DEAR
Episode 167's

After Sherin's departure, Alex becomes a frequent daydreamer himself. The man even often arrives to open the door of the room that used to be Sherin's bed. Alex feels there's something lacking in his life right now. Not infrequently even Alex seemed to hear Sherin's voice calling out to him while he was closing his eyes. It made Alex feel unsettled day and night.

Unable to close his eyes until late at night, Alex chose to leave his room. At that moment Alex also saw the aunt who was swinging her son who was crying.

Alex frowning. Not usually his son cries and can not be calmed even though it has been given milk.

Alex who felt sorry for the aunt who could not make her son silent was approaching soon.

“Bi.” Call Alex slowly.

The aunt who was overwhelmed by the handsome baby who kept crying turned her head.

“Master..”

“Why with Arka?” Ask Alex. Arkana Bryan Smith was the name given to her by Mr and Mrs Smith just the day before Sherin died.

“I don't know sir either. From the afternoon the young master continued to cry. Already I give milk but just take a short nap and get back up then cry again.” Replied the obvious aunt who was holding back her sleepiness.

Alex took a breath. As long as her son was with her, this was the first time the baby had cried like now.

“Sini let Arka be with me. Aunt rest only.”

Aunt was silent at what Alex said. The old woman was afraid of hearing wrong.

“Bi, here let Arkana be with me. Aunt just take a break. I know aunty must be tired all day looking after Arka.” Repeat Alex slowly.

“Oh yes sir. Excuse me... This.” With a wave of aunt handed Arka to Alex. But aunt did not just pass by. Aunty continued to stand in her place staring at Arkana who was already in Alex's arms. Miraculously the baby was immediately silent even though it was not given milk because the baby pacifier was still in the hands of the aunt.

“Hey you're the hotshot of papah. That man cannot be a crybaby. The man must be strong and invincible. Okay?” Alex talks to his son.

The aunt who saw that involuntarily shed her tears. This is a very moving sight according to aunt considering Alex who never even wanted to see his son. But now Alex is holding her and trying to silence her who has been crying ever since.

“If only the mistress was still around, the mistress would definitely be very happy.” Inner aunt felt bitter. Bibi also felt very devastated by Sherin's departure. But what is the power of destiny has been determined by the almighty. And when that destiny is given to man, there is not a single creature in the world that can stand in his way. The fate of death cannot be avoided even by a mosquito.

“Bi, milk.” Alex asked for the milk that was still in the aunt's hands. The man also saw the aunt who was crying in silence but he pretended not to see her. Alex is just plain ordinary. Alex knows aunty feels deeply moved by her and Arkana's togetherness. Alex also knows aunty must feel sorry for Arkana who had to lose her mother when Arkana was a baby and still do not know what. But then again, Alex is a stubborn man who needs no mercy from anyone.

Alex sighed then took Arkana away from aunt. The man continued to chatter to take his son who was silent in his sling.

Not five minutes into Alex's arms, Arkana fell asleep. The handsome baby closed his eyes very peacefully as if he felt very comfortable in the warm embrace of the papah.

“Sherin..” Alex unknowingly mutters Sherin's name. Alex shook his head. Alex feels he no longer needs to think about Sherin who is gone. Precisely Alex should feel happy because the woman who always disturbed even managed to destroy her life is now gone.

Alex clucked slowly. Alex can't deny it if sometimes there's guilt in his heart. Alex also had several dreams about the events that Sherin had experienced because of his selfishness. Among them when Alex did rough even to the point of strangling and throwing Sherin who cried sobbing. All that continues to haunt Alex through a dream until finally Alex can no longer close his eyes and finally stay up until morning. Like at the moment, for example. Alex could not close his eyes quietly because of Sherin's shadow.

Alex then sat himself on the couch and leaned his back there. His gaze was again directed at the face of his son who was really similar to the beautiful face of Sherin. The face that Alex thought was so sickening. But somehow looking at his son Alex's face just felt calm and peaceful. Alex felt comfortable looking at his son's sleeping face.

“Why do you look more like your mom than papah nak?” Ask Alex slowly.

Alex's big hands are up. She gently caressed her son's puffed cheeks. Alex's biggest wish is already real. Sherin is gone from her life forever. Sherin will no longer come back to bother him with all the cunning tactics he has. But somehow it just makes Alex feel different. Alex feels there's less to his life since hearing Sherin's death. Though previously Alex felt ordinary even very impatient to get rid of Sherin from his life. But now that it's all real everything feels very different and far from what Alex thought.

“Sherin.. You see right? Arka looks more like you than me. Are you doing this on purpose so that I can't live quietly heh? Don't you think with this resemblance of yours I can't live my life happily. I'm even now very happy Sherin. I'm happy because you're finally really out of my life. Me and my son will be happy even without you.” Muttered Alex.

The man's mouth said as if he was the most formidable and powerful man. But in reality tears even dripped from his two eyes and soaked his two thin cheeks even falling dripping down Arkana's puffed cheeks. It shows that without Alex knowing he's lost Sherin. The woman he always considered a bully. The woman he always wasted. The woman he always ignored. And the woman who always waits for her feelings to be avenged until the end of her life.

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Sherin's death also leaves Lena in the thickets. Erlan who does not know how to calm his wife can only be silent but always beside Lena.

Erlan who and how his wife. She is a gentle-hearted woman who is always willing to forgive the mistakes of others. Before Sherin leaves for good, Lena apologizes for a mistake she never made.

“Sayang..”.

Erlan's soft call made the contemplating Lena on the balcony of her room turn her head. The woman looked at Erlan with her two puffy eyes. It had been one week during Sherin's departure, during which time Lena was still crying a lot. Melisa also Sasha had Erlan call to come and calm Lena, but it didn't seem to work. Lena is still saddened by Sherin's departure.

“I'm sure your cause like this is because Sherin was once the best friend for you. That means Sherin is actually a good person. He was only mistaken for his love for Alex. Dear.. God always has a reason for every destiny to set on his servant. And what God has set right now may indeed be best for everything. For you, for Sherin, for all of us.” Lirih Erlan stared fixedly at the two eyes as moist as Lena.

Erlan sighed softly. The man was very hopeful that Lena would not feel sad after this.

“Now you can imagine if if Sherin were still around in the hope that she could be loved by Alex, it would be very torturing for Sherin. Or maybe Sherin still exists today with various medical devices attached to her body, it not only makes Sherin tortured himself but also his family. But God was so wise as to release Sherin from all that pain. Even God called him to give Sherin a more worthy place. Dear.. You don't have to mourn Sherin's departure. All this is destiny. You don't have to blame anyone else for blaming yourself. This one time was a decision from God. All you have to do now is be patient and sincere. You have to keep the spirit especially healthy because here is our child.” Continue Erlan at length. Erlan also gently rubbed Lena's flat stomach at the end she said in hopes that Lena could understand and understand what she was saying.

Lena cried hearing him. Lena hugged Erlan tightly. Saddened by Sherin's departure, Lena almost ignores her own condition. And now what Erlan said managed to resuscitate him.

“Sorry.. I'm sorry.” Lena's cry was accompanied by sobs.

“Ngak papa darling.. You can cry now. But after this I beg you not to shed any more tears of sorrow. I want you to always be happy and smile by my side.” Erlan's whisper gently rubbed Lena's hair and occasionally kissed the top of his beloved wife's head.

While Lena, crying she nodded her head in agreement with what Erlan said. Lena will try to summarize everything that has happened in her life.