
It's actually hard to go through all this
Pretending to be tough makes me a stupid woman
I hope it all ends perfectly.
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Filla circulated her gaze all over, feeling unfamiliar with this place, but the hospital's distinctive smell filled her kiss reassuring her current existence.
"Filla, are you awake, son?" mama's hysterical screams knowing Filla's conscious after 3 years in a coma due to an accident. "Filla," he said, crying with Filla lying in his arms.
Filla blinked her eyes, she made herself aware of all this, was she now just dreaming of longing for an old man who had gone for good or was this really real?
Mama was in front of him and Mama's embrace was so tight and warm that she felt, "Mama?" he said slowly, almost noiseless, if this is a dream, he just wants to sleep and hope never wake up.
Mama releases her hug and presses the emergency button near Filla's bed, quickly Doctor and Sister enter Filla's room and check on Filla's condition.
"Dok, how's my son doing? Did he really wake up from a coma? Or am I just dreaming?" mama asked while crying looking at Filla.
The doctor looked at my mother with a smile, "Alhamdulillah, he passed the keritis period, congratulations deck Filla, thanks for trying to wake up," said the doctor while looking at Filla.
Filla nodded, looked at her mother in tears, remembered by her living without her, but now she was in front of her, and none of this was a dream.
"Ma, sorry Filla, don't stay in Filla anymore" he said.
Mama slammed into Filla's arms, they let go of the great longing, "You don't stay Mama anymore, thank you son you choose to wake up, Mama is sure Mama's son is strong and will wake up, sorry dear Mama," exclaimed mama while stroking the top of the child's head just a puppet.
"Where is Ma? Filla wanted to apologize to Papa," asked Filla when their embrace was off.
"Papa was coming home, Mama will call Papa, Papa must be very happy," said Mama while taking a cell phone in her pants pocket. Wait a minute and connect with papa.
"Pa, Filla woke up, quickly here," said Mama happy, emanating clearly she was happy with Filla's return.
Filla was still staring at her mother, longing to control all the space in her heart, whether what was really happening, all as if it was not real according to her, what happened, what happened, what about his memory of the deaths of his parents and the passage of his life these few years, was it all just his dream in a coma? Then is Rangga, Mother, Father and the others just an illusion? I don't know Filla's confused about all this.
But the one he was grateful for, at least the bad memory of his parents' death was not true, enough he felt abandoned, enough he felt sad when alone, now everything is back.
The middle-aged man entered quickly, the man was a sweat-drenched papa, it seemed like he was running because he knew his only puppet princess was waking up from a coma. He stared in disbelief at Filla sitting on the bed, "Filla," he said slowly, barely making a sound. He ran up to Filla and pulled Filla in his arms.
"Papa" said Filla barely able to speak. "Filla's father, sorry," he said, clenching his arms and immersing his face in the chest of the field so warm, he missed him, his hero figure, the hero who is now back.
"I'm the wrong Pa, I'm the son of a dissident, brutal and like to make Papa the same Mama embarrassed, sorry Filla, and don't leave Filla," Filla cried so badly.
"Mom should also believe you son, but we're too stupid" she continued, hugging Filla, followed by Papa who also hugged Filla and mama tightly.
Filla buried her face on the shoulders of the two people she so longed for her warmth as she was today, God restored them, "Filla dear to you, don't stay in Filla alone huh," he asked for fear of feeling the same way as before
Both of his parents nodded and hugged Filla tightly, for them the return of Filla was a blessing, when everyone gave up on Filla's state, they could only be sure that their child would be healed, and it turns out that belief is a stepping stone to reality.
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Filla was being examined by Doctor Adit, long lying in a coma making some of his organs difficult to move, stiff because of long periods of not being moved.
"You're a lot better, you just need a little therapy to move like you normally would, I didn't expect two comas to be conscious at the same time, it's a blessing," doctor Adit said with a smile.
Filla frowned digesting Doctor Adit's words, "Do you mean Doc? Is there anyone in the coma besides me?" ask Filla at last.
Doctor Adit nodded, "The male patient next door is the same age as you and you are in a coma because of the same accident. You guys are on a collision course" explained Dr Adit.
Filla rounded his eyes, it turned out that there was an accident, but why everything seemed to change, Filla remembered when he had an accident he was not injured in the slightest and it was true that the accident happened with a man, with a man, but after the news of the parents who died but now the plot is different, they collided and eventually fell into a coma for 3 years and woke up at the same time, a real oddity according to Filla.
"Yes, and you know what? The man was the son of Papa's best friend Mama when in the orphanage first, we were both raised in the orphanage," explained papa who grabbed the nod of mama.
"Yes, later the nurse will explain the schedule of therapy, mopping up yes Filla," said Doctor Adit while patting Filla's shoulder.
Filla nodded and smiled, "Thank you Doctor" said Filla.
Doctor Adit came out of Filla's room, Filla felt strange about all this, what really happened? Everything was confusing as if he and the man were connected. Filla so remember Rangga, where Rangga now, is Rangga in the world that Filla occupies now? He misses Rangga, they finally express feelings but all like useless because there is no certainty, even Filla does not know Rangga is an illusion or what.
Filla closed her mouth surprised by her own mind, if all this is related what do you mean Doctor Adit is Rangga? Because in his dream the man who collided before he fell into a coma was Rangga, then mother and father were also friends of mama and papa as he remembered. If all this is true then Rangga is not an illusion.
Filla put away her blanket about to wake up from her sleep, but she could not move her legs because of the stiffness.
"Where is Filla going?" ask papa who immediately caught Filla who almost fell. Followed by the mother who also supports the weight of Filla.
Filla held onto her papa, "Pa, I want to see the man called Doctor Adit, I have to make sure of something" Filla pleaded.
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