Lecturer Idiot
102. Black (SEASON 2 EPS. 20)

"Never see me again." Add me then immediately get up and leave them there. My life is ruined now. I might never be able to meet Ara again. But, it is better to further speed up the healing process of my heart because the wound is already too deep. Just like when I saw Meygumi was doing that with another Man, and now, this is happening to Ara.

-ARA.

Morgan left me easily. I'm so fucked up right now. There is nothing else I can do but cry. My cry broke out hysterically just after Morgan left this room. Someone came and hugged me tightly. I can't do anything anymore. Can only receive a warm hug from this person.

"You can cry if you want to." What I know, it's Dicky's voice. As a Lecturer Psychologist and also a friend of my ex-boyfriend. I hugged her tightly until I didn't let go. I was crying in his arms. I've lost everything! I've lost my honor, lost my love and lost her who took it all away from me. My life instantly became empty. Dicky always wiped the tears out. I feel like I failed at being a classy woman.

"Where's the promise he said he didn't want to leave me?" Shouts me hysterical. He stroked my hair while occasionally kissing it. I feel so broken, I don't know what else to do.

"I'll hear you a story if you're willing. Meet me tomorrow at the cafe near campus at 11 p.m." Sleek Dicky. I nodded resignedly.

"I have to go back. See you tomorrow." He said goodbye to me. I broke out of his embrace.

"But before, I had to clean up this mess." Sleek Dicky. He immediately carried Ilham and laid him on the sofa.

"See you." Sluggishly. I nodded small towards him.

I didn't expect this to make my relationship with Morgan a mess. Maybe from Morgan's point of view, it looks the wrong point of view because Ilham is behind him, making my face covered with the head of Inspiration.

I stepped into my room. I lay down my body and pull the blanket. My life is so ruined now. He has taken everything and now he is leaving easily. I couldn't hold back my tears. Instantly, drop after drop came out and flooded my cheeks. I don't even dare to look at myself in the mirror right now. It must be more like a zombie.

I hugged the roll I was holding. It felt no more comfortable than Morgan's embrace. Why is it all happening? Why is it all going so fast? by the time I had started to accept Morgan in my heart, but this unexpected event had come and destroyed everything. If only I hadn't told Ilham to stay here. If Morgan hadn't come. If only everything hadn't happened.

I have spent my time in vain. Turns out, I fell in love with the wrong person. I shouldn't have acted rashly and didn't accept Morgan this fast. Everything Morgan did was enough to drive myself crazy. Instantly the bolster I hugged became wet from my tears. I never thought about losing it a second time. Now, I feel it again.

*

-MORGAN

I drove with anger. My emotions from the rest of the incident are still on. I can't think clearly. I'd love to vent all this. No matter what Dicky said.

"City, Gan. Loe's house is going that way, right? Why turn this way?" Ask Dicky. Sure enough, he will definitely continue to do something to stop me. I ignored it and instead increased the speed of my car.

"Gan slow down!" He said a little scream. My heart's too hard that I don't want to hear any words from Dicky. I'm getting my car faster.

"Gan, lookout!!" Dicky was screaming so hard. I looked straight ahead and saw someone crossing the street. Quickly, I slammed the steering wheel to the left and hit the brakes hard.

"Ngiiiiiiii.kkk.."

"Braaaack..."

I hit a tree not far from where I hit the brakes. My head hit with the steering wheel in front of me. I feel like this impact is enough to make my head hurt. I held my head and accidentally held onto something thick. I was curious to touch it and then see it.

"Hahhh.." I was surprised because the one in my hand right now was the blood coming out of my right temple.It's worth it that I felt a fair amount of pain in the temple. I remembered something!!

I turned towards Dicky who looked weak with blood coming out of his nose. It seemed like the hard impact had too much effect on him. Thank God Dicky is conscious.

"Sir, Loe don't papa?" Tanya.ku who was worried about her.

"Ohuuukkk.. Uhuukkk.." Dicky kept coughing until he again spewed a lot of blood from his nose. I can't see it.

'Where is this, it seems like the problem is serious!' My mind is beginning to regret my actions. I was so consumed with my emotions that it dissolved with the situation. I didn't think clearly enough to make us both hurt like this.

"Who should I call?" Ogre me. I tried to move my hand but as it turned out, the impact was enough to make my hand unable to move.

"I have to call Ara so she doesn't worry." Lirih I who tried to take my phone that fell due to the impact earlier. I stopped because I remembered something. I have nothing to do with Ara anymore. I've ended it and it's not important for him to know my current situation. I want to tightly clench my hand that was about to pick up the phone.

"Dicky, aren't you papa?" Ask me one more time to make sure Dicky's really.

"Yes, I'm not papa, Gan. But it looks like Loe has to take me to the hospital or to the clinic now. My view is a little blurred." The answer. I felt like I was ignoring his safety. I was too rash and acted arbitrarily. I'm not going to tell Dicky about my current condition that can't move my hand.

"Okay, we're going to the clinic now. Hold on, brother." Said I agreed to his request. As forcefully as I move my hand and try to drive my car back. There is little doubt and trauma to driving a car. But for now, that shouldn't deter me from taking Dicky to the hospital. I don't know who to call. Because other than Dicky, my other close friends only have Arash.

I'm trying to get the car back on the highway and drive the car at standard speed. Finally I was able to move my hand again even though it had to be forced in such a way. I'm moving to the nearest clinic or hospital.

*

"We just broke up." Those words always ring in my mind. Until it feels like my head wants to break. I am very upset with myself at the moment.

"Never see me again." Instantly, I looked at Morgan who was in front of me with a glare that shot towards me. He walked away after saying that. Slowly he disappeared somewhere. I felt like I was in a big room and alone. My mind hurts so much when Morgan's words always ring in my mind. I squeezed my hair hard and I felt like I was screaming, but it was like something was holding me back so I couldn't get my whole heart out. Everything restrained and slowly made my head even more painful.

"Awwwrsss..." I bowed and held my head. The light was gone and turned into darkness. I was curious to see the situation around me. When I was about to cross the road, a car was seen that was familiar to me. The lights made my eyes glare. But I can still see those people in it. Dicky and Morgan are driving very fast. I was scared because the car was quickly moving towards me. I'm surprised, but I can't step my foot. It was like carrying a lot of weight on my feet. Morgan seemed to turn towards me with a look like a very surprised person. I was surprised because the car was getting closer and closer to me.

"Ohhhhh..."

"Ngiiiiiiii.kkk.."

"Brukkkkkk.'s.."

"YOUT!!!!!" I got out of my bed, making my breath very short. I'm trying to digest what just happened. I looked around me to find Morgan and Dicky. But judging from the circumstances around, it seems like I'm just a dream. I tried to calm myself down so that something bad didn't happen and further damaged my common sense.

"Ra, you're awake." The cry of someone I know is Inspiration.

"Flame.. Taps.. Taps.."

"Dude.."

I ran very fast towards Ilham then immediately, I hugged him tightly. I can't hold myself back anymore. I'm really depressed now. In fact, I got to see Morgan and Dicky crash like that in my dream. It felt so real to me. Is Morgan okay?

I was crying a mouthful in the arms of Inspiration at this moment. His hug is the most comfortable hug for me right now. I don't want to let go of that hug. Only He can help me by giving me support.

"Don't worry, Ra. I'm fine." Speak with a soft tone. I just realized, last night Ilham was beaten up with Morgan. Maybe Inspiration thinks, I've worried about him. Right now, I am worried about myself. But Ilham even wrongly caught like this.

I stretched my arms to her. His face looks very sad. I couldn't bear to see it.

"Sir Inspiration really is okay? I think Brother Ilham needs diobatin deh." Speak to me in an unbearable tone. He still smiled sweetly at me with this condition.

"Actually, it does hurt a bit." Sluggishly. I came to my senses and picked up a signal from him. It was a sign, He really wanted to get my attention, didn't he? He must want me to take responsibility for all this.

"Well, let's go to the hospital." My speech. He added to that smile. There seems to be something strange about this manager.

"Why even smile? Brother's sick, and it's all my fault. I have to take responsibility, right?" Ask me who is a little desperate. He then nodded without removing his smile in the slightest.

"Yes, come on!" I was upset while pulling his hand. I took her to Brother's room. I took a quick step down the stairs and finally I met with Big Brother. He looked at me with a look filled with astonishment.

"Lho, Ra?" Said Brother confused for a moment after looking at my hand that was holding the hand of Inspiration I who knew it just threw the hand of Inspiration from my hand.

"Sister's condition is fine now, right?" Ask me. The brother did not respond and instead turned to Ilham.

"Lho, Ham? Loe's face why? How is bonyok?" Asked the surprised brother.

"So you don't know the state of Inspiration?" Ask me in wonder.

"Sister doesn't know. Brother just woke up." The answer was trying to convince myself. I took a long breath.

"Yes, Anterin I'm now going to the hospital to see Ilham's wounds. Later on the trip while I'm telling you about last night." Pinta. He still looks like a confused person. I became very upset with him.

"Come on, brother!" Snapped me that scuffled with Brother. Brother woke up from his daydream.

"Yes yes! Wait, I'll get dressed!" The answer is like someone who has to. I headed straight to where Ilham's car was parked. I went into it and sat down next to Inspiration. I thought of one thing. It seems I did not see the whereabouts of Kak Rangga earlier.

"Feelings I did not squirm Brother Rangga deh. Do you know where he is?" Ask me confused.

"This morning, suddenly there was business. He already knows how I am." The answer. I just nodded while chanting. The atmosphere instantly became silent, especially when I accidentally saw the gaze of Inspiration pointing at my face. I became stiff, not knowing what to do. I hate this kind of atmosphere.

"Are there any more strange insects on my face?" I asked her to aim at herself. But he didn't budge at all.

"If there is, please tell me. Let me take it myself." Add me with a flat tone. I don't want any more misunderstandings. I don't want to hurt Ilham anymore. Just to be on guard, because anyone knows Brother suddenly came at an inappropriate time. Just like Morgan back then.