Married A Blind Heir
Chapters. 55 Is selfish

Barrel entered his room, he picked up a book that he deliberately kept between the folds of clothes. It was like an agenda book with a black leather cover. The woman's trembling hand rubbed the book she was staring at. When was the last time he touched the book? The barracks have forgotten exactly.

"Did they see this book behind me?" muttered Laras while walking to sit on the side of the bed. His gaze was never lost on the book that was still closed in his hand.

One of the clear water hatch just fell down as his hand slowly opened the leather cover that covered it. A simple wedding photo of himself and Ervin is attached to the first sheet.

...A historic day that led me to a door without knowing what I would face afterwards. Welcome to my new life....

That's what's written under a simple piece of wedding photos. There was no smile from Ervin's face, even Laras still felt how cold Ervin was on that day.

Slowly Open the second sheet, where the stack of files becomes the next photo. Laras gave a small smile as a piece of the photo of Dedrik he had taken secretly took part in the second sheet.

...He was the most annoying guy after Master. More cruel than a lecturer and too rigid than a dry canoebo. ...

An image of a pouting emoji accompanied behind the writing. Reading it, made Laras as if he could again feel annoyed and tired at that time. Learning new things with strangers must be pursued with time. That was exhausting.

"How are you now? I hope you're okay" Laras murmured as he stroked a picture of a middle-aged man he once thought was like his own father.

Likewise with the next sheets, it all contains some photos of memories along with writing that describes the condition of the time. The book was also closed with a photo USG of his two children while still in the womb.

...Welcome to my baby. You are my gems and the source of my strength....

Yes, according to the ending of the story in the book, Laras thought his story and Ervin would only end up on the last sheet with a gift of two twins in his life. However, after a long time had passed, now he would have to be forced to accept, if the story had not been finished. He was only given a break for a while.

"Did I miss him? He didn't even change at all after five years ago" Laras murmured.

"Why should there be this feeling when he knows that he already knows everything about Nevan and Nessa?" Laras held his chest which still felt pain.

"Why should you feel happy and relieved?" muttered Laras again.

The woman was confused by her own feelings. Obviously, the anger and hurt were still in his heart, but why should there be such a sense of joy and relief tucked inside? Laras had not been able to solve all that, he was still struggling with the confusion of his own heart.

...❤‍🩹...

Ervin's presence really made Laras' life different, as did Nevan and Nessa. Ervin always takes over the task of dropping off the twins and picking them up to school.

It had been half a day now that they both sulked at Laras and went on strike because Laras continued to reject their request. Laras was made dizzy by the actions of his two children, as well as Ervin. The man had tried to seduce the two children and tried to give understanding to Laras' decision, but they were completely unwilling to understand.

"What are you doing with my kids? Why is it that since I met you all my life has always been a mess? Now my children who have always been kind and never fought back are even hostile to me!"

Barrel exhales tiredly with a fallen body sitting on the sofa. It was past lunchtime, while her son refused to eat. Laras was worried, his mood was chaotic. He could no longer bear to endure all the chaos he thought was caused by Ervin's presence.

"Whether you leave this house sooner, I know this is all just your trick. Haven't you ruined me enough all this time? I'm tired, Vin," Laras lamented as he cupped his face with both hands. Sobs began to sound along with trembling shoulders.

Ervin widened his eyes, he was planning all this. Stranded in a sting? Where could all of that have happened to him. That is all a trick from him and the real secretary has not returned to Indonesia.

"I'm sorry." Ervin mumbled softly. Slowly he stepped foot to approach Laras and squatted right in front of the woman.

"At first I just wanted to see you and explain everything. I also want to be closer to my children. But, it seems I was wrong, I was wrong in my behavior until I didn't realize I was hurting you again."

Ervin bow his head in, he's really sorry now. Seeing the crying Laras in front of him made his heart also hurt. His fault is suddenly present in the life of Laras and his two children. But he also couldn't help but miss the opportunity.

The crying broke. Tired of controlling himself to look okay in front of Ervin, now he can no longer do. He hated that guy, really. Seeing Ervin's presence was like a punishment for him. However, there is also a sense of happiness when seeing children who seem to laugh happily and can feel the affection of a father.

"Hit me, Ras. Punish me as you please, I do deserve it .. But after that, please give me a chance to fix everything."

Ervin pleaded with all his heart. He can accept anything as long as he does not tell him to go away from Laras and his children. The man will no longer be able to live like all three. Let him be selfish about this one. Ervin no longer wants to lose his family.

"What do you want, I do to make up for all my mistakes, hem? I'll do it all" Ervin said again, staring at Laras with reddened eyes.

Laras shook his head slowly, his cries still heard. Really, he himself was confused at his heart, what else to give a decision. Baras has no idea what he really wants.

"I'm tired." The barrel immediately got up and walked quickly towards the stairs. However, as soon as possible, Ervin followed him and hugged the frail body. Trying to give warmth while showing sincerity in a woman who is filled with anger.

"If you are tired, then rest. I won't bother you until you calm down .. I'll wait until you're ready to talk to me again. Children let be my business, I will give understanding to them," said Ervin Iirih. The man whispered right in front of Laras' ear, until for a moment the woman bristled. However, Laras managed to control his body and again released Ervin's embrace even without a word being said. He immediately went up the stairs without looking at Ervin at all.

"I'm sorry, Ras," murmured Ervin again. His gaze was never separated from the small back of Laras who continued to move away from him until it was lost swallowed by the ladder divider.