NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
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Farah came to the office with a raging mind at Raka's request this morning.

He did not expect that the brave Raka asked for his day even though it was only one day but it felt like he was heavy to give.

"Why is he still nice when I always treat him sniffle?" It is not that Farah does not realize that her behavior so far is far from friendly and even appreciates her feelings very thin.

"Indeed, his attitude was like that always treat good so that people even misrepresented his kindness," the good attitude of Raka is what made Farah in the past like the man to always chase even always looking for opportunities to visit the residence of Raka's parents.

But because of frequent rejection Farah turned to bury the feeling until now she was just ordinary even impressed hate.

"But should I give him a chance even one day or just ignore it?" Farah's dilemma at Raka's request.

It felt like he was too heavy to spend all day with Raka.

"Have I been so outrageous all this time? But her treatment all this time knocked a little on my heart," who did not melt was always given attention every day even though it was never appreciated but Raka never gave up on melting the hardness of the girl's heart.

"She was actually very good just her attitude that used to make me lose respect for her," Farah does admit that Raka is such a good guy even appreciates a partner but it is the love of adolescence that erodes and closes her eyes about Raka's kindness.

"If I let go of him and gave the boss a chance would I be treated as well as he treated me?"Farah is increasingly in a dilemma about the decision to be taken because this is not a small decision and needs careful consideration.

He was only afraid that if he let go of Raka and gave the opportunity to others not necessarily he would get good treatment from the person he was from that opportunity when the good was clear in plain sight.

Though if Farah wants to, the girl does not need to do anything just enough to open her heart and give a chance to Raka to prove her seriousness over their marriage.

But apparently the girl prefers to live a complicated life and socialize again with new people.

Though if he wants then the relationship will quickly close and develop further especially they have known for a long time and know the nature of each.

"Oh," Farah holding her stomach suddenly feels pain and this has often happened after she had an examination but until now has not been informed that she has gotten a kidney donor or not?.

The girl very much hoped that the sight could quickly and now be carried out operation before her family knew and would definitely make everyone's life let alone this great secret that she had hidden herself.

"Why it hurts so much" Farah held her waist and felt tight to the chest.

"Until when do I have to endure all this, it feels really bad," wanted it to feel like Farah shared her pain with her parents but she didn't want to make her parents anxious about her situation.

Farah took the medicine in the bag she always carried with her wherever the doctor gave her some time ago.

After taking the medicine the taste slowly subsided and Farah was able to breathe a sigh of relief.

After the office, Farah immediately moved from her desk because she did not want her boss out of her room and took her home together.

Farah could not because she had to go to the hospital to check on her health condition.

In the hospital.

" How's my condition dock?" Farah hopefully anxiously waited about her current condition.

What's he supposed to do? Keep it secret or tell your family.

"Bu Farah's kidney condition is getting worse and must immediately get a donor so as not to affect other organs," doctors explained how Farah's condition is now not okay.

Farah was stunned to hear that her condition had actually decreased even though she was always taking the drugs given by the doctor.

The best path is surgery.

"Then, is there no donor dock?" Farah wished there was a donor for her.

"Until now there has not been and I recommend telling the family to be able to help and donors can immediately," because Farah said that her family had not been informed so the doctor suggested that more people help.

The more that helps then the chance to get more.

"My parents don't know doc yet" whether Farah should keep her mouth shut or talk about finding a solution together.

'Do I have to tell my mom and dad about my illness?'

Finish check Farah say goodbye and he immediately went home even ignoring hp who had since rang a sign there was an incoming call.

Arriving at Farah's apartment straight into the room and lucky Raka has not returned home.

"I better take a shower first," Farah could breathe a sigh of relief from not having to cross paths with Raka when she reached the apartment.

The girl still does not want to always meet with Raka even though they live on the same roof just different room room only.

After the bath Farah read again the paper given by the doctor about his disease that there is no improvement at all there is only one way that is to do surgery.

"If I tell papa and Mama, I'm afraid they'll be sad," if Farah tells the parents about her illness, then the conversation will not be as simple as it is considered likely to propagate questioning about the marriage of his son who has almost entered the first year.

Farah was also afraid that her parents would ask her something that made her confused in answering so she chose to save her own and finish her own without involving anyone.

"About the request whether I should approve or refuse but if I refuse my sin is too much because it is always indifferent to the husband," Farah realized that her attitude so far was not a reflection of being a good wife even very far from the word good.

"Do I have to continue with what already exists or start with something else?" this is also a consideration for Farah because after meeting with her sister she thought a little about the fate of her marriage in the future.

He did acknowledge Raka's kindness all this time even since they were children and it was a little consideration for her to maintain this marriage but her heart did not face or consider if Raka was good just because of their parents amicable.

It was very difficult to open the eyes of the girl's heart and it seemed like she needed something until the door of her heart opened and saw the sincerity of her husband.

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