A Little Hope For Ashma
29. Changes in Ashma's attitude

"Mas, it's night. Why don't you leave tomorrow?!"

Ashma did not run out of thought, Adam is very fond of wandering no matter the time of day, early morning so.

"Is there a job that has to go in the early hours like this?" ashma asked once again, Adam who was near the door of his room turned back his body.

"It's very important, I have to meet someone." He said firmly, Ashma let out a long sigh of not knowing what to do to keep Adam from leaving early in the morning like this.

Adam is too late to go to his apartment, but he promised Lily last night that he would come to the apartment, but because of his wife's charm that made Adam tempted so he could not resist his burning desire to be completed immediately made him forget his promise.

"May I beg you once, please don't go this time!" please Ashma so softly hope Adam wants to obey his wishes just once.

Adam was stunned to find Ashma's hopeful face, "I still have to go Ashma!" Adam continued his steps, making Ashma follow Adam.

"If one day I leave without telling you, would you look for me?" ashma's question again stopped her steps. Adam turned around with a cold face.

"Of course not, because by that time we were no longer anyone." Adam blurted out those words without him noticing like he had escaped from his mouth.

Collapse had been Ashma's defense all along just because of one sentence that completely ravaged his heart. The man's sweet words a few hours ago made Ashma now feel disgusted, should Ashma realize from the beginning that Adam only wanted his body.

Adam passed away leaving Ashma with a disappointment that could not be muted anymore, now he knew what step Ashma had to take next.

"Sorry, but this time I can no longer wait for you who are uncertain, plan your choice." Ashma wiped her tears violently, this time she would be firm to herself.

Some time passed so quickly, it was not felt that Ashma's pregnancy had entered the third month. His stomach has also been seen bloated, Ashma is grateful to be able to feel the pleasure of being a pregnant woman.

Now he is busy making cakes in the kitchen, also helping to realize his Mood that sometimes messy, at least his hobby of making cakes can take off the burden of his mind which is certainly not good for a pregnant woman.

"Have you drunk milk?" asked Adam who was walking to the place where his wife made the cake.

"Hm," Dehem Ashma, answered him with no intention.

Adam sighed heavily, already two months passed Ashma being cold to him made Adam frustrated and upset heavily.

Sometimes Ashma always prying not want to sleep in the room with him when there was a moment where Adam wanted to stroke Ashma's stomach, he really missed their baby candidate. But given the words of the doctor, that pregnant women should not be much thought, therefore Adam according to when Ashma wants them to sleep separately. As a result, every night Adam always came to their room when his wife was already sound asleep just to stroke and kiss the stomach of Ashma so longed for the utun.

Adam knew the reason for this change in his wife's attitude began after a small debate last time. When he returned to the Mansion a few days later, Ashma suddenly had a cold attitude towards him, even Ashma never again showed a warm smile to Adam.

At first Adam did not care about the change in attitude of his wife, but the longer Adam felt increasingly disturbed by Ashma's cold attitude. Adam dislikes it when his wife is able to show his sweet smile to his servants and guards while not to Adam.

"Until when are you cold to me?" ask Adam with annoyance. Ashma did not want to see Adam's face, the cake in front of her was more interesting than having to see her husband.

Adam could not stand Ashma like this anymore so he immediately approached and grabbed Ashma's waist carefully considering the content that had been seen poking.

Ashma still did not want to look at Adam, every time Adam did something like this Ashma remained firm in his stance not to care too much, let Adam feel his feelings that had always been dropped hope many times by Adam.

Adam blocked both of his wife's jaws slowly, positioning Ashma's face to see Adam.

"I don't want you to look at anything other than my face!" Adam's ultimatum made her want to look at her husband, always the threat made Ashma unable to dwell.

Their eyes were met with sharp gazes at each other, not wanting to lose each other with their respective egos.

"When do you want this Ashma?" furious Adam.

Ashma smiled cynically, "until we split up Mas!"

Adam who heard the answer repeatedly immediately grabbed Ashma's lips violently, Ashma just hit the chest of Adam's field so that Adam wanted to stop.

Ashma's tears fell in the midst of Adam's rough fondling, and she remembered the first time Adam had snatched his first kiss so violently.

"You're scaring me!" Ashma passed away leaving Adam with guilt.

Ashma cried so much in the room, more disappointed with Adam's ever-changing treatment sometimes sweet, cold or indifferent, while Ashma had tried not to expect attention or love from Adam again, but the man even displayed his unreasonable attitude towards Ashma's treatment.

"If things continue like this isn't parting sooner necessarily better, at least there will be no more false hopes for the man." Ashma murmured with a feeling of giddiness.

Ashma who was about to wake up suddenly stopped because Adam entered the room, his face displayed an illegible look that made Ashma guess.

Adam was standing at the corner of the door with a clear face. "Sorry,"

Ashma wiped her tears violently, throwing her face in any direction because her annoyance was still entrenched when she saw Adam.

"I just want you not to inhabit me anymore Ashma!" Adam sat on the floor, to the right of his wife, bending her knees.

"Let it be like this, and we'll be apart. I don't want to put my feelings on anymore!"

Adam rubbed his face in frustration, Adam also did not know why he was like this but he really did not want to hear a farewell sentence from Ashma's mouth.

"I've decided, let's get divorced." Adam immediately turned to Ashma with a heated face, Ashma lightly said so even though he had never uttered the word divorce.

Ashma also switched to look at Adam this time with a cold look that seemed to be tired of everything.

"How dare you say that phrase Ashma!" adam's hiss was sharp, he didn't accept Ashma saying as he pleased.

Ashma chuckled softly at Adam's puzzling response, "why are you angry, this is indeed going to happen!"

Adam growled furiously, "can you for now not say about such a thing?!'

"One year is a long time Mas why wait later why not just now?!" Ashma's sarcasm, filled with a sense of sadness that whack his heart because actually Ashma does not want to say this, for God's sake he does not want but what can be done if every moment must carry the wound.

"I said I can't now! What a hard thing to wait for a few more months Ashma!" Screeched Adam with an increasingly raised tone of voice. Adam got up to stand up and carried Ashma's body so as not to sit on the floor.

"Deliver!" ronta Ashma banged Adam's chest. Adam did not heed his wife's proposal, so he immediately brought Ashma's body to sit on the sofa.

They were silent for a while with their respective egos, letting the air neutralize each other's anger.

Adam took a deep breath, he sat down next to Ashma, but his wife stayed away. Adam relented because he remembered the health of Ashma and her future baby.

"I don't want to fight with you Ashma. Don't take me anymore!" adam said with a grim face.

Ashma still does not want to respond to the words of her husband she chose to return to inhabit Adam, let it be. Ashma wants to see how much she needs in Adam's life.

Ashma did not respond frustratingly to Adam. Adam knew he had gone too far last time for a remark that unknowingly hurt Ashma but Adam could not break the promise of having to see Lily that morning as well.

Given Lily, the woman was already getting healthier because Adam gave the best treatment for her. But Adam was a little afraid because Lily's memory of Edward always made him curious and asked Adam a lot.

Lily is also fussy about meeting aunt Marianee but Adam is still not ready because he does not know what to explain to aunt Marianee, especially Ashma, moreover, Lily must not know that she is married to another woman.

Adam who was aware of his daydream immediately looked at Ashma who was still the same did not turn towards him. With the initiative Adam hugged Ashma from behind, put his head dredged in Ashma's neck that was not covered in hijab.

"Please don't take me anymore. Don't drive me out tonight, I can't sleep if I don't stroke your stomach." Said Adam gently trying to melt Ashma who sulked at him.

Ashma heard her husband's amused speech on his own. Actually he knew at night Adam always came to their room just to stroke and kiss his stomach, in fact, he had also heard several times Adam talking to their baby-to-be to help melt his mother who was sulking.

"Let's feel what I've been feeling all this time. It would be a lie if you didn't have any feelings for me. Just because you haven't made peace with the past you're not even sensitive to your own feelings."

#TBC