A Little Hope For Ashma
23. Fear of feeling will waver

Ashma is certainly sensitive to changes in his body lately, after a week passed with a sense of dizziness and nausea now he feels better, even the nausea that interferes with it is hempas.

Ashma sees in the last date she has a guest month, and in this month she is already late for one week usually Ashma will be faster the arrival of her moon guests.

There is a mixed feeling between anxiety, and hope. Ashma was afraid the results were disappointing but she still had to do tests to find out the results.

Ashma was already holding three pack bags in her hand, clasping tightly. Aunt Marianee who bought it, because she was the first to notice the changes in Ashma's body, as well as the characteristics of the woman who was pregnant, it seems like she had morning sickness.

Any Ashma can get out of the Mansion, even if she knows where her husband knows the movement of Ashma. Therefore aunt Marianee immediately bought a pregnancy test for Ashma, hoping her son-in-law positive pregnant.

"Bismillah..."

That morning Ashma did a pregnancy check through the bag, she had finished taking a little urine, Ashma immediately put the bag into a container containing urine.

With mixed feelings, between joy, fear and sadness filled the space of his heart. Even Ashma's heartbeat raced so fast that she tried to neutralize her breath several times.

After a while of waiting, he finally saw the results of the testpack showing two red lines, then Ashma looked at the other two testpacks that showed the same two lines. His body was limp, he still did not expect to be given such quick sustenance, Ashma was very happy and wanted to tell Adam immediately.

The sound of knocking on the door rang out, as soon as Ashma walked out of the bathroom to open the door of her room, Aunt Marianee displayed a look of hope.

"How dear?" Ask aunt Marianee enthusiastically.

Ashma smiled, she stroked the belly of her queen. "Thank God Ma, positive."

"Alhamdulillah..." Aunt Marianee said in gratitude, she was moved to hear her daughter-in-law positively pregnant.

"Adam's been told?"

Ashma shook her head slowly, she decided to tell Adam when she came home, so as to be a surprise for her husband.

"When she gets home I'll give her a surprise, Ma" Aunt Marianee nodded in understanding, she helped Ashma to sit on the sofa.

"So you're good as Ashma, I hope this kid can be your marriage booster" said aunt Marianee, because she knows her son Adam still can't let go of his past. Aunt Marianee is only afraid that Adam will regret one day for having wasted a woman as good as Ashma.

Ashma looks at aunt Marianee with grief, she also hopes their baby-to-be becomes the reinforcement of her marriage to Adam.

"Just pray Ma,"

Aunt Marianee smiled faintly, she was sitting next to Ashma. "Do you still feel nauseous?"

"Lately I've not felt nauseous Ma, just that there was a time when I really wanted something." He said as he rubbed his stomach which was still flat.

"Oh Allah, cravings yes. Well what do you want Ashma?"

Ashma gave a small smile, the look on her face was timid. "That's it, right now I just want to hug Mas Adam. Every night always wanted the same thing so ashma always hugged Adam's clothes at night until she fell asleep. It also alleviates my nausea, Ma."

Aunt Marianee feels sorry for Ashma, her daughter-in-law must be tormented every day because she misses her husband in the middle of his current pregnancy.

"It looks like your baby-to-be misses his Papa."

"If Adam still hasn't come home, we'll check your content." Aunt Marianee continued. Ashma nodded, she also had to check the contents, at least the doctor's examination will be more valid and know better how the condition of the womb.

Meanwhile, in the plane a man was closing his eyes so calm but not with his heart agitated. His mind was always filled with the face of his wife, even he could not bear the longing that immediately wanted to be released.

Adam had denied this feeling because he still put the wound on Lily's departure, that's why Adam had not dared to open his heart to any woman, maybe also Ashma, his wife. The feeling is still so complicated to decipher because the wounds of the past are still on Adam's head.

Adam also never thought it would be like this, who initially only wanted to protect Ashma because the woman was at first glance like Lily so that her heart was moved to save her while in the plane last time.

In addition, Edward his enemy began to know the existence of Ashma which of course Edward will not stay still, especially Ashma has a face that is slightly similar to Lily.

Adam will protect Ashma with his life no matter what, this time Adam will not let his own be snatched away again by Edward.

...•••...

Tonight Ashma sleeps hugging Adam's shirt again, the distinctive fragrance of his body lurking in Ashma's sense of smell, feeling the serenity in the midst of his growing longing.

Ashma also became quickly sleepy, therefore after the prayer isya Ashma was asleep then woke up again every two o'clock in the morning, on that occasion he used to perform the prayer tahajud.

When the night was still thick and the universe was still spread in darkness, two people fell asleep in the heat of the shahda.

Ashma felt a movement next to her, maybe she had a dream that Adam was next to her. But the movement was more certain, Ashma opened her eyes slowly immediately turned her head to the side and found Adam sleeping beside her while hugging her body from behind.

Ashma rubs slowly the handsome face of her husband, it turns out that it is true that she does not dream and the figure she desperately longs for is right in front of her. Ashma's tears shed, she really misses Adam.

The peaceful face was sleeping soundly even though it had moved to find comfort. After two weeks of not meeting, Ashma finally saw Adam again with real beside him.

The man remained undisturbed from his sleep, Adam seemed to be so tired that he even slept without maternity clothes.

"This man is so workaholic" murmured Ashma, his hand still gently rubbing her husband's handsome face.

A few minutes looking at Adam's face he decided to get out of bed to get some water.

Ashma performs tahajud prayers with solemnity. Under the shadow of the silence of that peaceful night he raised his hand, praying with ease to ask for such a deep hope in the owner of the power. Pouring everything he wanted so softly.

Ashma spent her time in the early hours of the morning to honor God and also took time with Murajaah his memorization that he had long left because of his negligence under the guise of looking busy.

Time is rolling so fast. The sun began to shine its light in the eastern horizon in its bright colors, shining the world with amazing warmth.

The morning was very special for Ashma because her husband was near her. Ashma also grew impatient to tell Adam about her pregnancy.

While Adam who was sitting in bed so calmly observed Ashma who was combing his long hair. The woman looks very bright, even her smile always rises when met with the view of Adam.

"What makes you so happy?" adam asked, the man walked up to Ashma who was sitting in front of the mirror.

Ashma looked at Adam's reflection in the mirror. "I'm glad you're back" he said, keeping a hair comb on the table. Ashma moved from her seat, turned her back to look at Adam's face, which was now real in Ashma's vision.

They faced each other at such a close distance, Ashma immediately grabbed Adam's burly waist with both hands, cupping Adam's body until her husband's field chest came into contact with Ashma's body.

Ashma looked up slightly as Adam's body was taller than her, their gazes locked onto each other implying a longing within.

"I miss you so much Mas, somehow it feels heavy without you when I want to sleep. Fretting my mind, afraid of anything happening to you. Moreover, you rarely tell me when you promise to always give the news," he said with a soft look.

Adam was stunned to find Ashma's very sincere facial expression. Adam was afraid that his heart would waver in the light of Ashma's tender eyes.

"I don't care how you feel about me, but you have to know one thing Mas that, I love you."

Those sacred words came out of Ashma's mouth, making an Adam peck in his place, unable to move even Ashma's embrace he did not reply at all.

The leftover wound re-emerged in his soul, leaving Adam numb to try to love again, the new person in his life.

#TBC