DAMNED GIRL
43. NOT ABLE TO LOSE

Although it was a long time after Mr. Yanto was declared lost in the ocean, the atmosphere in the house was even quieter. Especially now that it's just me and Mom

In front of my face as if it was still very clear that Mr. Yanto's face allowed his smile to me, Mr. Yanto's soft voice called my name, calling Liana and Mother until his silly laughter still ringed in my ears.

It has been more than thirty days of longing in this heart as if I could not bear it alone because I did not know to whom I should sulk longing

Now, every day Mother also looks somber and never again preening even though a line of lipstick in her lips was never seen again. He was more silent and never again told me to do anything he used to tell me but even so I always took the initiative to do the housework, I was just afraid that Mom would get angry with me

This afternoon the sun is erratic, sometimes he is bright sometimes also covered in clouds and can even be very hot and hot. While Mom was always sitting on the floor staring down the street, I don't know what she was looking at with the blank look of her increasingly pale face. His eyes always look towards the path that usually Pak Yanto back home, it seems to be severed from his inner if there is still a miracle that brought her husband to return with her.

Until now, she has rarely eaten, drank rarely to the point that her body began to shrink, her face became duller and her eyes always looked wet. I know she used to cry in hiding without my knowledge but I actually knew but pretended not to know

I understand very well that Mom has lost the kind-hearted human figure she had long hoped for. How not, this story made his mind scratched deeply over what he was experiencing now.

While Liana still lives with her grandmother and grandfather in the village next door, Liana is deliberately invited to live with them because it is considered to need encouragement from her biological family.

That's what makes this house even quieter plus Mother increasingly does not want to talk to me even a word, though, he often sat quietly in the room and then locked himself in a room without light. Just like his days.

By the end of this afternoon Mother had already returned to her hiding place, the room that had alluded to her past memories as if it was nothing from her heart wound that had been further broken

But I always remained in the living room, despite the pain of being left behind by the figure I loved.

I lay my body on the floor right in front of the television, my eyes were looking at it but my life was not with me. The sound of the television is quite loud now become my friend in the middle of a broad day that is now quite hot.

But the noise from outside the house messed up my tenure

"Syallom !" a mother's voice from behind the door said hello. His voice faintly sounded as if scrambling with the sound of the television I set aloud.

But I just turned to the door that was still tightly closed, my eyes were only fixated on the door that had been knocked from the outside but my body was reluctant to go there

"Syallom !' he said again after he had spoken several times before, accompanied by the sound of the door that he was knocked slowly many times

Tok..tok.buttonset!

But I remained reluctant to move on, until finally the mysterious voice called my mother's name

"Official !" dial him

Hearing it, I began to have the intention to move but not until it was done as well. Because I was still lazy to rise from my laziness anyway I didn't know who was out there and thought I would waste my time getting to him if he wasn't an important person.

I still ignored him until finally the voice of the child I knew called my name. He said my name with a tone of regret

"Andhira !" said Liana

Immediately I quickly approached him and opened the door that I had not been angry with since.

Looked at the figure of Grandma Liana and Liana, they stood with a face that was quite upset, looking at me with a flat look as if he wanted to wrath but he could stand it

Then I immediately welcomed them starting with a thin smile, then let them in

"Please enter Nek, Lian" I said as I opened the door wide

But Grandma Liana did not return my smile and just walked in

Grandma's pair of eyes looked at all corners of the room as if looking for something important to her

"Where's your mom ?" tanyanya fast. He was still standing but Liana was already sitting on the guest bench

I quickly pointed to the door of Mother's closed room

"That's in Nek's room" I replied

Grandma turned and faced the door of my mother's room

Tok.shock.

Then call her softly her name

"Official !" call slowly

But from inside there was no response from him.

So Grandma Lian can't wait for a response from Mom, she just took the initiative to open the room door. Apparently the door to his room was not locked

Grandma just went inside to find Mom sleeping sideways to her back

Grandma sat next to him and gently stroked Mom's hair

"Official" call him again

Apparently Mom quickly responded and then sat down after realizing that there was Grandma Lian beside her.

Mother immediately experienced it very politely

Seeing the physical condition of Mother who changed drastically, Grandma Lian was quite concerned about the state of Mother who was increasingly depressed

"You okay, Lasmi ?" tannya

Mom smiled little "Yes Mom I'm fine" she replied slowly

"But you look so skinny. Are you sick ?" ask again

Mom shook her head "No ma'am, I'm fine" she replied

Grandma Lian smiled but she knew that if Mom wasn't okay then Grandma invited Mom to sit together outside the room

"Then we go to the living room. We have tea together, I also take Liana" he said

Without any answer, my mother obeyed.

Finally they sat together on the bench with a treat of my warm sweet tea. Mother is still silent, not much sound like on the day when Mr. Yanto was still there.

Grandma Lian then started her chatter "Lasmi, my arrival here is actually only going to deliver Liana because Liana has to live with her mother and Andhira. I'm just worried that if Liana doesn't live with you, she'll forget that she still has family" Lian's grandmother said

Hearing him Mom just nodded "Yes Mom" he said

"Hopefully you can look after Liana until she grows up" Pinta Granny Lian

Mother nodded again but her face looked resigned to what she received.

Grandma started sipping my dish "Wah, your sweet tea is so good Dhira" she said to me

I blushed hearing it

Until Grandma Lian finally came home

"Then I'll go home. Take good care of yourself and please take good care of Liana as you take good care of your child" she said

Mother smiled thinly coupled with her nod "Yes Mom, I will take care of Liana like I look after Dhira" Mother promised Grandma Lian

Grandma Lian was quite happy to hear that

"Thank you Lasmi, you are a good wife who is loyal to your husband and affectionate to your children" said Grandma thank you

Mom smiled hearing that