Lecturer Idiot
Goodbye, Bisma 2

Heart worried.

“Huft...”

I took a long breath. In any case, Bhishma was once a part of my life, even if only briefly.

Now, she wants to go somewhere far away, and there's a chance we'll never be able to meet again. I have to put my ego aside first.

I nodded, obeying his request. Who knows this for the last time. After that, he won't be able to bother me anymore.

I suddenly got up and stood before Bhishma. Bhishma. Now, we stand face to face.

“Be careful on the road later,” my words gave him a message, with great enthusiasm.

Seen Bisma who was still sad, then suddenly smiled after I said words of encouragement for her.

He smiled at me, and just hugged me tightly. Long enough, he hugged me in the not-so-great rain. Now, I can feel the sincerity of the apology from Bhishma.

I believe in Bisma, this time.

I stretch my arms and stare at him deeply, “hopefully, you get an even better woman, who can turn loe into an even better man.”

“Cuppss...”.

The bisma kissed my lips gently. I closed my eyes. Had Bhishma been able to stay here, and comfort myself who still felt heartbreak, I would have been very happy. But, my current hatred, doesn't allow that.

I opened my eyes. It's been a while since Bisma kissed me. I glanced, and by accident, I saw Morgan across the street, watching us.

It seemed, from his gaze, a look of fiery anger.

‘He squirms too, not a problem should be. He's nobody to me, kok,’ my inner self while still continuing to focus on Bhishma.

Before long, Bhishma ended all this. He looked inside me, smiling.

“One more time, sorry I yes.” he said.

I returned her smile, then nodded small. Perhaps, this is the last time I meet with Bhishma. So, I should make a good impression on him. Moreover, our relationship has not been broken. But, I don't want to talk about this relationship anymore. Let's just say, this is a sign of the end of our relationship as well.

Bhishma looks like he's reaching into his pocket. Perhaps, he wanted to give me a memory, which I could remember, even though he was no longer by my side.

“This tag yes.” Bhishma held out something to me.

Seen before me, a small red box.

Is that what's inside?

Is possible....

“What is it, Bis?” ask me, who doesn't want to be too confident.

He opened the small red box.

It looks like a little gold ring, which might be the size of my ring finger. I fell silent, amazed to see such a sight.

This was the first time I was given a ring by a man. I was a little overwhelmed to see it.

“A-what is this, Bis?” I ask who feels astonished.

Why did he suddenly give me a ring? We just ended this relationship.

“Hold aja, Ra. I am a jerk. I realize it.”

‘Yes, really. Loe it's a jerk, my inner’ interrupts.

But, I just interrupted in my heart, did not have the heart to agree to him.

“My evil intentions, though, cannot be forgiven. But, I wish I could keep going with you, Ra. Gua asked you to guard this. Because who, you know we are dating, and later, when the time comes I come back later here, I must find loe, make room for loe.”

“Deg...”.

He wants to propose to me?

Uh. Is that true?

It must be just bullshit.

In fact, he already knew, that I no longer had any honor. He almost ruined my pride. Why does he still want to be with me?

What am I supposed to do?

“Loe don't have to answer now, Ra. I was just a little hopeful. I regret everything that happened between us. I realized, only you can make me afraid to lose a woman. And I don't think I should treat a woman like this. Not only loe aja, but it also applies to all the girls that I will later meet there.”

His words sound very sincere. I didn't hear any awkward tones from his words. It sounds like he was very sincere this time.

“Do not need to contact me often later. I don't want to be disturbed. Even if you want to be close to other guys, I don't have a problem, Ra. But obviously, wait for me to come back again, yes.” Her request.

I was so touched by his words this time. I was fine before Bhishma spoke these words. But why, is my world turning upside down?

I buried my feelings for Bhishma. But now, I was even touched by his last words.

Uh.

What does that mean, he's proposing to me? Give me a ring, and promise me? What am I supposed to tell him?

“Sorry to make you feel uncomfortable, as long as we are dating. I just hope, one day we are reunited,” murmured, he stroked my head gently.

“Part yourself well, yes,” his message which once again, has touched my heart.

He smiled at me. My tears began to fall, soaking my eyes. I nodded slowly at him. I accepted that gift. Don't know if you should be sad or happy this time. This farewell, it wasn't what I expected. I can't deny, I do still have a little feeling with Bhishma.

Uh.

I was stupid.

Hehe.

He wiped away my falling tears, and mixed them with rainwater.

“One more time, I say goodbye, yes. Take care of yourself, Ra,” murmured.

The mood seems mellow again.

There is a sense of unwillingness to release Bhishma, because his words are sincere and touching.

But it's like this is the story. I can only follow the scenario God has made for me.

‘Be careful on the road, Bus...’ I can't even say this one last time, so feeling a deep loss.

I know, I can still talk and relate to Bhishma, even though we've been separated by distance.

But, still. It feels like it's going to be different.

He left me here alone.

I was crying more and more because my lover was away for some time, to a place very far from here.

Unaware, my crying became hysterical. I can't control myself. I have lost someone I love.

I don't know what this heart wants. On the one hand, I want him out of my life, on the other hand, I can't see the fact, that he's really gone from my side. Instead of ending the relationship, instead start a relationship that is more complicated than now.

He hanged me. Stupid again, I want to.

Yep.

I was stupid.

Real dumb.