Filla And Rangga (The Perfect Dream)
Chapter 58

"Room here?" rangga asked when he saw Filla sitting in the living room with a pink shirt and jeans, looking neat accompanied by a bag of clothing in line with her clothes.

"Seeked to the shoe store," replied Filla then without heeding the lazy expression Rangga looked at her.

"Gue never said I wanted to, anyways I wanted to go out," said Rangga upset because Filla never stopped making Rangga feel angry with his presence, he just confused what Filla's heart was made of, what, anyone who is treated so will not want to come closer but Filla increasingly aggressively approached him.

Mother smiled at Filla, and Filla knew that because of mother, Rangga would not refuse her request, "Gga, anterinlah, Filla would not know a good store here," said mother while patting Rangga's shoulder and then sitting next to Filla.

"But Bun-" said Rangga was cut off with a signal mother who put her index finger in front of her mouth. It's as simple as it really is. Indeed Rangga a submissive child. Rangga breathing down. "Not more than an hour, if it's past an hour I stay," he said as he passed to the garage.

After saying thank you, Filla followed Rangga and they went to the shoe store where Rangga had also invited him to the previous memory, exactly the same, exactly, but this time Filla will not buy school shoes but ordinary sneakers, actually his shoes at home are very much but his ego beat the reality, he just wants to be with Rangga even for a while.

"You come in too" said Filla, pulling Rangga's hand.

arangga brushed it off, "No, I just didn't go until nemenin" Rangga stressed.

"Oh No, you have to help me choose the shoes, I can not choose myself, aar can not ask for advice," explained Filla.

Rangga breathed and finally followed Filla's pull to enter the store.

Filla was busy choosing the shoes she wanted, finally placed on two options, she could not buy both, "Where?" asked Filla while showing her two shoes.

"Whatever," answered Rangga lazily.

Filla clenched her lips, "Oh No, you said you want to spit, let's give advice, the right I like the color and the left I like the model, I can't buy both," filla explained.

Filla remembered something, the question was exactly as it used to be, nothing had changed when he had not compiled it.

"This one," Rangga pointed to the shoes in Filla's left hand.

Filla weighed, "I think I took this one" Filla said, showing the shoe in her right hand.

Rangga rounded his eyes to see Filla's behavior, "Why ask for my advice dodol?" rangga asked back while pinching Filla's head.

Filla was silent, everything was the same but the memory was only on her, only she would realize it herself.

"And I'll answer, yes it is Ngga, I will buy something that you do not choose because you choose bad," said Filla while remembering.

Rangga frowned, "You mean?" ask Rangga wonder.

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Filla down the campus corridor is quite crowded, he occasionally saw a circular watch on his wrist, this morning he found a letter that was splashed in his locker, he said, the letter contained a request for a meeting at the back of the campus at exactly 14:00.

Filla was just curious and tried to meet the person who sent the letter to her even though she did not know who sent it.

Filla saw the park behind the campus that is not quite crowded, because this place is very rarely visited by students, usually students prefer to hang out in the park in front of the campus, which is very rare, while in this one park is usually filled with students who like solitude, and like to learn, so it is obviously very quiet.

Filla looked around looking for someone who might have sent her a letter, but there was no sign of anyone waiting for her, until she saw a man behind a big tree, he was clearly familiar with the man's posture even though only from behind, the man was Rangga, who was wearing a light blue hoodie combined with black jeans.

A smile on Filla's face, "Don't Rangga send a letter" Filla guessed with a smile.

Filla sped up his steps until he realized Rangga was not alone there, Rangga talked to a woman who Filla believed must be Rasti. For a moment he just stared at Rangga who was so loose laughing with Rasti, a laugh that even then or now Filla had never seen if Rangga was with him, his heart hurt to see that reality, he said, a Rasti managed to make Filla fall.

Filla was still in his place, he was quite close to Rangga and Rasti was only a few steps away, Filla knew Rasti was aware of his presence, but he still chose to stand behind Rangga, it was as if he was stuck there unable to move away.

Until one scene that was very poignant for Filla, all of a sudden Filla was unable to move, her eyes focused on the incident 4 seconds ago before Rangga quickly pushed Rasti who kissed right on her lips, they're kissing. Filla could not say anything, her tears falling one by one, no matter what she felt, only blank dominating, her breathing choked at the scene.

Rasti smiled at Filla making Rangga follow his gaze, Rangga was so surprised when he saw Filla behind him while crying, he was as surprised as Filla, all happened suddenly, all of a sudden, but he and Rasti only talk about lessons.

"Gue first yes," said Rasti while laughing leaving Rangga and Filla who were silent, struggling with their respective thoughts.

Filla looked at Rangga with eyes that described the full wound, even Rangga had never seen Filla cry in front of him, no matter how much he treated Filla, Filla would only come with a genuine smile.

"What you see, is not what you think," said Rangga slowly.

Filla wiped away her tears, neutralized the tightness in her chest, she turned her eyes away from Rangga and chose to bow, "You don't need to clear anything," she said in a clear voice she held back her tears.

Rangga approached, but Filla retreated her steps.

Filla ventured to look right in Ranga's eyes, "I'm stupid, you're not wrong, I'm stupid, I'm stupid," said Filla very slowly, slicing the hearts of anyone who heard it. "I, wishing more on all that wouldn't happen, couldn't move on from that crazy memory that was just mine, mine, and never will be on you."Filla could no longer hold back her cries, her chest tight, very tight.

Rangga was silent to see Filla who was so fragile, he tried to grab Filla's hand, but Filla still rewinded her steps away.

"I'm good enough, I'm stupid, all these crazy things, I've had enough to survive, I'm enough like a cheap woman who just hopes you can be good like before, I'm wrong, I'm wrong, it's all my dreams are not the same reality as I hoped, thanks for waking me up if I should stop, I'll give it up," said Filla then ran fast leaving Rangga who could only look at Filla who began to disappear because it was too far, I don't know what he felt at this time, who could only look at Filla who began to disappear because it was too far away, he could only silently digest all of Filla's words that completely pierced his heart.

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