A Little Hope For Ashma
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One year Ashma tried sincerely and continued her life with colorful diverse stories. Healing from pain is necessary, and the will to rise again to live a life that will go on every day. 

Ashma was really busy, being a nurse was indeed a very exhausting profession, but it was only a temporary complaint. Actually, what is felt to be a nurse is an extraordinary gift because this profession can bring blessing. 

Like Ashma who is now found caring for a 7-month-old baby who is very funny. Ashma even dreamed of having a cute baby like the one she was looking at right now. 

Brushing aside her distant mind, Ashma chuckled to herself at her delusion earlier. Actually he had feelings for doctor Gilang, the man who had handled his mother at that time.

Since the beginning he met doctor Gilang Ashma has fallen in love at first sight, but Ashma was able to dismiss the feeling because at that time was a year that was quite heavy for Ashma so gradually he was indifferent to his feelings for the doctor Gilang. 

But this time Ashma doesn't want to shake her feelings anymore. Ashma really fell in love with Gilang doctor who is amazing cold, not much to say but once in action was like a super hero.

Dr. Gilang is 3 years older than Ashma, now Gilang 28 years old and Ashma 25 years old. Wow it is very mature to step into serious level. But Ashma does not want to be too hopeful with humans, after all doctor Gilang is cold and indifferent especially very rarely talk to Ashma so where maybe he also has the same feelings with him.

Ashma must also be able to control himself because it seems like Gilang doctor likes others and that is Halifa, a new doctor who is doing a task for 4 months in the hospital of compassion, he said, that was what Ashma felt with her own alibi. 

It is undeniable that Ashma's chest throbbed pain, but not necessarily certainty. Ashma only guessed because seeing Gilang doctors interact a lot with Halifa, Doctor Gilang also often smiled on the sidelines of their chat, different if he was with Ashma.

As now, Ashma quietly noticed the movements of the two men in the hospital canteen. Ashma really looks like a stalker. 

"Doctor Gilang looks very happy to talk to doctor Halifa, while with me he's really very cold." Monologue Ashma. He smiled wryly as he chewed his food. 

"Oh, the more I'm like this the more I wish doctor Gilang."

Ashma left the cafeteria, she had also finished her lunch. Depressing this jealousy Ashma decided to take ablution water to calm down. 

Without realizing it actually doctor Gilang realized the presence of Ashma. He also had several times to see Ashma who always stole a look at him and the doctor Halifa. Doctor Gilang smiled faintly, he really liked Ashma's facial expression which was like he was holding back an upset. 

...•••...

The day went on and faster, it did not feel like it was 3 months since the arrival of Dr. Halifa, today is the last time she worked as a nurse at Kasih Hati hospital. Ashma has decided to stay in Palestine with her grandmother, she also gets the news that her grandmother often falls ill and it is time for Ashma to accompany her Grandmother in old age.

There is no other reason for Ashma to remain in Indonesia. His father and mother were gone, his extended family had freed him to live his life, and his feelings for doctor Gilang were completely unrequited, with whom he received painful news.

A week ago doctor Gilang and doctor Halifa gave an unexpected invitation, they are getting married in the near future and Ashma is heartbroken to discover the fact that her loved ones announced the date and day of her wedding, which is her wedding, it hurt so much that Ashma was disappointed with herself, again she was too hopeful for humans and this was the result. 

"Aren't you going to come back Ashma?" This is the question of doctor Gilang the third time, Ashma was wondering why doctor Gilang to question him repeatedly. 

"Third question doc,"

"I just want to make sure."

"The doctor had heard my answer that I would not return to settle in Indonesia, but occasionally I would go home to meet my mother's family." Ashma explained again, this time he was a little upset. 

"I don't want you to go Ashma!" Ashma Tercenung heard what Doctor Gilang said. 

"Why did the doctor forbid me? The doctor has no right to do that!" Ashma is upset by Gilang's doctor.

"I know. But don't you think how the people who love you feel are left behind?" Doctor Gilang suddenly changed dramatically.

"I have no reason to stay here anymore, Mom and Dad are no more... " Doctor Gilang waited for the next words from Ashma's mouth. 

"The man I love is never sensitive. He chose another woman, and I was wrong to expect him to be too cowardly for not being frank." 

"Who?" Doctor Gilang asked, Ashma could only tell in his heart that the man was him. 

"Doctors don't need to know. He's been extinct ever since." After his last words Ashma chose to leave the doctor Gilang, but the voice of the baritone again stopped his steps.

"That guy was me, right?" Ashma.

"Besides the doctor trying to restrain me, the doctor was also overconfident!" Ashma bit her own lips, holding tightness in her chest for lying.

This separation is the end of all his feelings. He deliberately said ketus to doctor Gilang because Ashma was afraid that the man gave hope while there were other women who had been waiting for him.

About the news that Ashma heard in addition to the wedding invitations that were suddenly announced by Doctor Halifa and doctor Gilang, he also heard rumors that they were betrothed by their parents, but Ashma knows that Halifa's doctor really loves Gilang. Ashma herself heard the statement two months ago from the mouth of Halifa's doctor. 

"Better I don't know what kind of doc the doctor feels about me. I'm afraid a good woman like doctor Halifa should be hurt because of me."

Shouldn't have it, right?

Doctor Gilang could only be silent. It turns out that he is a cowardly man, he is too proud to express his feelings of love from the beginning to Ashma. Now he has to lose the woman he loves.

About doctor Halifa. Doctor Gilang regretted that because it was not frank that he did not love her, he was forced to accept an arranged marriage from his parents.

Doctor Gilang could not bear to see Mother pleading to accept her arranged marriage with doctor Halifa, he said that in the past the Halifa family did not help their family they would not see Gilang can live until now, he said, he had an accident and Halifa's family helped with his entire administration.

Therefore the doctor Gilang could not resist, but he could not lie to his feelings that his heart was only for Ashma.

#TBC