A Little Hope For Ashma
22. The burden of longing for Adam

"Ashma," Call Adam a third time, his wife was daydreaming what she was thinking.

Ashma's daydreams are crumbling, finding Adam's seemingly wondering face. "Sorry, Mommy,"

"What's wrong? Why daydream?"

"No-no, just a regular daydreaming Mas,"

Adam saw the lie in his wife's eyes but he did not want to know more, there was no time to chat anymore he had to leave for duty immediately.

"Yes, I'm saying goodbye."

Ashma kissed Adam's back for a long time. Feeling the turmoil did not want to part with him.

Adam ended their separation by kissing his wife's forehead, "if you miss, just call or video call," Ashma nodded lightly.

Adam took his feet away from Ashma, carrying the prayer stanzas that Ashma always offered to the almighty in order to protect Adam wherever he was.

Ashma stared at Adam's departure with objection in her heart, preventing even the feeling of being unable to.

"Why am I so heavy taking off Mas Adam huh? This is not usually. Am I in love with him?"

Ashma let out a long sigh with a small smile on her face, trying sincerely to be patient to wait for Adam's return.

Taking his foot inside, Ashma will try to occupy himself in this enormous Mansion, although some of the homework has been done by Ashma's servants still can not be separated from such responsibilities.

Seeing Karina, the beautiful girl who worked at Adam's Mansion passing by, Ashma immediately called out to her. Hearing her master call Karina immediately came to Ashma.

"Yes, how can I help you?"

Ashma looked at Karina's exhausted face, "Karina, rest first." The girl shook her head slowly, not daring to take a break if her work was not finished yet.

"No, Miss, I still have a lot of work."

Ashma brought the girl's body to sit on the sofa, "this is an order from me, it's better you rest first. I'll do the rest."

Karina immediately stood up from her seat, she lowered her small head, "Don't.it's not your job!"

Ashma chuckled softly, "it is precisely the task of the house is partly my work, I am married to Adam means I also have the right to participate in the responsibility of doing homework," explained Ashma gave understanding.

"But the waiter in this mansion has been a lot, Miss don't need to help us anymore, then what if Mr Adam is angry?"

"No, believe me now rest first." Ashma said giving a smile made Karina the most angry, she could no longer hold it, Miss was very big-hearted.

A pair of eyes were watching them, aunt Marianee was smiling at Ashma's magnanimity.

"Adam must recover from his past, and he deserves to be happy with Ashma."

Aunt Marianee wipes away her tears that she doesn't know when. Always like this considering his son, Adam has long suffered because he has not been able to let Lily go.

Some time rolling, Ashma who was busy cleaning the middle room in the mansion half felt dizzy his head, but he tried to brush it off again Ashma only clean a small.

But on the sidelines of his activity Ashma felt a strange turmoil in his body, he rested for a while.

"Why am I suddenly dizzy and nauseous?"

...•••...

The afternoon scene slowly sank into the dark, the sky slowly turned into a deep blue feel, and the sunlight slowly faded away. The atmosphere turned quiet and silent as the night drew closer.

Syahdu Adhan voice on Mobile Ashma screams silence gives peace of mind that is being overwhelmed with anxiety.

"He said he wanted to tell me, but at this time no message came in," anxious to color Ashma from noon, waiting for news from Adam but not yet there.

"Let it be, later if you remember it must be news!" Ashma grumbled slightly letting out her annoyance.

He immediately performed three of his obligations. Forgetting for a moment the anxiety that rests, it is better to just tell the owner of the heart so that the burden of longing for his servant decreases with a feeling of relief.

Drowning with the prayer he prayed, Ashma immediately rose to pick up the mushaf in the closet, reciting the verses of the Quran while perceiving its meaning.

Some time passed, he continued to work on four mandatory rakaat after finishing the adzan ringing on his phone.

That night Ashma was alone again without the presence of Adam, his sleep was not calm because he woke up several times. Ashma searched her cell phone hoping that Adam would send her a message and how happy Ashma would be to find some messages from her husband.

"I'm fine,"

"Don't stay up! Good night dear."

The last message from Adam was able to make Ashma misbehave, his own smiles like love slaves, his face until met red.

"Good Night Mas." Reply Ashma, then put his phone on the nightstand. He laid his body back with relief. Ashma fell asleep immediately after getting her wish.

Time passed by so quickly that a dim light of dawn appeared on the horizon, crawling the cloud layers with a golden touch. The cool and silent air began to fill with the sound of water gurgling.

Ashma who has finished carrying out two rakaat must decide to immediately clean up her room, but suddenly her intention was hempas when the nausea turmoil asked to be issued.

That morning Ashma vomited a lot of stomach contents to make his body become weak, finally Ashma drooped on the bed.

Aunty Marianee took care of Ashma all day even though her daughter-in-law was reluctant because she felt disrespectful but aunt Marianee still took care and took care of her daughter-in-law.

"Darling, come on to the hospital. Mama's afraid something's going on with you" she said worriedly. While Ashma still shook her head slowly, to be honest she just wanted Adam to be by her side.

Aunt Marianee's phone rang again, and she immediately picked up Adam's call.

"How's Ma?" Adam asked behind the phone, his voice looking anxious.

Aunt Marianee let out a heavy sigh, "Stay unwilling, even the doctor came home Ashma would not. Mama's just afraid your wife's why-why Adam."

"Ma, please give Ashma her phone."

Ashma grabs the phone proffered to her, "Mas," Adam hears Ashma's faint voice.

"Why not get checked?" Ask Adam as gently as possible.

"Ashma only wants Mas beside me," to be honest, he really wants Adam to be next to him, although it seems selfish but his desire feels inviolable.

"You are a nurse, you should understand your condition Ashma. I can't go home either." Ashma was grim, she should have been able to temper this desire.

"I'm sorry, I just kept working there." Ashma immediately gives the phone to Aunt Marianee making Adam a little upset.

"Adam, can't you go home first? Your wife really needs you, son."

Adam let out a long sigh, where might he leave this job after all there is an important task that he has to do.

"Sorry Ma, I can't go home now. Do not obey Ashma's wishes that do not want to be examined, I immediately contact Martinez's doctor."

Adam hangs up his phone and immediately looks for the contact number of doctor Martinez, his family doctor whom he trusts very much.

Martinez's doctor he called, Adam massaged his nose because Martinez's doctor was in Singapore. Adam can only trust Martinez's doctor, other than that he's afraid that his enemies are out there doing whatever crazy thing they used to do to Lily and that he can't leave to Ashma anymore.

Adam soon contacts again Aunt Marianee informing him that Martinez's doctor is in Singapore, he can only ask aunt Marianee to look after Ashma, however, aunt Marianee remembers the event so well that Adam did not trust doctors other than Doctor Martinez to come to his house.

"Dear Ashma, how are you doing is it getting more intense?" Ashma gave a small nod, miraculously after hearing Adam's voice his nausea just blew away.

"Make me some more honey tea?" Ashma immediately shook her head, she already felt better.

"No Ma, thank you."

"Well, baby Mama stay a while?" Ashma nodded with a smile on her pale face.

The surrounding voices were muffled, and Ashma was completely caught up in her own mind flow. Feeling the moment where the outside world seems to disappear, leaving only her who holds me lonely.

Looking back, remembering things that surprised him. Intentions want to heal the wounds on the land of Palestine with her grandmother, but fate brings Ashma to a great surprise.

Found a mate in an unexpected way, now she has become the wife of a man who has not been able to mengikhlaskan his past.

Ashma knows it's not easy to make peace with the past, but why doesn't Adam want to try it, how much does he love Lily? Ashma knew she could not force herself, but Adam had the right to decide, but Ashma was more entitled as his wife.

Ashma did not know what surprise God would give him, so Ashma was chosen to carry out his destiny. It could be that God wanted Ashma to fight even harder to be a light to Adam.

"I will fight as I can, let God decide what the outcome will be."

#TBC