DAMNED GIRL
16. MOM'S GONE

After school I still returned to Mira's house because I did not have the courage to go back to Grandma's house, after all I was also very comfortable living with the Mira family.

But apparently in two noon Grandma came to Bu Nina's shop. And at the same time, Miss Nina was in the shop and welcomed Grandma

"Mac ?"

"Nina, I want to get Dhira to come home" he said

It is with great pleasure that Miss Nina entertained Grandma to enter her house

"Look, go in first. Dhira is inside" he asked kindly

But Grandma didn't want to come in

"I'll wait here" he refused

"Oh then for a moment, I call Dhira" he said, entering the room and meeting me with Mira who was playing house on the bed

"Dhira, there's Grandma coming" he said

Without answering anything, I jumped out of bed and ran to him

"Grandmother !" call me full of misses

I then met Grandma who was standing at the door and hugged me and carried me

"Let's go home" he asked

Miss Nina and Mira who also came to us were so happy at the arrival of Grandma, they seemed to know how I felt when they knew Grandma still remembered me.

Miss Nina also did not forget to give my uniform and school bag to Grandma.

Before Grandma took me away, she thanked Ms. Nina

"Thank you, and I'm sorry if I've been bothering you" he said

But Miss Nina didn't feel bothered

"It's okay, Mom. I am happy to share" he said

Then Grandma gave a fold of paper money to Miss Nina

"This is the replacement money, take it" he said

But Ms. Nina refused it "Don't, Mak. I really take care of Dhira" he said

But Grandma kept thrusting into Miss Nina's hand

"Thank you, I'm just thankful"

"No, Mak. No need" he refused again and did not want to open his hand to receive the money

Finally Grandma gave it to Mira "Take Mira, for you to snack" said Grandma as she opened Mira's hand and clenched Mira's hand which was filled with money

Ms. Nina tried to evade but Grandma kept giving and with Mira's innocence, she received the money

"I want to go home, Nina" said Grandma after successfully giving her the money

Nina's mother nodded "Iya Mak, I also thank you for giving the snacks to Mira" he said

Grandma smiled, "Yes, yes" he said

Even in Grandma's arms I didn't escape saying goodbye to Miss Nina and Mira

"I go home first and I play again" I said, waving my hand

Mira replied to a wave of my hand "Daagh, play again" he said

Actually on the way to the house, I was a bit afraid of the existence of Om Bayu. But apparently Om Bayu has gone from Grandma's house and there is only Grandma and Mother.

I didn't dare say hello to Mom, maybe more precisely my sense of inner bond to her was somehow bland.

While Mom did not welcome me very much, maybe because she was busy ironing clothes with a sitting position to back my back to me and Grandma

But only Grandma would talk to me

"Have you eaten, Dhira ?" ask Grandma while turning on the television

"Already, Grandma" I answered

"What did you eat at Mira's house ?" tannya

"Eat rice, Grandma" I replied

"Oh, what was it at her friends' school ?" tannya

"My friends are all good, Grandma" I replied

"Oh, good then. You must be diligent in learning. To be smart, do not forget to also be diligent in praying to God, diligent in the Church as well, so that you have a sincere heart, patient, know how to be grateful. Later you become a mother, you will know how to take care of your child" he said

Hearing him I nodded even though I didn't quite understand what Grandma said.

But I also don't understand words

"Pray"

"Church"

"What church is Nek ?" much

Hearing my words, Grandma turned to me and looked at Mother's back that was still ironing

"So, Dhira has never been to the Church ?" tannya

I shook my head "Never"

"Didn't your mom ever take you to church ?" ask Grandma again

I shook my head again

"Did your mother ever teach you to pray ?" ask Grandma again

I still shake my head

Grandma was silent for a moment as if thinking of something

"Sorry, Dhira. Grandma is also guilty of you, because during your stay here Grandma never invited you to Church because lately Grandma has not been to Church again. My grandmother also did not teach me to pray. Because Grandma thinks you already know all that" he said

I just kept quiet because I didn't understand what he was saying

"Later, Sunday we both go to Church yes, but the thing is, the Church is very far away, it can be two hours away. That's what makes Grandma always undo the intention to go there" he said with a disappointed face to himself

While Mom had finished her work and brought a basket of her neat clothes into the room without budging

But even though Mom was inside the room, Grandma called out to her to quickly come out from inside

"Official ?" dial him

Mother replied from inside "Yes Ma'am" he said

"After making your clothes clean, come here quickly. There's something I want to talk about" he said

I'm still saying from inside "Yes ma'am, just a second"

Mom approached Grandma and sat in front of Grandma who was still watching television, while I was beside Grandma who was with her

"What's wrong Mom ?" ask Mom a little nervous

"When are you getting married ?" ask without looking at Mom. His eyes were still fixed on the fourteen-inch gray tube television that always accompanied him in the living room

"I don't know yet, Mom. But I hope soon and everything goes well" he said

"If you marry her, don't take Dhira. Let Dhira be with me. I need a friend in this house" she asked without seeing Mom's face

With a face that did not mind at all, Mother agreed

"If you need a friend, it's okay "he said

"Yes, Dhira can die with you anyway" she sneered

Just touch Mom offended to hear it and her voice became high

"What do you mean by mother ?"

Although Mother was angry, but Grandma answered him by still not looking at Mother.

"Because you're going to have a stepson, I'm sure you'll love him more than your own son" she said

Mother still does not want to accept, her anger is getting provoked

"Mom don't say that, because I'll never know what's going to happen !" snapped

"Mom knows, because Mother is a real Mother. I can know without having to see it. I have a feeling for my children, a feeling you've been ignoring" she said

Hearing Grandma's words that increasingly offended Mother, Mom finally went up and rose from her chair

"Mom, this is how you treat me. I'd better get out of this house right now. I won't care anymore about Mom and whoever's in this house !" emphatically

This time Grandma turned to Mother whose face was red and had tears

"If you want to go, please go. And don't ever come back even next to my body later" Grandma said

Hearing that Mom was crying became more and more

"Why do you say that, why don't you ever understand how I feel ?" heed

But Grandma doesn't care about Mom's words

With a hoarse and flat voice Grandma answered Mother

"Go, and come back here if you're in trouble" Grandma said

The more Grandma said that, the more you cried bitterly.

But Grandma kept telling Mom to go

"Go, I'll come to your wedding if you remember me" Grandma said

From their problems, I really don't know what their quarrels mean. I just quietly heard and watched Mom cry bitterly and the look on Grandma's face was very disappointed in Mom.

Finally Mom decided to leave, with a hurried step and while crying she put her clothes in a plastic bag and then just left without saying goodbye to me even to Grandma.