Husband's Regret: Betrayed for Not Getting Pregnant
Goodbye, Papa

Looked at the beautiful view ahead. Children, daughters-in-law and grandchildren gather together in the same room. There was no desire asked by Paradise when he saw loved ones sitting side by side, though he knew exactly how the heart of Rayyan, his eldest son. For the sake of the papa, the owner of the full name Muhammad Rayyan Firdaus is willing to put aside the ego within as long as he can see back the happy twinkle in the eyeball of Paradise even if only for a moment.

Rayyan tried her hardest to harbor the anger that raged in the chest every time she accidentally met her sister, Raihan. The sister's face again reminded Arumi's husband of the bitter memories of the past. Although willing to forgive Firdaus, but in fact restore what has been cracked is very difficult 'to be reunited.

"How is Papa feeling today? Feeling happy no, being able to meet the Twins again?" ask Raihan. At this time, he and Firdaus were looking at a couple who were busy playing with Triplet. The atmosphere of the room seemed so crowded because of the light ruddiness sourced from the three twin Rayyan children, filling the corner of the room.

Firdaus's eyes never separated from a pair of men and women and three tiny babies in front of him. "Of course, son. Throughout life this new time feel happiness that is difficult to interpret. No words can describe how Papa feels today."

"You know, this moment is what Papa is looking forward to. Can gather with family even though Papa knows there is an ego and anger that is harbored to realize this desire," said Firdaus again. He looked at the youngest Raihan's face, then said, "Papa hope, you want to apologize to Rayyan for misjudging him all along. Apologize sincerely to him, son. Papa doesn't want to see you guys constantly living a hostile life."

Raihan took a deep breath, then exhaled slowly. "Pa .. actually I also want to apologize to Brother Rayyan, but this tongue feels faint every time I want to talk to him. It felt like a big lump of rock was sticking up my throat to make my voice choke."

The corner of Firdaus's lips was raised upwards. He smiled faintly barely visible to anyone's netra. "In the beginning it was difficult, but with a strong determination, Papa was sure the sentence could slide off your lips. Papa's message, never put off anything good. After all .. we never know the age of a person will survive until when in this world. As long as you have the chance, apologize to your brother."

Again and again, the man's chest ached every time he took a deep breath. "Like this Papa, apologizing when the angel of death was about to fetch. Even so, Papa remains grateful because God has given a second chance to be back in this world even if only for a moment. All Papa's business here is done waiting for the Creator to order the Angel to take Papa's life."

Hearing the words spoken on Firdaus' lips, Raihan shook his head quickly. "No. Papa can't talk like that. I'm sure the medical team at this hospital can cure Papa."

Firdaus chuckled softly. Raihan's words were almost the same as what the firstborn said. "Basic stupid! You forget who this man in front of you is! In the past, Papa was a doctor and not infrequently found cases like this. So, I can predict for myself what's going to happen to me next."

Raihan had a weak head. The eyes begin to glaze over, the nose feels sour and the chest feels tight as if the oxygen in the room is unable to drain air into the lungs.

A long silence paused in the air. Only the sound of babbling the twins were so engrossed with his parents. Firdaus closed his eyes slowly, unraveling all the memories in his memory that he could not erase forever. There was a time when he strongly accused Mei Ling and combined love with other women in front of the eyes and head of his legitimate wife to cause the wife died.

"You must know how your Papa and Mama used to be. In the future, Papa hopes that you can honor the woman who has been your wife. Never hurt his heart, let alone cheat on him. For God's sake, Papa is not sincere if you follow in Papa's footsteps," said Paradise. "Be a faithful man, love only one woman. Not to be tempted even though thousands or even millions of women come and go to offer the pleasure of the world that you have never felt with your wife."

"Example your brother. He is even willing to leave the house and sacrifice anything as long as he can live with Arumi. Despite his harsh nature, arrogant but so sincere in love with his wife. I hope you will too."

Two clear feathers flowed in the corner of Raihan's eyes. No longer able to hear the last message before being left by the father. Therefore, he took the initiative to call Rayyan. "Sister Rayyan, can you come together with us?" her door with trembling lips. The eyes continued to look down while gripping the end of the hospital bed.

Suddenly, the couple turned to the source of the voice. The tone of Raihan's voice as if storing deep pain makes anyone's heart feel slashed by a knife by an invisible hand. Then, the two human beings looked at each other. For a moment they shook as if they were digesting what had really happened to Paradise.

Moments later, a huge mace struck Rayyan's consciousness. Shaking his head quickly, his face turned pias like a corpse.

Arumi noticed the change in her husband's facial features. Then, he stepped forward to approach Rayyan with his hand still holding Zahira. She stretched her hand over her husband's shoulder while gently rubbing it as if giving strength to the man.

"We're with Papa now. Perhaps, it is time for Papa to release all business to duaniawian. Guide Papa so that he can die in a state of calm and peace" said Arumi softly.

"Mas Rayyan?" reprimanded Arumi when she did not get any response from the husband. "Don't let Papa wait too long."

After everyone sat in a circle around Firdaus' bed, the middle-aged man opened his eyes slowly. Spreading his gaze, staring one by one the faces of the child, daughter-in-law and three grandchildren. He smiled broadly as he watched the rare sight before him.

The man sighed heavily, feeling the longer the chest felt tight pressing down to the lungs. However, try your hardest to keep looking strong in front of loved ones.

"Arumi, Papa also apologized to you for refusing your marriage. Just because your status never failed to build a household, Papa could ask Rayyan to break up from you. But now, Papa realizes that you are indeed a woman destined by God to be Rayyan's life companion forever. Papa hope, your marriage lasts until death picks up."

Firdaus turned to look at Raihan. The youngest's eyeballs appear reddened due to the tear that had wet the cheek. "Son, remember Papa's message. Be a real man, who is never double despite the many flaws in your wife. Don't make it an excuse for you to have an affair, because once you hurt your wife's feelings then accept payment for your past deeds."

Then, Firdaus looked back at Rayyan's face. The man's lips trembled, holding a smooth thump within the chest. "And for you, Rayyan, there's not much Papa wants to say. Papa just wants to ask you, please take care and protect your family well. Educate your children with religious knowledge in order to become human beings who are good and have worldly knowledge that can be shared with others."

Rayyan's tongue suddenly shriveled. His heart stopped beating for a while. Like there was a chunk of cactus that clogged the esophagus until he was unable to speak.

Arumi and Raihan begin to tear up, while Triplet is silent when he sees his father, mother and om dissolved in sadness.

"May Papa kiss one by one Triplet's face one last time?" pinta Firdaus with a voice began to gasp.

Arumi bit her lower lip, trying to resist the sound of sobbing so as not to make the atmosphere more blue. Without saying, he brought Zahira's body closer to his father-in-law. After that, Ghani and Zavier brought their cheeks closer together to be kissed by Firdaus.

There was silence for a moment. Everyone dissolves in their own minds. Firdaus closed his eyes for a moment, recalling the fond memories he had shared with Mei Ling and Lena.

"Is it time for me to leave this mortal world?" lirih.

Firdaus opened his eyes and blinked softly when he felt someone standing before him. The eyes dimmed but he could still see the glint of white light that dazzled the eyes. The man could see, a woman in a white dress as if she was extending a hand towards him.

"You picked me up?"

A beautiful face covered in white light seemed to be smiling sweetly and nodding softly. Mengulum smiled until her narrowed eyes became increasingly invisible.

Slowly, Firdaus's eyelids closed tightly. He felt a very heavy drowsiness that made the man want to sleep.

The monitor screen shows a picture of the heart that slowly begins to form a straight line (flatline) until the sound of the monitor is heard in everyone's hearing. Without being able to be dammed again, tears began to fall slowly over the cheeks.

"Good way, Papa. Please tell Mama that I miss her so much" whispered Rayyan in Firdaus' ear.

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