DAMNED GIRL
60. LIKE A MOTHER

Until the twilight sky Aunty Ros still did not want to comment a single word to me, instead she locked herself in her room. There was only Om Dudu who was watching television alone, he also did not comment anything even unlike usual for this afternoon he did not offer me dinner. With their attitude like that I who just hitchhiked to live in his house increasingly failed to remain calm.

While I can only stay in my room. Recalling the events of last afternoon that I never expected at all. It felt like I wanted to go back in time to contain that futile anger, but it had already happened.

Actually I've taken a shower and changed my clothes but I don't dare to go to the kitchen to eat. Today I deeply admit my mistake.

There is no other activity that I do in my hiding place, I just lay down while staring at the ceiling of the room, while thinking about what will happen tomorrow, he said, is Aunt Ros coming or she's choosing not to care about my problems.

Although the stomach feels very empty but I still hold it until I finally fall asleep.

At three o'clock in the night I woke up in the still dark silence of the sky. My eyes opened just like that in a body position that was still stretched out.

It was as if the dark morning had called me to speak to myself. Correcting the increasingly fragile mind.

Then I sat up staring at something that could not be stored in my head. My mind is nervous and nervous.

In the cold morning, I began to bow my head and then clenched my chest hand and began to pray. But not even one prayer sentence that I said my tears then spilled just like that. My tears went out of control. The heartache I have received over and over throughout my life is only felt at this time.

Huhuhuhu !

The sound of my crying broke in the air, but I still keep it from being heard by anyone. My mouth was locked as if it was hard to speak beautiful words to God because my mind had run everywhere.

Until now I did not expect at all that this would be the way of life story that I experienced, now who else would accept me a damned girl who is often cursed by everyone.

I don't blame God, but where is He ?

Here, darkened by this grim pain, I was looking for him. I just want to be with His feet and can I talk to Him once. I'd like to say

"Lord, take me home. I don't have anyone here"

I was afraid to see what would happen after this, I was also disappointed in myself.

Until I could only cry. That's all that's happened.

The sky was shining again, the morning I didn't want. I was afraid to go through it.

Apparently today Aunt Ros didn't serve breakfast. The dining table this time looks clean from the side dish hood which is usually full of food.

But I don't comment much on that, even though the stomach is getting empty and the pocket money I don't accept. I will say goodbye to Aunt Ros who is still in the room.

I slowly knocked on her bedroom door

Tok.shock.tok.

"Auntie" call me slowly

I'm sure Aunt Ros can't answer me. And sure enough Aunt Ros didn't make a sound from the inside. I'm sure he's awake from sleep, only he hasn't spoken to me.

"Bi, I'm leaving first huh" I said

I just turned around apparently I passed Om Dudu who had just finished bathing and was about to enter the room.

But he still greeted me

"Dhira wants to go "he said

"Yes Om" I said

"Oh yeah, be careful" he said

Hearing his words as soon as I smiled with relief "Yes Om" I said as I hurried away

Arriving in the classroom I was still silent, no friend would talk to me they just silently looked at me like a criminal who had to be exiled

At ten o'clock in the morning Mr. Beno came to class to pick up our appointment yesterday

"Nasya, Ai, Siska, Didi and Andhira. Have your parents arrived ?" tannya

Nasya answered first "A little while more will come sir. But it will definitely come !" heed

then Didi also replied "It's up to Sir, maybe waiting in front of the school" he said

Ai also replied "There are people in front waiting to be called" he replied

Followed Siska "There in front of the langi waiting to be called" he replied

Mr. Beno threw his eyes at me, I knew it was a sign he was asking me

But I kept quiet because I didn't know what to answer.

"Dhira, what about your parents ?" tannya

"Nggggg" I can't answer yet.

"Your parents and Nasya's parents should come. So that this business is clear" he said

"Wggs"

"If your parents don't come, how can you reconcile ?" added again.

"Nhw, he'll be here any minute. Sir" I said lie. I didn't even know Auntie or Om Dudu was coming or not.

Mr. Beno nodded "Well then now you call your parents. I wait in the teacher's office" Beno told us.

Nasya, Ai, Siska and Didi answered in unison

"Yes sir !" they said as they rushed out of the classroom to meet their parents.

While I am still confused what to do.

Aunt Ros or Om Dudu just didn't give any sign that they were coming here let alone that they were cold all night.

Because I was so nervous I decided to go to the toilet pretending to have an upset stomach, even though this school toilet smells so bad and dirty but I keep it to hide in fear. My heart was pounding, my body temperature was turning cold and shaking was also limp. Maybe I'm so nervous plus because I'm so hungry.

Some time I locked myself in the toliet that made my head even become dizzy because of the smell of the room as crazy as I finally decided to get out of the tolite behind the corner of the school building.

I slowly stepped towards the teacher's room hoping that my attitude could buy time.

With trembling legs and a sense of fear I finally continued to step until finally my steps stopped hearing the voice of a mature woman I knew so well from inside the teacher room.

His voice was loud and resolute from behind the walls of the teacher room. I who had been shriveled at the end of the situation listened to him from beside the wall.

"I'm not Andhira's biological parent but I swear, he's not a bad boy. He's not a thief. So be careful when you talk !" emphatically.

My heart seemed to stop hearing it, I was moved by Aunt Ros defending me to the extent.

When Aunt Ros said that, Mother Nasya replied to Aunt Ros, "You are not her real parents, how can you be sure that she is not a thief. The proof is that his son doesn't know where he is. The proof is that he was scared because he stole !"

But Aunt Ros doesn't like her mother Nasya's words. Aunt Ros was furious at being lured with such a word

"Shut up ! You should educate your child not to accuse others of being reckless !" snapped Aunt Ros

Aunt Ros added, "Now among you just confess. If no one claims I can report you to the police for accusing my foster child !" threaten Aunt Ros firmly.

All silence no one can answer. But Mr. Beno is trying to bring things up

"There is also a truth that Mother Ros said, so it's better to just confess" said Mr. Beno.

But Ai's mother was offended "Loh, so you're siding with Andhira ?" allusions

"No, not Mom. I just want to open up opportunities for honesty !" heed

Nasya's mother still questioned me "Where is Andhira, has stolen my son's hape, instead of hitting my son as well. He's the one I deserve to report to the police !" his mother Nasya.

Aunt Ros immediately overtakes Nasya's mother's words "Dhira wouldn't have done that if he hadn't been fished !" heed

"Whatever your pick-me-up boy is insolent !" upset Nasha's Mom

"Heh, watch your mouth !" reply Aunt Ros.

Finally the atmosphere was getting hotter, noisy and noisy with the sound of quarrels.

At the same time I began to dare to enter even though my tears continued to flow non-stop.

When they saw my arrival, they were suddenly silent.

I approached Aunt Ros and sat down next to her.