For A Husband Who Doesn't Love Me
27. Haunted by Guilt

Hidayat was made dizzy himself because of his problems with Kirana that had not yet been resolved. Regretted? Those are not the words he should be saying right now. It was wrong from the beginning.

Hidayat stepped gontai towards the motor park. Kirana's words were still disturbing her mind. However, the ringing of his phone made him slightly jerked.

"Maira's? Asterghfirullah..." Hidayat said as he picked up a phone call from Maira as soon as possible.

"Goddessa, Mai..."

"Wa'alaikum hail... Brother so pick up Maira? Otherwise, Maira just take the busway..." Ask Maira from across.

"Yes, so really, Mai... This is you going there..." Answer Hidayat excitedly. He really seemed to forget the problem with Kirana earlier because he heard the voice of his wife.

Hidayat's heart was calmer when he saw his wife waiting for him in front of the campus gate, accompanied by Sila and Beni there.

"Maira's friends are just them, aren't they?" Ask Hidayat while grinning nosily.

"The faithful, yes, it's just us..." Please answer quickly, while Beni just smiled wryly.

Sila held Beni's hand, making Maira glare at him. Please pout, then let go of Beni's hand.

"You guys dating?" Asked Hidayat who was confused to see his wife's reaction to them.

"After college, we'll get engaged, Bang..." Answer Please quickly.

"Keep, why is Maira angry?" Ask Hidayat again while trying hard to hide his jealousy, because he can see Beni's love for his wife.

"They haven't been muhrim, Bang... As a friend, Maira just wants to remind you that it's not justified..." Maira.

Hidayat felt his throat blocked after hearing his wife's words. He is the same. All this time he let Kirana hold his hand, hold him, also lean on his shoulder. While Maira, even pay attention to the character of her friend without knowing the bad behavior of her husband behind her.

"Come, we'll go home, Mai..." Take Hidayat lethargic.

Maira nodded. "I go first, Sil, Ben... Assalamualaikum..."

"Wa'alaikum hail..." Please answer Sila and Beni.

"Be careful, Mai..." Exclaimed Sila while waving her hand.

Hidayat began to remain silent along the way. Kirana was back as an ingredient in his mind. The discomfort continued to disturb the calmness of his soul. He's getting tired. He wants to be frank with Maira, tell her everything from the beginning, and then promise Maira that he is only for Maira completely.

But again his courage shrank. Fear if Maira does not accept, and does not understand her feelings.

"Maira's..." Call Hidayat while looking back.

"Why, Bang?" Sahut Maira while bringing his face closer to Hidayat's shoulder.

"Sister's holding for a moment, Brother's speeding..." Pintanya.

Maira. He hesitated about it.

"Maira mind, huh? We're already muh-" Hidayat's disappointment vanished when his waist suddenly felt the circle of Maira's hand.

He glanced at his stomach for a moment. Maira's hand had locked onto her waist. He smiled happily, then raised Maira's hand up to his chest, so that he felt a calmness that was so conciliatory to his heart.

"Thank you, Maira's been patient as Brother's wife..." Say Hidayat in his heart.

"Abang's in a hurry to get to college, huh?" Maira asked a little scream so that Hidayat could hear her. He tightened his grip to Hidayat's chest when he felt the speed so high.

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They got home faster than usual. Maira seemed to tremble as her feet began to climb the earth. Hidayat actually drove his motorbike up to the house.

"Maira's afraid that you're speeding, huh?" Tanya Hidayat looked worried.

"Maira is unusual, Bang... Especially on the highway..." Maira replied limp.

"Sorry Brother, Maira..." Hidayat said while rubbing Maira's cold hands.

"It's okay, Bang... Maira is very happy... Another day Maira wants to repeat again even..." Maira replied with a smile.

"Should, you don't need to pick up Maira if you rush to campus..."

"Abang is not in a hurry..."

"Well, keep...?"

Hidayat stopped his steps, then stood before Maira. He looked at his wife's face with a million feelings. His heart returned.

"Maira wouldn't have hugged Abang if you hadn't asked for it... Why?"

Hidayat's gaze made Maira misbehave. He became nervous, then lowered his face.

"If... It's only if..." Said Hidayat trying to strengthen the heart to talk. Maira looked back at his face, waiting for him to continue.

"If there's a fatal mistake on you, will Maira forgive him?" Tanya Hidayat was filled with anxiety.

"For example?" Maira asked so innocently and looked confused.

Hidayat. He felt claustrophobic when faced with such a question. His fear reappeared. He hesitated to be honest.

"What's wrong?" Maira asked again as if to intimidate him.

"Emmm... Suppose... Example, huh? Eeh... Look at..." Hidayat scratched his nape. His head returned to shrivel.

"none... Forgetit... Brother is just nanya. Maira doesn't have to think about it anymore..." Elak Hidayat walked back to Maira.

Maira's forehead frowned. She immediately pursued Hidayat's position, then held her husband's arm. "Why is it weird? Is there something you're hiding from Maira?"

"N-no... There's no..." Answer Hidayat.

"Kok Brother is pale? Sick brother again, huh?" Maira watched Hidayat's face carefully and the look of an anxious face.

Hidayat gulped his saliva roughly. He was trapped by his own question.

"Did you?"

"Eh? It's okay, Mai... Today Brother did have lunch, and he came home as late as he could..." Hidayat's reply distracted Maira.

"Owh..." Maira. "It's time for Zuhur... Brother take a shower first, let Maira get dressed..." Tell Maira to walk towards the room.

Hidayat. He watched Maira from behind. His heart was filled to see the sincerity on his wife's innocent face. He continues to wonder if only he never made that mistake, maybe he is now happy.

When Maira was busy choosing the clothes that Hidayat would wear, suddenly her husband was hugging her from behind. Maira gasped in surprise, she spilled half the neatly folded clothes in the closet.

"A-branch...?" Maira moaned with an erratic feeling.

"Abang hope Maira will forgive Brother..." Hidayat said so softly. His heart thump felt thumping on Maira's back, making Maira's feeling even more washed away in tension.

Maira clasped her own hand, trying to hold back her feelings. He cleared his throat, trying to get his feelings back. "Yes, Maira sorry..."

"Really?" Ask Hidayat again tightened his embrace.

"L-yes... What's wrong, Bang? Why did you suddenly become this strange?" Maira took Hidayat's hands crossed on her shoulders and on her waist, and she came out of her husband's arms.

Maira stared at Hidayat's pale face haunted by guilt.

"After you finish the thesis later, we go home, huh? Brother wants to get together with family. My mom and dad are happy..." Take Hidayat.

"Yes... Maira knows Abang misses the village... We'll be home... Now you take a bath there, he says there's a lunch lecture..." Tell Maira to gently push Hidayat's back.

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