DAMNED GIRL
40. JEALOUS

Today is the second day Mr. Yanto fell ill, his body is getting weaker he was forced to go to work to get a small wage for the sake of supporting the family he loved.

His pale lips and blackened eye bags were a sign of his exhaustion that I could not pay for anything.

What else Mr. Yanto is a humble person and is very known for his friendly smile by the neighbors. Who does not know him. Everyone knows who the gentle hearted figure is. Pak Yanto's

Yes, this morning he forced himself to leave even though since last night Mother had passed it

"Well, you better not work first. Relapse again" Mother's wounds

Even Mr. Yanto did not spend his breakfast

But Dad still insisted "I'm well Mom" he said in a trembling voice but he ignored it

Although he tried to be strong but we knew his pale face that could not lie

Mother still shook her head "Don't, tomorrow if it's healed" forbid it again

"No Ma'am, if you don't work, your daily salary will be deducted. Later Dad's paychecks will decrease" he said

Mom was silent but ultimately didn't care about Dad's reasons

"Just consider the next three days' salary Dad has spent, Dad's health is more important" asked Mother again

Father was silent for a moment as if thinking of something, occasionally he held back the cold that seemed to warn him as well

This time I obeyed my mother

"Yes I've tried today to rest again, hopefully tomorrow I'm healed" he said

I smiled hearing it.

At the same time I was saying goodbye

"Sir, I'm leaving first" I said

Liana continued, "Let go first Dad" he said

"Yes, be careful" he replied

Arriving at school, Liana and I separated because our classes were different.

The atmosphere in the school hallway was quite crowded, many people then enjoyed a little time before class began.

I walked slowly past the students who were outside of his class, they just talked to each other or even joked with each other.

From behind Septi called out to me, he ran small with the sound of his shoes making himself the center of attention for a moment.

I stopped waiting for him to approach me after turning around

Septi was panting but he sumringah this morning "Hi, Dhira !" sapana

I smiled, "Tumben clock mepet like this just arrived" I said

"Actually it's been from earlier" he said as he began the step to class and I accompanied his step

"Where was it ?" much

"So I ran out of our list ?" answerable

"We ?" ask me confused

"Yes, we. You and me" he answered

"What does listin mean ?" I'm getting confused

Septi laughed amusedly "I have a challenge for myself and you" he said

I put my two eyebrows together "What the hell do you mean ?"

"I'll list you with the Paskibra for the flag ceremony. Hahaha" he said interspersed with amused laughter. For him it was a joke but it was also cool, but for me it was not funny at all

"What ?" i'm panicking.

I had already imagined how stupid I would be to do such a heavy task.

Septi laughed "Hahahaha !"

"Are you serious, right ?" I just want to panic

Septi nodded "Yes"

Immediately I pat Septi's shoulder "What a fact, I've never practiced that"

But Septi tried to calm my panic that was at the tip of my fingernails

"Look, we're just a choir. Hahahaha" he said

Although I was upset but I was relieved "Ah, make a panic anyway.if only the choir is still meningan deh can help the sound" said I

"So who voices, who wants the choir to be criminal" Septi said

"Ckkh, it's not strange howling"

Septi chuckled "Hahaha" but continued the other conversation

"Eh, you know Miguel, right ?" suddenly she was talking about a man.

"Miguel who ?" just plain

"Oh, he's a third-grader. Very handsome. I'll show the guy later" he said

"A classmate ?" I was even in a daze

Septi pinched both of my cheeks and pulled them to stretch like rubber

"You think that third class is our class, then first class is who are we ? Class ?" he said as he quickly stepped into the classroom door.

Septi walked first but there was Gea who seemed to block the road between Gea and the row of chairs. Gea stood looking at Septi with a cynical look but Septi did not want to serve him

"Excuse me yes, I want to go through" he said

While I was behind Septi bending his self-conscious face that I might not be able to fight him

Gea still stands in our way "I see on the ceremonial to-do list that you belong to the choir" he said cynically

Septi just nodded "Yes, why ?" ask her back

Gea gave a small smile, a smile that was not to please others

"It's not wrong" he said

Septi shook his head "Oh no wrong, we both can sing really" Septi said while pointing at me as well. All my life, I have never sung.

Gea was more amused to hear the words like "You two are talking about the echo of what else is singing" he said

Septi was silent but did not want to continue, he was just trying to get into our chair "Excuse me" he said while taking a step forward

But Gea was still blocking him "I want your friend the loser to pass first" he said, looking at me

Septi did not want to answer it but he still went forward despite being blocked by Gea "Server!" he said forcefully while bumping into Gea's body.

Finally Gea's body was slightly bounced by Septi's body collision. And in the end I was followed through.

Gea looked at me "I wonder at you, when you are ugly but you can be in this class. Not really pantes !" he said in a thin voice

I didn't look at him, but I heard what he said. As soon as the sentence stuck to my head to the point that I promised in my heart, someday when I was ready I would fight it.

At the same time the teacher entered and the lesson began.

Even so I did the task without thinking about Gea's words, I remembered the words of Mr. Yanto who did not need to listen to the bad words of others.

Each of our subjects has followed every hour until finally the bell went home.

Directly the students scattered out of the classroom, each looking for a way home not to be left with me and Liana.

When we arrived at my house, Liana and I met Mr. Yanto who was apparently sleeping fast, Mother said Mr. Yanto was sorted out by a masseuse and had taken medicine as well so his sleep was sound because of the effect.

I also never neglect because every afternoon after school is no stranger, the usual thing I do quickly I clean up so I can relax later. Luckily, dirty clothes are not so much.

Directly the first task I do washing clothes because I have to compensate for the sunlight is still hot.

One by one the clothes of one family I washed, starting from my clothes then Mother's clothes, Mr. Yanto and I found a new negligee Liana.

I wet the negligee and gave it soap on the rinsing board.

But there is something else in my heart.

My mind is starting to heat up washing it

Then I took the scissors and cut the scissors off the part of the skirt. The result is quite a lot of tearing

Once satisfied I went back to rinsing and then drying all the clothes without feeling guilty.

Yeah, I'm mad.

I hate

I'm envious

I'm getting sick of everything I've received in my life.

I know it's wrong but there's something more wrong, which is my little heart that just keeps quiet when everyone hurts me.

Because who else would defend me if not me.

I was still hanging clothes under the blue sky, while the sun was still shining brightly and the wind was blowing quite gently

From inside the house, my mother called me

"Dhira !" dial him

I heard him and quickly inspired him

"What are you doing behind the back ?" tannya

"Mommy's clothes for the morning" I replied

"Oh, you cook hot water there. Make Mother a warm tea. I want to drink" he said

I nodded "Yes Ma'am" I said then went to hurry to make it