DAMNED GIRL
56. STILL ACCUSED

Obviously I turned him down because of what he saw in my bag "No !" reject me while clasping Nasya's hand

In the end, Nasya and I pulled each other bags. While Mira did not know what to do until Nasya finally managed to snatch my bag.

Then he quickly unzipped my bag and scattered all the contents in my bag

Finally Mira who witnessed that the hape Nasya meant was not in my bag at all.

But even so Nasya still insisted that I was the one who stole his hape

"Surely you keep ya, you save where ?" accusation again.

"I don't know anything and I don't take it, I've never seen you either" I said

"Don't lie to you !" nasha again

"If I take it, I'm dead right now !" my oath

Nasya was even more annoyed to hear that

"Listen well yes, the cave will be this litter tomorrow. The cave will report to the teacher if you take it so that you are expelled from this school. Understand you !" threaten her while leaving me and Mira

After Nasya left, Mira still wondered to me "It's true that you took the hape ?" tannya

But I did not answer, I was busy putting books, pencils, pens, erasers and rulers scattered on the ground.

"Dhira, you didn't steal, did you ?" ask again

After the contents in my bag had tidied up again, I finally spoke slowly to him

"Didn't you believe me ?" much

Mira looked at me deeply "I believe that you are a good person" he said

"If you believe I'm good, you shouldn't have to ask me if I stole or not" I replied as I left Mira

But Mira still follows me from behind "Dhira, sorry yes. I didn't mean to accuse you. I just asked" he said from behind my back

I just nodded and continued walking home, but Mira was still behind me

"Dhira, aren't you in a worship class ?" tannya

Hearing him my steps stopped "For what ?" much

Mira could not answer

But I still keep talking "To get into heaven or get a grade ?" say

"Both, Dhira" he said

I turned around and confronted Mira

"Is God there ?" much

Mira looked at me "Why did you say that ?"

"Is God good ?" ask me again

"Dhira, you can't say that" he said

"Will God know me ?" ask me again "If God is all-loving, all-seeing, but why am I living this sick ?" say

This time my water fell back

"Dhira, you can't say that" he replied

Because so upset with myself my tone was finally high

"You never know what it's like to be me, because you were made perfect by God but I'm just what, only a man born cursed by my own father !" I said tear up

"Dhira, you can't say that !" said Mira

"Everyone judges me, everyone insults me, everyone sneers at me. You're good to have a family. While me. Who's my family ?" say

"You can even lightly tell me to be grateful, be patient" I added

"Dhira, you don't have to look for God. Because God is always in your heart. When you talk like this, it means you blame God. You have to know God is good" he said

"Yes, God is good. You can say that because all this time you live well because it is far from misfortune. Try to be me how much time you want. Are you willing ?" say

"I'm tired of asking God for eligibility" I said as I left Mira. And this time Mira doesn't follow me anymore.

This is the second morning that makes me even more uncomfortable living in Aunt Ros's house. How not, Aunt Ros is still mute.

I am just a child who was taken care of by the big family of Mr. Yanto, however I still hesitate to get too familiar with them. But with Aunt Ros' cold attitude towards me, I started thinking about living alone.

Early morning activity today is still the same but the freezing of Aunt Ros's heart has not yet melted.

After saying goodbye to Om Dudu and Aunt Ros, I finally left for school. This is the second day I'm not excited at all. If I can, I'll skip.

In the hallway of school I cross paths with Mira. Mira greets me sweetly "Hi, Dhira" he said

But I'd rather throw my face away and keep walking towards class so I don't see Mira for too long.

Mira looked at me questioningly, what else when I passed the moment of greeting that seemed useless to me

The first lesson is Geography. Because the Geography Master was too fierce, all the students in my class were like holy angels. Shut up and be polite.

His name is Mr. Beno, there are no whiskers but his jaw is overgrown with a lot of thin hair, his tall body is big black skinned sweet exactly like an Arab.

He was firm and authoritative in explaining the material that I had always understood. But this time he gave a different question session to the previous days.

"Well, would anyone ask ?" ask him to us

For a moment all was silent but there was one girl brandishing her index finger

"I'm Sir !" heed

Everyone looked towards Nasya

"Yes Nasya, please do you want to ask what ?" heed

Then Nasya lowered his index finger and his gaze remained straight at Pak Beno

"If a friend of ours steals our phone, can he be called a thief ?" he said, a satirical question for me

Mr. Beno frowned. He was confused as to why the question was far from the material he was discussing.

"Are you missing a hape ?" tannya

Nasya nodded "Yes sir, hape I was lost on the table. Yesterday I forgot to take it home. During the middle of the trip I just remembered, when I returned to the classroom it turned out my phone had disappeared" he said

"You're sure someone stole or you forgot. It could be that you fell on the street but you're thinking about missing out ?" ask Mr. Beno

Nasya shook his head confidently "Sir, I remember that his hape was left at the table" he said

"Oh, so who do you think took ?" tannya

"Andhira, sir !" quickly answer.

Everyone looked at me for a moment while I just looked down. Want to avoid but the mouth is locked because it feels tired to convince people whose flesh and blood has become a hater of others.

Mr. Beno came up to me, he was facing clearly before my eyes

"Are you really stealing Nasya's phone ?" slowly tananya

But I'm just quiet

Even so, Mr. Beno still asked slowly as if he was not on anyone's side

"Dhira, I'm talking to you" he said

"Are you the one who stole Nasya's phone ?" ask again

Finally I shook my head "No sir, I do not have a phone and actually I also want to have a phone. But that doesn't mean I have to steal it so I have "my word

Hearing me talk like that was all quiet.

Silent

Only Mr. Beno speaks "You sure ?" ask again

"Yes sir, I swear I didn't take it. Because I also do not know if there is a hape on the table" I said

Mr. Beno nodded "According to you, other than you who else entered the 'class ?" tannya

I thought for a moment, briefly recalling the events of that day