DAMNED GIRL
55. STILL ANGRY

Actually this morning went like the morning before, breakfast with them at the table with dishes cooked by Aunt Ros. I don't know why this morning was any different.

As if someone was hanging from my mind

This morning it was very felt that Aunt Ros behaved like never before who was always cheerful before me especially to her husband but this time she was so cold and silent a thousand languages even to look at me like not wanting. As if I wasn't in front of her eyes

Until finally after finishing breakfast Aunt Ros seemed to not understand my existence, she just remained silent until finishing her meal

We were still sitting at the table, the fried rice that Aunt Ros cooked we had already finished. Usually the plate after breakfast is Aunt Ros who washed it but if I eat after dinner I change to wash the dishes.

With the cold attitude of Aunt Ros who was very stiff for me, I finally reluctantly offered to fix the plate that was still on the table

"I'm the one doing the dishes this morning" I said

Then I started to stand up and collect the dirty dishes on the table.

But Om Dudu forbid it "No need to Dhira, you just go to school" he said

I turned to Om Dudu's face then briefly glanced at Aunt Ros's face which kept bending her face.

But I still insist on washing it

"Nothing Om, I can wash the dishes rather quickly so it will not be late for school" I said

But Om Dudu shook his head "Don't, you just go to school" he said

I finally obeyed Om Dudu's orders "Yes Om" I said

Om Dudu smiled a little "Be careful on the road yes, don't daydream" he said

I nodded "Yes Om" I said

I finally say goodbye to them but only Om Dudu will answer.

Arriving at school I felt a crisis of heart that I did not know what to distinguish with. In the classroom that continues to be crowded with the chatter of my class friends makes me even more upset.

How not, boisterous their voices are louder than the voice of Master Ma'am who is explaining the subject matter. But the smell of Master Ma'am did not dare to reprimand children brutal like them.

To the extent that the voice spoken by Master was immersed in the voice of their chatter that was united with different chatter.

It happens to be Friday, the shortest day in face-to-face. We came home at eleven in the afternoon because there would be a celebration of each religion. Because in this school tend to be more Christian then the worship event there is a special Teacher. But that does not mean that there are no Buddhists, but there are only a few people. And it just so happens that in this school there are only three religions among the students.

After the iron bell home has been hit many times the class atmosphere is getting quieter but as usual Nasya genk is still in the place being dressed together. Such was their behavior before leaving the school building.

But I just kept quiet in the chair, which this time I felt very comfortable. I was daydreaming and a little sleepy. My mind is empty but my mind hurts.

In my head there are only the voices of their chatter, sometimes they also laugh out loud until it boomed.

But apparently they were talking about me

"Liat deh the tutul again daydream. Hahaha" Nasya told two of his friends.

It sounds so clear in my ears

But I kept quiet, trying to assume that was the usual thing I accepted

But Nasya still invites his friends to talk about me

"He doesn't have a friend, does he ?" he said again

A friend of his said "I think there is a deh, his friend another class but did not know that he was actually friends or just a cool friend. Haha" obviously

Nasya brushed off his friend's "Ah, who wants to be friends with him. At least it's just friends who don't hang out together. Shame if he takes a walk. Haha"

Actually I have tried to be patient listening to their innuendo but the more I let it turns out the more pain what else coupled with the attitude of Aunt Ros that makes me increasingly unable to resist emotions.

I was confused to prefer to be angry with them or cry for fate but for sure at this time I was still silent until they finally left me in the classroom alone

There is not a minute finally I also decided to leave class because it feels bored also if in class alone.

When I started to step outside the door, I passed a group of boys who were also my classmates who also rushed in. Six people are the culprits in the class.

But from the beginning of school until this moment they never commented physically on me with bad comments.

But since I was not familiar with them, I ignored them and continued my business.

I was still in the school hall stepping slowly in the hope that Aunt Ros would behave as before.

I don't know why I feel like today is a day that makes me so weak and helpless.

My footsteps grew slower until I approached the school gate.

At the same time I passed Nasya who this time he ran very fast into the school building.

The swift clattering of his feet rang out loud into the classroom

But I don't care about his attitude which is like chasing something important.

Precisely what was on my mind even did not dare to go home, I was afraid Aunt Ros was getting angry with me.

Finally I decided to calm down once again under the shade tree with the wind blowing my hair

Just sitting down, I saw Nasya running back quickly, but this time his face grew more panicked and angry.

He came up to me then scolded me with a loud tone

"Where Hape the cave !" doorways

I who knew nothing just stared at him in confusion. But Nasya still accuses me

"Don't be a plain ass ! Where hape cave ! Just missed a few seconds and you took it !" accuse him again

Finally I flinch " Which one is it ?" much

"Don't pretend you don't know anything !" snapped

I shook my head because I was so confused that I finally stood up "I didn't take your hape. I don't know !" say

At the same time there was Mira who quickly approached us. He also tried to dissuade Nasya's anger

"Stop !" heed

For a moment Nasya and I quietly looked at Mira. But still Nasya would not accept that the hape is gone and she still accused me that I stole it

"Heh, he's a grotto hape. Understand !" he said to Mira

Suddenly Mira glared at me sharply "You're stealing her, Dhira ?" the question is half unsure

I shook my head "No" I said

But the more I kept dodging, the more anarchic Nasya became. He tried to grab my bag.

"Here's your bag, here's !" snapped