DEAR
Episode 91's

Erlan frowned when she found Lena who looked uninspired so out of the bathroom. The man tried to guess what had happened to Lena so she looked very lethargic.

“Why baby?” Ask Erlan slowly. This time Erlan could not guess what his wife was feeling.

Lena sighed then got closer to the bed and sat on the edge. Lena looked down lethargic making Erlan even more curious.

Because Lena did not answer the question, Erlan who was focused on her laptop on the sofa opposite the bed was approaching. The man sat down beside Lena and grabbed Lena's hand, grasping her gently.

“What's up?” Ask Erlan again.

Lena turned her head to look at Erlan who was looking at her attentively.

“I.. I..” Lena stuttered. He really felt disappointed in himself at this moment.

“Say slowly dear.” Lirih Erlan's.

Once again Lena sighed. He turned his gaze from Erlan forward.

“I get my monthly guest again.” Lena said with a trembling voice. Though Lena thinks she won't be mens this month. But in fact tonight he actually got his monthly guests. This made Lena feel very disappointed in herself for not getting pregnant. Though they always try and do not forget to say do'a and hope that Lena soon get pregnant.

Erlan smiled hearing that. The man did want to have a child from Lena soon. But that doesn't mean she's imposing a will on Lena to get Lena pregnant with her child. Of course Erlan would wait for him patiently.

“I.. I.. hiks..” Lena couldn't continue her words. Sobs interrupted what Lena wanted to say.

Erlan who felt unbearable to see his wife crying until sobbing immediately grabbed Lena's body. The man held Lena very gently. His big hand rub on Lena's back was so slow and slow.

“Sayang.. You don't have to cry like this.. I know what you want and how you feel. But that doesn't mean you should be disappointed in yourself. I'm not asking you to have a child with me right away, baby.. I will wait until our hope comes true. You don't have to worry either. Because I am very sure God will soon give confidence to us to take care of his most beautiful gift.” Erlan said at length.

Instead of stopping crying, Lena was getting sobbing. His body trembled in Erlan's embrace. Lena doesn't know what to say now. Erlan was so patient and attentive. The man always understood and understood himself. Erlan had never demanded even for something Erlan craved so much though.

“I.. I..”

“Sshhhtt.. Cry if it makes you feel relieved, baby. But after this I beg you, no longer cry for something we can definitely get together.” Sela Erlan did not want to hear Lena blame herself. Erlan knows and understands everything requires a process. There is nothing instant in this world.

Lena could only nod in Erlan's arms. Lena felt very relieved because Erlan did not urge anything else demanding her to get pregnant immediately.

As long as Lena cried, Erlan continued to hug Lena and tried to calm her down by gently rubbing her female back.

A few minutes after crying, Lena broke free from Erlan's embrace. With a face wet from tears, Lena looked at Erlan.

After wiping Lena's wet cheeks, Erlan also briefly peeked at Lena's forehead. The man again developed a smile on his thin lips looking at Lena who kept on silently staring at him.

“What if I can't get pregnant?” The question just escaped from Lena's lips made Erlan lift next to her eyebrows do not understand why Lena even asked like that to her.

“Kok you..”.

“Erlan, what if it turns out I can't get pregnant?” Sela Lena asked in a slightly raised tone.

Erlan looked at Lena fixedly. From Lena's gaze, Erlan could see the sadness as well to the worry that was so pressing on her inner self.

“Are you going to leave me Erlan? Are you going to marry again? Are you looking for a woman who can give you a child? You..”

Cup

Reluctant to hear the words that would never happen, Erlan also silenced Lena's lips with her kiss. While Lena, she just kept quiet without responding to her husband's soft kiss.

Erlan released her lips on Lena's lips. The man cupped softly both of Lena's cheeks and fused their eyebrows together.

“Please dear... Please don't say anything about shit that's never gonna happen. No matter what happens, I will love you. You're still number one in my heart, baby.. You are the only owner of my heart. You're the only woman who will forever be by my side.” Lirih Erlan continued to convince Lena.

“But..”.

“I love everything about you.” Sela Erlan's.

Lena fell silent. Erlan was so sure of her love. Erlan is also so confident that she will still love Lena no matter what. But this time Lena's concern is really very difficult to shake. Of course because of the child's problems. They have been together for a few months but until now Lena has not been pregnant. That's what makes Lena discouraged and not believe in herself.

“Sound good dear.. God is so good. For now, God may not trust us to have children. But someday God will give us that trust. You don't have to doubt anything until you're scared. Everyone needs a process.. And we as humans just have to try. For the result we leave it to God who surely knows better what is best for us his people.”

Lena could only nod. Sadness almost drowned him into the abyss of despair. Luckily her husband was a man who was so very understanding and able to make her realize that God would not let her people in prolonged grief. Erlan also makes Lena think that everything is not instant. All require effort as well as patience to get the desired results.

“You are sure, baby.. Never feel doubt about everything we can do dear.” Erlan continued.

“Ya.” Nod Lena down. Lena agreed to what her husband said.

Erlan smiled with a response agreeing with his wife. The man then re-entered Lena's body into his warm embrace. Erlan did not want it until his wife felt imperfect. Erlan also did not want Lena to give up hope for what she really craved. Because Erlan himself always believes that God is always with his people who want to try and be patient with the desired results.