DAMNED GIRL
44. I LOVE MOM

Liana finally returned to this house, in the house that should have been her place because after all this house belonged to her father.

But she still did not accept his presence. Not because she did not like Liana but because Mom had become a quiet figure.

Despite seeing Mother's cold attitude towards him, it was fortunate that Liana did not criticize him at all. Precisely Liana still seemed to behave as before when Pak Yanto was still there

This was the third day after Liana was ushered in by her Grandmother. He's still acting the same way to me, still cold not to blend in

But after school lunch is not usually Liana who intervened to cook lunch.

Though I was just about to start doing it but apparently Liana was already in the kitchen peeling off the Siamese pumpkin she bought at the stall next door.

Because I still feel bad, I asked him to talk first

"Today you cooked ?" I asked slowly from behind his back

Liana nodded with a flat answer while still peeling off her vegetable skin "Yes. Why is it ?" answerable

"Can I help you ?" then I moved to his left side

"No need, just do something else. I can cook too" he said

"Oh, if so what should I do because all the homework I have done before" I replied

He was still cold without looking at me "Yes, you're sitting down" he suggested

Hearing him I was silent

But Liana still said "Or you better fish in the back river, who knows if we can eat tomorrow" he suggested again

A proposal that never happened before

I thought for a while because fishing isn't necessarily as easy as the plan.

But Liana kept her proposal "It's better that you go now so that you don't have to go home" she asked again

He told me right now that I needed lunch too. My stomach is so empty

But this time I said "But I haven't had lunch, or how about before I go I eat first huh ?" say

Liana glanced at me "But I'm still cooking for a long time" Liana explained

I still think long because I'm hungry and I feel that fishing is definitely impossible for me to run. Because I'm sure I don't get any fish, especially I don't know how to feed.

Liana turned to me for the first time "What do you think, Dhira ?" tannya

"I'm hungry" I replied quickly

Liana sighed softly "Yes already then you wait to cook, after that you leave" he said calmly

"Then why don't you go too ?" much

Liana shook her head, her voice trembled and quietly "Wouldn't, I was traumatized to it. I will remember Dad" he replied

Surely Liana thought that if I was not traumatized if I went there, maybe she thought because I am not the flesh of Mr. Yanto so I will not feel sad, I will not feel sad, though this feeling is so broken and feels endless loneliness.

About half an hour waiting for Liana to cook, finally served on the guest table. As usual I sulked Mom to eat together.

But

She remained silent in her silent and dark room. As if stubbornly do not want to move from the harsh reality he faces

I stood in front of him who was still lying tightly hugging the pillow belonging to Mr. Yanto , his eyes opened with a blank gaze staring at the ceiling of the room without a ceiling

I gently asked her "Mother, let's eat. Liana's done cooking it" I asked slowly

But as usual, my mother still did not respond to my invitation.

I don't know what language I explain this increasingly apprehensive mother, because almost every day she just lies hugging her husband's pillow, to the extent that he was already unconcerned with his physical condition that was getting weaker and helpless. His face was getting pale and the look of his eyeballs was not as sparkling as before

But apparently Liana did not stay silent, she approached me into the room and then she helped sulk Mom, an attitude she had not done since three days ago

Liana sulked Mother very gently despite her trembling tone but Liana tried hard to hold back her tears that had been blocked since, I could feel that Liana also felt sad to see the state of Mother "Mom, Mom, let's eat. I've cooked well for Mom" she asked with a smile

Liana Also looked at Mother's face with a look of contemptuous eyes, her face began to turn red and finally her tears fell as well, falling on Mother's cheeks. Eventually we unwittingly cried sobbing without a sound. Then Mother stroked Liana's face that was very similar to her Father, Mother's tears just getting louder this time sobs her tears until they sounded. It's possible that I felt there was Mr. Yanto on Liana's face.

But then Mother was silent for a moment staring at Liana's face suddenly there was no sound of crying no tears fell. Then Mom smiled and laughed and hugged the pillow that had been silent since.

Liana and I looked at each other confused, what else I do not understand why Mom is so.

But Mom still laughed, but not a happy laugh but a different kind of laugh.

Liana and I were still silent to see Mother's attitude change strangely

"Hahaha" Mom's laugh was a little loud

I'm still quiet

But Liana tried as if she didn't bully Mom's weird attitude

Liana again sulked Mother "Yok Ma, later Mother is too hungry. I'll be sick" he said again

Hearing Liana, Mother went back to silence and looked at Liana's face but remained reluctant to get out of bed

But this time Mother answered him even with a slow tone barely audible

"You guys just eat, I'll catch up" she said so slowly that Liana and I leaned over a little to hear her answer

But Liana refused it "It's better that I just eat with us now, so that Mother has her energy, so that Mom is healthy and beautiful as before" Liana persuaded

Hearing the persuasion of his golden son, then Mom thought for a while and then slowly he got up and sat down.

While we were still waiting for him to come out of his room together.

Mom sat down and looked down silently without any more voices and tears, a warm hug on Mr. Yanto's pillow as if he never wanted to escape.

Finally I came back to persuade gently because I knew Mom must have been very hungry

"Mother, let's eat, all this time I always eat a little. I'm worried that you'll get sick later" I persuaded

"Shut up !!!" cut Mom to snarl at me

His eyes glared then pointed at my face firmly

Just contact me and Liana were shocked back with her increasingly strange attitude

I was silent when Mom snapped at me but Liana could only keep quiet looking at me

I don't know what wind suddenly Mother scolded me "You shouldn't be the one who died no one else !" firm Mother

When it came back in my ears, my chest was like a crumble, my body was shaking and I was crying in front of them.

And I can only be silent while holding back tears that scatter to a halt

"You killed Ayahlu, my mother is now my husband !" show Mom to me

Liana who was getting confused by Mother's sentence then continued to look at me deeply

But Mother still kept cornered me "Look at him Liana, this is the cause of your father's death. He's a damned child who should have died since he was born. But I don't know what kind of power made him live until now !" he said to Liana

Liana who heard the more confused, maybe she thought how a child of my age could kill many people and obviously Pak Yanto drowned not because I killed.

Liana just shook her head so confused to believe it or not at all.

Then Mother stood up and approached me and grabbed my hair hard and threw me out of the room.

I bounced far enough while trying to get up and stand up again but failed because Mom kicked my chest first.

When I couldn't get up, Mom stomped on my head so hard that my face fused with the floor

"If you don't die right now you could kill Liana and even me !" he said while continuing to trample my head.

I could only give up and cry and even scream for help I did not dare. Because I love Mom and I don't want Mom to be judged by the people and I can only look into Liana's eyes standing right in front of me. He was silent without a panicked look on his face and afraid to see me persecuted. Maybe he believed in my mother.

After being content to trample my head which makes me more helpless, then quickly Mother went to the kitchen