Lecturer Idiot
104. Keep distance (SEASON 2 EPS. 22)

"Mh.. If I had, I'd bet you Arasha, would Loe give me permission?" Ask the Inspiration to Brother.

"Deg.."

My heart was beating and I might have stopped for a moment. What did Inspiration say to Brother? Did I not hear wrong? Inspiration asking permission with Brother? What exactly is this, did He take advantage of the mistake that had befallen him and implicate him?

I covered my mouth with both hands. I don't believe what I hear. Suddenly my body became helpless.

"Loe, what was that talking about? Deketin Arasha? Did I hear wrong?" Ask Brother back to confirm the words of Inspiration. He was seen throwing a smile at Brother.

"Maybe it's too shocking for Loe? haha. So gini the story, Loe several times took Arasha to the office. At the time, he was still in High School. The meeting that time, made me fall in love with Ara's first sight. If I can be honest, until now I still feel it for Him." Clearly Inspiration.

It turns out my thinking was wrong. Inspiration is not taking advantage of the situation, but He has liked me for a long time. But I don't feel that He likes me? Usually if someone likes someone else, He will definitely do things that make that person sympathize with him. But I didn't see Him doing more than his work at the time.

"But Ara is the same..."

"Morgan?" Inspiration cuts off Brother's talk. It turns out their talk has come this far. But I am still curious about their next conversation.

"Yes, Loe knows." Said Big Brother who was still insisting but Ilham just smiled.

"Yesterday, Morgan ended his relationship with Ara." Clearly Inspiration. Hearing that sentence back, I became even more ill. Even until now I still can't believe that this relationship is over.

"Huh? Seriously?" My brother sounds like he can't believe it. Unaware, I cried again. I intentionally didn't tell this to Brother. But Ilham told him. How else would you like?

Immediately, I wiped all the tears that came out for fear of Brother or Inspiration seeing me cry later.

"Couldn't you? What happened to yesterday's problems?" Ask the brother again. Inspiration only nodded. Brother looks like an unbeliever. He still looks confused.

"Geez, I didn't think I was. Why is he acting so rashly? It should be fine." Lirih Sister. Inspiration did not respond to his words this time.

"So what, about my question? What's.. Can I get Ara's decetin?" Ask Inspiration. I can't let Brother say anything about that question. I rushed to them to cut their conversation.

"If I had been..."

"Sister!" I cut Brother's speech. I don't want to talk about feelings anymore. My heart still hurts a lot from being in a relationship with him. I still want to rearrange my feelings.

"Why, Ra?" Ask. I'm standing in front of him now.

"Handphone I missed in his car brother Ilham." My speech.

"Let me take Ra." Speak of the Inspiration suddenly. That's great code. I did deliberately so that Ilham would not be here for a while. I want to say something to Brother.

"False, Brother Ilham." Speak to me with the blanked tone I have. He seemed silent, just after seeing my response.

"Yes." Yeah." He answered me briefly, then immediately headed to his car in the parking lot. Now it's just me and my brother. I glanced at him cynically. The older brother who noticed me immediately returned my gaze with the same gaze.

"Why are you like that?" Ask Big Brother in a slightly higher tone. I folded my hands and held them together.

"No need to say anything about feelings to Ilham! I don't want to be disturbed." My cynics. Brother scrunched his forehead.

"Why haven't you been able to move on from Morgan?" Cynical ask. I looked at him with a lazy look.

"Who hasn't been able to move on? I'm not really in love with Morgan, either. Just ordinary!" Saying it while throwing away my eyes. I don't want to look weak in Big Brother's eyes. He looked at me with a look of disdain.

"It's so strong this woman." Brother is teasing me this time. He really didn't believe the words I said.

"Let's see it later." Said I who accepted the challenge from Brother. Hopefully, my feelings for Morgan can go away quickly.

"This is your phone, Ra." Saying Ilham who suddenly came while thrusting my phone. My phone screen turned on by itself. Looked at the wallpaper of my and Morgan's photo while eating in the mall at that time. Honestly, my heart was a bit mellow when I saw her.

"Ciee.. Some are strong when mah belom move on. Wallpaper has not been replaced." Ledek Sister. I immediately grabbed my phone from Ilham's hand and put it in my jacket pocket. I looked at the cynical Brother.

I headed to my room feeling upset.

"Plukkk.." I threw my phone on my bed. Immediately, I picked up a towel to rinse my already sticky body. Slowly, I took off the clothes I was wearing. Then turn on the shower and let my body be rinsed by the running water. My mind is so fucked up right now. Bhishma has arrived in Indonesia, and he is eager to meet me this afternoon. On the other hand, Ilham expressed his feelings and asked permission for Brother to try to get closer to me. But right now, I still feel such a deep wound because all of a sudden, Morgan lost her trust in me and easily ended everything we've built up so far. Did He never think about how hard it was to struggle to get me back then? Why does He so easily say the word separate to something He does not yet know?

"So this is what he said he didn't like him?" Ogre me. I stared blankly in any direction. All the sweet words spoken from his mouth were just pseudo words. In the end, it was him who left me now. I squeezed my wet hair from the splash of water. If it's like this, can I forget Morgan quickly?

"Well how about the feeling of Bhishma and also the brother of Inspiration? Although Bisma is my ex, but slowly I feel the same She is gone. What about Ilham? He has liked me for a long time. But how about it, I have absolutely no feelings for Ilham." I constantly think about how I feel about them. Right now, all I want is Morgan. Why did things turn around so quickly? Why am I in love with Morgan? Wasn't it Morgan who was chasing me?

"Aghhhhh!!"

I constantly think of the no-no. Until now, I have been very angry. I'm angry at myself! Why can't I just get a little peace? I like good-looking men, but they just like it. If to love is like that compared to Bhishma or Inspiration I love Morgan more.

What should I do after this? Do I have to use Bhishma so that Inspiration never approaches me again? Am I being too naive? Inspiration voluntarily allowed herself to get involved with Morgan, just to help me. But I used it again to get himself away from me. How is this? Did I just give up and accept Brother's request to continue my education abroad? At the very least, I will never come into contact with them again for the next few years. But what about my friends here? Although Fla is Morgan's younger brother, I don't hate him at all. I don't care what it will be like. Obviously, I only know my friendship with Fla. I don't care about my past relationship with Morgan.

"Who should I tell? If Dicky had not been in an accident with Morgan that night, I would have been confiding with him this afternoon and swore all the resentment in my heart." Ogre me. I remember Dicky's current situation. Is she okay? Do I have to see him?

I rushed to put on my shirt. I checked my phone, worried there was a notification not yet in sight. After I checked, sure! Bhishma repeatedly sent me a short message. He looks forward to seeing me again. But it seems like right now, I'm not in the mood.

"Hi, Ra. How was this afternoon? We'll meet, right?"

"City, Arasha.."

"Again to sleep?"

"Not waking up yet?"

A short message from Bisma that since this morning has not been read at all. I took a long breath. I have to find a way to reject it. But he could not, for He had come far. Same thing, I don't have good ethics with him.

But what about Inspiration? He was still waiting there with Brother. Is he waiting for me? If He is still waiting, it will be very difficult for me to get out of the house and see Bhishma.

I went out and peered towards the living room. Seen Ilham and Brother who was eating fast food that maybe Brother ordered earlier. I turned around and leaned my body against the wall.

'There are still 'Yes!' My mind is complaining. I thought, He's gone because I was in the bathroom a long time ago. What do I have to say to Bisma?

I slowly approached them with a very confused feeling. Bhishma may be on the road to here at the moment. I couldn't prepare, didn't know what to say. Had I not heard the conversation with Big Brother, I would not have felt more awkward when dealing with him.

"For a long time the shower!" Gerrutu Sister. Just like that, it pissed me off! Moreover, Big Brother spoke nothing like that earlier, just before I left them to take a bath. I throw a bitter smile at Brother.

"Often, don't put that look on!" Ledek Sister. I stick my tongue out at him. I can't repay Brother more than this.

"You haven't eaten, have you, Ra? Want to not try this? I ordered a delivery." Ilham. His voice always sounded smooth in my ears. In fact, Inspiration is a male figure that I think is very sweet, if He smiles. His words were very gentle and always put me first. He was also very smart and also responsible in his job, as evidenced when my brother experienced a drop because my family company was almost out of business. Inspiration quickly solved all that with brilliant ideas that He could always give. For all that, I was so impressed with him. Morgan is not like that! He was an idiot lecturer who initially did not want me to approach. But at this moment, it was precisely I who had become an idiot in front of him. I kept crying when I faced him face to face. I couldn't help but cry in front of her. All of it flows on its own without any engineering. It's probable.. I lost her so much.

"Re..?"

"Re..?" Call Ilham. I woke up, and spontaneously looked at him.

"Eh, why?" Ask him to ask him to repeat his question.

"You haven't eaten, have you? You want to not eat this?" He repeated his question. His tone still sounds the same as before. Who could resist feeling if constantly treated like this?

"False, Brother. I'll eat with me later. In a moment, he's here." My speech. Inevitably I must say so that He will not hold me back again, and not reason for any reason to keep Me here. He seemed to be twitching his forehead towards me. I know, He must be wondering in his heart who my friend will pick me up later. Let it! I was intentional in order that He would not go further than this.

"Where are you going, Ra? I can take you with me, if you want to go somewhere." Mumbled. Surely my guess! He was even more determined to take a few more steps forward. Maybe He thought, I didn't hear what he said to Big Brother earlier. Good thing I heard half of what he said! I could easily keep my distance from Inspiration. I don't want to go into the circle of love again for some time to come. Enough, I want to put my feelings first.

"No need, brother. My American friend came today, and I'd like Him to make it around this place." Refuse me. Inspiration seems to be silent, even he has no expression at all.

"Who is your friend from America?" Ask the brother suddenly. I scrunched my forehead at him.

"Repo."