For A Husband Who Doesn't Love Me
30. Hate And Love Are Thin Different

Maira walked half-run. Her tears kept flowing, and her hands were also unceasingly wiping. Her heart was so broken after seeing the husband she believed had fallen in love with her cuddling with another woman.

BRUISES...

"Astaghfirullah hal'azhiim's..." Maira said so surprised when she accidentally collided with someone's body.

He took a few steps back, then repeatedly apologized while lowering his head.

"Maira?"

Hearing her name being called, Maira slowly raised her face. "Aryan Lady?"

"Maira why?" Arya asked looking worried to find Maira's eyes reddened and watery, as well as a body that shook withholding a rush.

"Emmm... Ma-Maira..." Maira is nervous, but still her tears are not able to hold in front of Arya. "Maira hurry, Bang... Excuse me... Assalamualaikum..."

"Wa'alaikum greetings, but, Mai... Maira's..." Arya tried to call Maira for an explanation, but Maira did not bother her at all.

Arya breathed a heavy breath. He suspected that something had happened between Hidayat, Maira and Kirana. He was so sorry for the three-sided love relationship faced by his close people.

Before long he saw Hidayat running towards him, but the view of his late sister, the author of the online novel, looked sad looking for someone.

"Longs!" Arya cried to him.

Hidayat only realized Arya's existence there, then began to stop his hunting steps.

"Aryan Bang..."

Seeing Hidayat as a desperate man, Arya approached him. "So you said you wouldn't come, and now what?"

"Hidayat doesn't have time to explain now, Bang... Hidayat had to meet Maira first... He must be very disappointed..." Said Hidayat with a loud breath.

"He needs time, Yat... He was at the peak of misunderstanding now. Let Maira calm down for a second..." Arya's words were soothing.

"But, Bang... Hidayat worried Maira why-why. He left in an emotional state..."

"Trust me, Maira will be fine..."

Hidayat shook his body to a chair lined up on the wall of the hospital room. He rubbed his sad face rough. "Hidayat had no intention of coming, Bang... But when Hidayat read the message from Maira, Hidayat immediately rushed here. It turns out they found... Hidayat was worried that Maira too had an accident..."

"So, Kirana finally met Maira to fulfill her obsession?" Arya asked as if guessing the true incident, so Hidayat looked a little surprised and looked at her with embarrassment.

"Don't Arya know anything?"

Arya took a deep breath, then she started telling stories. "Abang can't believe you're doing this, Yat... You betrayed Maira just for Kirana's sake…."

"That's not it, Bang. Please don't criticize Hidayat like that. Hidayat knew that Hidayat was wrong in this, but…." It's like I don't know what else to talk about. He feels worse than everything.

"From the beginning Abang had started to be suspicious of Kirana. He defended to come to your wedding, even though she is not a woman who likes to go anywhere, even if just stop by... Here, his own will to come to your village, Yat... When Zahra died, he didn't even come... You guys haven't had anything to do with that time, have you?"

"Indeed, stupid Hidayat, Bang... Hidayat started it all. Hidayat who started chatting him, contacted him, because Hidayat felt that Hidayat was interested in his life. He's so secretive and enigmatic. But, somehow he has a good side that Hidayat wants to achieve. Hidayat likes his attitude, his nature... Yes, although the puzzle about him has not been solved, but Hidayat was already interested in Maira first. Hidayat begins to forget Kirana, and promises to end everything with her..."

"Sadly he refused, right?" Cut Arya.

"When you met Kirana this afternoon, it was clearer, Yat..." Arya said with a grouchy smile.

"Abang's there?" Hidayat asked dumbfounded feeling caught off guard.

"Dear all of it... It's only fitting that you wanted your brother to tell you about him yesterday..."

"It's not so, Bang..."

"Here you go, you don't have to dodge anymore, Yat? How much money has he taken from you?" Arya asked as if she knew a lot about Kirana.

"Eh?" Hidayat Turns nervous when getting such questions. He had indeed spent a lot of money on Kirana all this time.

"No you tell me it doesn't matter either, Yat... Brother only hopes that in the future you will no longer be fooled by him..." Aryan.

"Bao... Although this feeling no longer exists for Kirana, but still believing it is not a bad girl is the right thing, Bang... He's not as bad as you think... She's..."

"Whoa..." Arya looked at Hidayat's face with disappointment.

"Sorry, Bang... Maybe Maira is ready to hear Hidayat's explanation now... Hidayat did not want Maira's anger to drag on later... And about Kirana, she needs someone who can understand her... Hidayat hope, brother can accompany him for a moment... Ask him with a big heart, hopefully Brother is the puzzle-solver about him..." Said Hidayat as he got up from his seat.

"You still care about him?" Arya asked increasingly disappointed.

"Said Abu Hamid Al-Ghazali, 'We are creatures who like to blame from the outside, not realizing that problems are usually from the inside'." Say Hidayat while pressing Arya's chest with her index finger. "Hidayat's mistake was to let Kirana reign in Hidayat's heart, until Hidayat married Maira. But look at Brother's mistake, even Brother is unable to erase Brother's past with Kirana. Make sure you really hate him, because hate and love are thin, Bang..."

Arya was surprised to hear Hidayat's words so loud. He was silent, trying to digest, even balking with his mind that Hidayat's words about his heart were wrong.

"Assynoltom..." Hidayat said as it passed leaving Arya who was still floundering in confusion.

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Ms. Zainab opened the drawer next to her bed. He opened a small box, then took out a 2R photograph from it. Ms. Zainab's heart is so sore. This is not the first time he saw the photo, a photo of Hidayat with Kirana.

"It's enough that you should be able to accept Maira for now, Yat... And I hope so... Until you let Maira down, you also made your mother hurt... Also, you should no longer have any relationship with this woman..."

Zainab was crying in memory of her son. He was so disappointed when he found the photo in the guest room, as well as some of Hidayat's belongings there. He was convinced that they had not been in the room since they were married.

Ms. Zainab only felt lucky because Maira's mother didn't know about it. He began to tear photos of Hidayat with Kirana until it became a small piece that can no longer be known shape.

Somehow tonight he felt the feeling that his son's household was in a state of not okay.

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