Lecturer Idiot
Maniac 3

I kept quiet, no

disregarding it.

“You why-”

“Don't ask me why! This

all because of loe, yes!” I spontaneously snorted, while snapping violently, and

cut off speech.

Morgan seemed to be silent.

I can't hold this feeling anymore. I want to see him.

“Please..

will get pregnant--”

“Enteng really loe by the way

that's it! My virginity I know not!” I cut back

his speech.

Is his brain made of jelly?

Very soft way of thinking.

“Same. I'm also new times

it does, with you, Ra. I never had any-” before

“HOLE!” My trunk

spontaneous, with eyes glaring.

The mood looks awkward

at present. I cry back. It was clear that Morgan was breathing.

“Gue don't want to know, yes, anterin

I'm back, now!” I snapped with tears still flooding my cheeks.

“But, Ra--”

“NOW!” I cut again

that remark.

I don't know what else to

doing what. I don't want to live in this world anymore. I've been too

ashamed of my disfigured state.

No hypocrite, I want to

doing this kind of thing. Why go with Morgan? Why should it be inside

a situation like this?

I'm in pain, it hurts so much

i withhold him. It was like having seventeen swords stuck in my heart. I've been

failed to maintain my chastity. It has to be how I live my life

after this?

“Good. I'm taking you

home.”

Shortly thereafter, Morgan

take me back to my house. From that moment on, I tried to stay away

Morgan's. I never wanted to look at him once. If you live on campus,

I always avoid it in many ways. However, he never

out of sense, and always there wherever I am.

It makes me very

be irritated!

It's been a week since

that incident. Bisma should have finished what I asked her. Is

can I tell you today?

I am not calm, my soul

keep feeling like something is bothering. Either because of Morgan's problems, or

bisma Issues. Both of them can always make me ride my apitam.

“What Bisma still wants to receive

I am the one who is like this?” I was worried about the thought

Bisma.

I'm too stale.

In an age like

this, that sort of thing was already not considered taboo. But I'm worried, too

half-crazy for thinking about what happened that night with Morgan.

But, what's true is Morgan

said that time? I'm not going to get pregnant? Why could?

“Duh..

again,” lirihku, while still pacing unsettled.

I grabbed my phone

who was on the bed. There's no more time. I have to ask

certainty in Bisma. The problem is, I'm not virgin anymore. Is it

want to answer for something he didn't do?

“Tuut...”.

“Halo?” Phone connected

by Bhishma.

I feel stiff, because

I contacted him first. My whole life, I never

contact the men first.

Uh.

Never mind.

I don't have either

self-worth again.

“Halo, Bis.”

***

I told Bisma to

meet me tonight at a caffee. I entered the caffee slowly.

Looks like a man

sitting at table number 13. He wears a leather jacket and jeans,

and wear a headset on his ear. I just went to him, right away,

and sit in front of him. He seemed surprised and immediately took off the headset he was wearing.

“Ra!” The screech.

The atmosphere was awkward at the moment

these. I'm nervous, I don't think about what I have to say later on

Bisma.

“Gue has broken up Jess and

already told me about my feelings with Fla, as you want,”

inexplicably.

I feel, I don't want to

talk to him anything. My mood suddenly disappeared. I don't know why.

Bisma clasped my hand tightly, while occasionally stroking it.

“Turn again to me yes, Ra.”

Pinta Bisma with a clear tone.

I can't do anything, though,

for not knowing what kind of Bhishma's response would be if he knew the truth

these.

“Ra, answer dong, Ra.” Pinta

Bisma with drowning.

I prepare myself, I prepare,

to express this feeling. I don't want to hide all this from Bhishma.

Eventually, they will be found out too. So better, I said it

now it's.

I took a breath, once

again to prepare myself.

“Although I'm not virgin anymore?” origin kataku.

Bisma looks wide

towards me.

I thought, he would

give that response. Fortunately, I prepared a little

I will answer what he will give.

I must be able to face

this all.

Must.

“What, Ra?” yangkanya, which

I don't seem to believe my words.

I've resigned with

my feelings for Bisma. If I can't, I'll be ready to accept it

a big heart.

“Huft... yes, what loe still is.

want to receive me?” I asked who had resigned.

Looks like a bisma

annoyed after hearing my words. Beyond a doubt, it looks like there will be something.

Whatisit?

I don't know.

BISMA

'Is he not virgin? What

am I broken too?' my inner

start making bad feelings about Ara.

It's like this, is it

didn't I take this opportunity? I also want to sleep together

with Ara. In any case, Ara looks perfect, from the end

hair to the toes. Anyone would definitely not be able to refuse it.

MORGAN

‘Can't keep going! Him

who's here?’my mind cannot

stop thinking about Ara.

Apparently, Ara lately

this, already makes the distance between us become tenuous. It always

avoiding me, everyone accidentally passed me. I've felt that, already,

since last meeting him.

Since that incident, all

be different.

As a woman

the one who has been harmed, he will never abandon a man who has desecrated

her purity.

But why is Ara different?

That's what I like about him.

‘I can't squirm

people I love, so hate me. Never could, my inner being constantly feeling guilty for what had happened.

I was unintentional

follow him to this caffee. Apparently, he was about to meet

someone is here.

I can't wait in

here while Ara is in there, don't know who she's chatting with.

Not very clearly seen when viewed from a distance like this.

Suddenly, there was someone

coming from behind the door. I tried to keep myself from being seen by anyone.

After a few seconds, I looked down and then slowly peeked back up.

‘He turned out to be the same again

that jerk's man.’ My mind is upset with

which I saw.

Bisma looks moderate

take something on his bike. I avoided it, so as not to

seeing myself. I took a detour, and circled the pole,

so that Bhishma can't see me here.