Lecturer Idiot
Blind Dating 2

I rushed into my shoes and took my bag. I tucked some milk candy in my pocket.

I don't know what my heart is like. I was just having a relationship, which I felt comfortable with. But, I don't know, what kind of person is Morgan?

Indeed, he has helped me a lot, but if I fall in love with him because of that, it means that I just feel sorry for him, right?

I don't want to start a relationship because I feel sorry. It will keep me glued to him.

“Dring... dring My phone's ringing. I touched the green screen, to pick up the phone, which I knew from Brother.

“Ya?” my many.

“There's Morgan, nih,”

“OK, I'm there, Kak.”

“Tuut...”.

I ended the call from my sister.

I suddenly became nervous.

What's wrong with me? I just filled my stomach.

Did I eat wrong?

Uh. Seems not.

But, I was trembling to hear that Morgan had arrived at my house. What does this mean?

All my life, I've never invited anyone to come to my house. In fact, Reza never let me come to this house, for fear of the threat of brother, who he said wanted to stop the supply of funds to me, if I get caught dating.

Huft.

The High School era, the time where I felt happiness, as well as the deep sadness of losing my first love.

Uh.

Why do I suddenly think back to the past?

“Ah. Really bad I am!” I snapped at myself, with the intention of encouraging.

What's wrong with me?

I feel like I'm okay.

Am I sick? What next time I go?

“Ah. I refuse, anyway? It's not good either,” I'm sorry, pissed.

“But I lemes gini, why yes? Great for gini mah.”

I was so agitated, choosing between going out or staying in the room. I can't guarantee my safety if I'm still going.

“Crekkk Someone sounded like they were opening my door.

“Hah, who the hell?” Pekiku, who immediately turned to the source of the voice.

I round my eyes.

“Hah? Why are you here?” I was scared, half dead.

I looked at Morgan, who was already on my doorstep.

“Brakk..”.

Morgan closed my room door again. I'm getting scared of him.

“Eh, do not macem-macem deh yes!” Threatened cynical.

As usual, Morgan came up with his cool, shitty style. I hate her attitude that can't be sweet with anyone, including if she's dealing with me.

He stood before me, sitting on the lip of the bed. The atmosphere is very awkward. Morgan just looked at me, not budging at all.

My mind was already floating around, worried that Morgan was doing something I didn't like.

He suddenly sat down next to me, making me feel a bit awkward. He seemed to sit with great doubt. No no, my heart condition is now, like what?

It was like running a 5-km marathon nonstop.

I looked to the right, throwing my eyes away from him. Morgan wasn't looking at me at all. He just looked in front of him.

I played my finger, feeling very anxious, worried about what he was going to do. I wasn't quite ready to do that scene again with him.

Some time passed. But he still did not start the conversation. I felt like he was ignoring me.

Though I have been trying to gather my courage for unexpected things that maybe he will do to me later.

Coulda.

I've been wasting my dirty thoughts ever since.

“Ekhm..

After a while, I finally heard Deheman's voice from him. I looked towards him. Apparently, he tried to prepare something until it took a long pause.

He took a long breath.

“Grebb..

He suddenly grabbed my hand, making me surprised instead of playing. We both faced each other.

“Can I ask something?” ask Morgan.

I nodded unconsciously. It looks like he is trying to strengthen himself. I wonder what he wants to ask.

“Can you do one thing?” tanyakanya.

I was getting curious, but had to be quiet, for a while.

“You can refuse, if you feel objection,” he said.

What would Morgan ask me? I don't understand my current state of feeling. What the hell is going on? I don't know myself.

The atmosphere became even more awkward from the initial atmosphere. I'm out of words, but I haven't said anything since. I don't know what else he's gonna do. My feelings are not resisting, and my logic is pro with feelings. I don't hate him at all.

“You..”.

“You..”.

“Mau..”

What would he say?

I'd love to hit his head. Why did he suddenly stutter like this?

MORGAN

‘Aduh... why am I so cold hot like this, anyway? It's so hard talking!’ my mind was troubled by this idiotic attitude.

This ambiguous attitude appeared again. I haven't been like this since. When I expressed my feelings to Meygumi. It's been a long time. It was about 10 years ago.

‘Ungkapin anyway! He also does not necessarily accept, my inner’ feels annoyed with my feelings.

“You... want...” I directly reached into my pants pocket to take out some candy, then thrust it at Ara.

“Candy?”

Ara's face immediately turned red. His aura instantly turned sinister. It seems, he was very angry with me. Why should I offer her candy? What is this nonsense?! I came here to express my feelings for her. But the truth is, I was just playing with her feelings.

“Gue hate same loe!” He shouted loudly, then ran away towards the door of his room, unlocked it and rushed outside the room.

I can't do anything about it. I can't help feeling this upset about myself. I can't express my feelings for her.

But if observed, why does he seem to be mad at me? I told him to turn it down if he didn't want to. Not to get angry and leave me, is it?

I don't understand what women think. What, am I wrong? What was he waiting for, so it made me feel so wrong like this?

***

ARASHAS

‘How much did he say to me!’ my mind constantly evaporates my emotions.

For some reason, his words made me feel very upset. That's not what I expected! That's not what I want to hear.

I walked quickly to the living room.

“Grebb..

Someone held my hand. I see, it was Morgan who was holding me back.

“Ish, take me!” My jerk was trying to get my hand out of his grip.

“Eh, why?” asked my brother suddenly, who was already waiting for us in the living room.