Husband's Regret: Betrayed for Not Getting Pregnant
I'm sorry, Papa, Son

Open the door so loud that a loud clashing sound is heard in the room. Rayyan entered the ICU room and rushed to the bed of Firdaus.

"No! Nah! Papa, don't leave me, Pa! Please, stay with me!" rayyan exclaimed hysterically watching the screen of Firdaus' heart rate monitor show a chaotic wave. "I don't want to lose someone I love a second time." Speak with trembling lips.

Puspa who was following from behind, rushed to the button beside the bed to call the doctor and the nurse on guard. Repeatedly doing the same action hoping that medical personnel will come to provide help immediately.

"Doctor Rayyan, you need to calm down. Doctors and nurses are coming here soon. I'm sure they can help Doctor Firdaus." Puspa tries to calm Rayyan down even though he himself is not sure that Firdaus can be saved. If you look at the current conditions it is impossible if the former director of the hospital can survive.

Not long after, Firdaus' body was immediately surrounded by medical personnel who were on guard at that time. Rayyan looked at the hospital bed with a chest that felt as tight as being squeezed by a large stone. Breath with an empty look. Wanting to cry but her tears were already dry as she wept over Mei Ling's departure for good.

Doctors and nurses are trying their hardest to get Firdaus back into this world despite only 0.1% of the possibilities, but they are all doing their job well.

A nurse carries a heart shock device or in medical terms is called a defibrillator. Then, the doctor pours a gel over the device before starting life-saving actions on the patient before the patient experiences a flatline.

The doctor tightly grasped two flat objects. He rubbed the two objects several times, then the middle-aged man pressed the heart shock device in the patient's chest. Trying to stimulate the patient's heart can beat back.

The senior doctor had several times placed the device on Firdaus' chest. Each electric shock sent Rayyan's biological father's body soaring into the air. At the same time, Rayyan felt the angel of death slowly pull the body of the director from his body.

"Sir Firdaus, hold on for the sake of your children and your family! They're here, accompanying you. Please, hold on!" the Senior Doctor exclaimed as he continued to press the heart shock device.

All the eyes in the room were staring seriously at the monitor screen, but there was no change. The medical personnel shook their heads, their faces looked frustrated because the rhythm of the patient's heart rate was still irregular.

"We try again!" exclaims senior doctor on nurse guard. The nurse nodded her head in response. "Recharge!"

"Clear!" the nurse stood beside the doctor. Ensure that the defibrillator or heart shock device is ready for use.

Keep trying tirelessly, even though the energy has begun to drain out and the sweat continues to wet the forehead. However, they continued to struggle until the last drop of blood. Until finally a woman's voice stopped the senior doctor's activities.

"Doctor, the patient's heart rate is back to normal!" exclaimed one of the female nurses who accompanied the senior doctor.

Then, the senior doctor looked at the monitor screen. And ... sure enough, the rhythm of the patient's heart rhythm has returned to normal even though it looks weak.

"Alhamdulillah. The patient's heart rate is back." The senior doctor breathed a sigh of relief, having managed to save Paradise from a state that almost brought the man's body to leave the body of the owner, forever.

Rayyan immediately rushed to the bed, then touched the palm of his hand and said, "Papa. Don't walk away from me. I ... don't know what to do when Papa leaves me like Mama. Enough for me to lose Mama and I don't want Papa to follow Mama to heaven."

Everyone in the room was still in shock at the scene a few seconds ago, where they almost saw Firdaus lying stiff on the bed with a pale face, the heart stopped beating.

"Papa, I love you" Rayyan said, kissing the part of the hand that was not burned.

When Rayyan kissed Firdaus' hand, she felt his hand move. The nurse was standing next to the patient's bed.

"Doctor, the patient moves his fingers!" exclaimed the woman in the nurse uniform while pointing towards Firdaus' hand.

"Sir Rayyan, could you please give us some room to check on the patient? We want to make sure that the movement is indeed a sign that the patient has gone through a critical period" said the senior doctor.

Puspa approached Rayyan who was still standing next to Paradise's bed. She said, "Doctor Rayyan, let's wait there. Let the Doctor handle Doctor Firdaus."

Netra Rayyan looked at Firdaus' pair of eyes that were still closed, then turned to look at the brown iris of the middle-aged man beside her. The senior doctor blinked his eyes, as if giving a signal that everything would be fine.

Rayyan took a deep breath. Without saying much, the man let go of the grasp of Firdaus' hand that was linked in the hand. Then take a few steps back before finally standing in the corner of the room. Giving opportunity to the Imam doctor, as the doctor in charge of the patient.

The senior doctor named Imam stood at the side of the bed. He bowed a little, then whispered right in Paradise's ear. "Sir Firdaus, can you hear me? If so, please move your index finger."

As powerful as the man who once served as the director of the hospital owned by his wife obey the orders of the doctor. Moving the index finger as a signal that he heard what the Imam's doctor said.

Slowly, Firdaus's eyes gnawed weakly. Opened in half, spread her eyes around looking for the whereabouts of Rayyan, her first child from a previous marriage while with Mei Ling. "Rayyan ..," he called her softly with a voice. However, everyone in the room understood the meaning of the man's words.

"Papa .. I'm here!" rayyan exclaimed as he rushed to the bed of Paradise. "Thank God, Papa is conscious. I ... was afraid that Papa would leave me," he said with trembling lips.

One word that was spoken from the lips of Paradise when the surface of his hand was touched by Rayyan was the word ....

"I'm sorry for all your mistakes, son. Sorry .. because Papa has made you an orphan, losing a woman who means so much in your life. Papa regrets that he desecrated the sanctity of marriage while still with your mother."

"Papa should have tried to open his heart to be able to accept your Mama as a companion to life instead of torturing his mind. For a dozen years Papa never thought your Mama existed when, your Mama so sincerely loved and devoted herself wholeheartedly to me. However, Papa never appreciated it all."

"After your Mama's departure, Papa just regretted having wasted a good woman like your Mama. Although there was another woman by my side, but it still felt different when I was near Mei Ling."

"One more time, please forgive me, Papa." Still keep saying with unclear logic.

Rayyan who sat beside the bed raised her sense of hearing, grasping the meaning of the words of the father. Although initially difficult, but he understood where his father's words went.

"Sst .. no, Pa. Don't remember it again. Rayyan ...." The words stopped in the air. His tongue was a little, unable to say what he wanted to say.

Wanting to forget all the events that happened in the past, but the shadow of Mei Ling crying was stunned alone in the room while hugging Firdaus's clothes, re-recorded in her memory. The tears, sadness, loneliness felt by the late mother still swirled in his mind.

However, if he does not forgive Paradise, what if tomorrow or the day after God took the man's life? He must have lived a lifetime of regret for not being able to forgive his father's mistakes. It feels so cruel .. if he does not accept his biological father's apology. While God alone will forgive all the mistakes made by His creation.

"Ehm ... Pa. .. i-"

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