was hard to sleep, and then I saw Yudo whether he was still looking, or not.

It turns out he still sees me! though it's been an hour or so is he not tired of looking at me constantly like that?. Actually what he wanted, long ago I became annoyed with him.

"Hey! what are you looking at, huh?" I asked in annoyance while clenching my hand.

"Haha! are you really the Claude I know? I don't know why I suspected you after seeing this. You really look like a woman, and that male voice just now might have been you making it yourself" Yudo said suspecting me with a serious look.

"Who else knows our secret in the woods besides you, and me?" I asked who made Yudo shocked.

"Ukh! don't talk about it anymore, you idiot!. Alright I believe you" said Yudo who was holding his head, as if he was having a headache from thinking about it.

"Huh..had I been going to take a shower, just be careful if you peek at me" I said as soon as I got out of bed.

Which then I went to go to the bathroom that had been made by my friends before. At that time I asked them to make a bathroom made of cement, then ceramiced in the room in order not to penetrate out. They make it quite good, the room is also quite spacious for the bathroom.

"Wait a minute." said Yudo.

Then I stopped my steps, "What's wrong?"

"After you take a shower, show your true self. Because I was so curious about you who Claude really is! I couldn't sleep" Yudo said.

"What! so you couldn't sleep out of curiosity, and just pretended to sleep?" I was surprised too.

"of course! because. I haven't seen you in a long time. You were my best friend when I showed my true self in the woods. You feel so good to me" Yudo said.

I don't know why I was so moved to hear it, and smiled sweetly at it unconsciously. Because I used to smile like this to everyone I met, so subconsciously I always did. Akh fuck.

"A shitty smile.. But it's pure from your heart isn't it?" yudo said to my surprise.

"Ah!? so you realize that yes, then I'll take a shower first, and show my true self to you" I said going into the bathroom.

In order to sleep, I don't have to wear that disgusting bra. Oh, my God, when I remember the first time I wore it, it felt so weird. To the point that I wanted to die because of his shame, but thank God no one knew except Yudo. But now Yudo was wearing it, haha!.

I finally finished the shower, and came out of the bathroom after putting on my favorite pajamas inside. But as soon as I got out I was surprised, and a little upset that Yudo was already fast asleep in my old bed. Argh sucks that guy, he said he wanted to see the real me.

But he's asleep! argh sucks so much! do I wake this jerk up. Ah... It is better not to, because he said earlier he could not sleep because of his curiosity. But thank goodness she's asleep now, and more to her advantage I can sleep in a new bed.

But before that I moved all of my stuff in my old closet to a new, bigger, nice closet. Soon it will enter at night, the sun begins to set, and only emits orange-colored light.

It looked so beautiful, I went to the guardrail, and looked at the outside world. Usually, the thing I do first at a time like this is watering the plants in my yard.

I don't know why I suddenly think back to the memories of the past when I was living in my old house. Then at night I went into the house, and mom prepared a nice dinner, even though my cooking was actually better.

All of a sudden I smiled as I imagined it, and my tears began to drip so much as I remembered more deeply about my past. I fought a lot, and competed with my sister Yohan, but now such times are no more.

Or maybe there will never be another, and then for my sister Elijah, she always invites me to play. She rarely played with her brother Yohan because her wealth was so annoying, and it was true. Then for mom, she did her job well, it was really a really great mom figure for me.

Then for dad.hah.I am worthy to say father's word to him. Though I was already very different from the one I was, I was already a bad man, a murderer, no different from the one who killed my father back then.

Then I've also destroyed a man's self-esteem by wearing a woman's clothes every day, then always make up, and wearing a bra that sucks. I still feel uncomfortable wearing a bra.

If my family sees me like this right now, what will their reaction be. Of course if my brother Yohan that jerk would definitely laugh out loud seeing me like this, like a freak. But for me this is not strange, it is for the sake of life's salvation!.

If it was for my sister Elijah, maybe she would like me, and think of me as a big sister, and not a big brother. Then surely he will also treat like a woman, and maybe play cookery.

If it was for my mother, maybe she'd think like my sister Elijah. Because my mother always hoped that her first child was a girl, not a boy. Surely my life would be much scarier if they knew I was being a woman.

Then for dad... roughly what reaction when he saw me like this well?. I don't know why I don't know it feels like it's not in my memory. Because you are rarely seen at home, because you are always busy working. I don't know what my father works like every day, so I don't come home all day.

Therefore I don't know what my father's reaction was to see me like this. But maybe in nature, you're looking at me right now, ah. somehow it suddenly feels so bad. As really noticed by my father at this time.