NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
Flashback (Farah who does not like Raka )

At Dean's mansion their family is seen again doing breakfast.

Severely eating in peace he did not even see his parents he watched them with wonder because it had been a few days lately not been a month, farah's attitude is more silent and impressed not much to say let alone discuss about raka.

With this silence Farah raises a question mark on the heads of her parents.

Unlike usual, Farah was quiet and no longer insulted her sister and I don't know what caused it.

"Nobody's okay, right? "

I asked my mom because she was far from what she always was.

"Sister Why did you? Brother feels still as usual and sister is still the beautiful daughter of mama,"

Reply badly because he felt he was fine and there was no change in him, indeed he chose a lot of silence rather than talk as much as usual.

"So why have you been quiet so much lately and you're worried that you're hiding something,"

Vya does not want if her child turns quiet as it is now and she prefers a nosy child and always excited no matter what the condition.

"Mama don't think too much, Brother is fine maybe because of the effects of many more tasks so brother is not in the mood to do anything,"

Farah had not dared to be honest with her parents because she felt this problem was not big and could still be overcome on her own. And also he did not want his mother to feel guilty because from the beginning his mother was the one who told him in advance if he wanted to be married to Raka, but in reality the man did not like him at all.

If she was honest, her mother would be sad.

"Mama hope so too and sister never save anything from mama, if you need a friend story Mama is ready to listen,"

Farah nodded in understanding and continued her breakfast.

'forgive your sister just don't want to make you feel guilty and think about problems that are not really important. Let brother just endure this and also Brother has sincerely released people who never liked us'.

Finished breakfast Farah and Sarah how many meters left for school using the driver as usual.

At Dean's.

"Kok I feel Farah's changed lately and she's like more quiet than usual,"

Now pairs of young husband and wife who still look young are sitting on the balcony of their room even though their room is located at the corner but has a balcony with a very beautiful view.

Dean today did choose to comfort himself and I don't know what that's why.

"I also feel the same way ma and I feel our daughter must have experienced something heavy but she does not want to share with us, she said, I'm afraid that if he takes too long to endure it alone it will interfere with either physical or mental health,"

Worrying about a papa is agitated by the changes of his daughter and it is very uncomfortable for him.

As parents they must know the change of their children even though the slightest. And for the severe conditions the change is very obvious and it worries them but they won't stay still, they'll find out why the child is changing so drastically.

"Is this related to Raka? How come I suddenly thought in that direction yeah and somehow I feel the thing that made the people change is related to Raka,"

Guess Vya, as a mother I think she said it that way and her conjecture is getting stronger with her son's current changes.

All this time his son was happy-happy even every breakfast or dinner Farah always talked about Raka and for one month his son never discussed again and it further strengthened his conjecture.

"We cannot just shoot and we must investigate first so that the fall does not become slander,"

Dean also felt the same way but he also had to investigate first because if he was the origin of the accusation then it also resulted in a good relationship that he had a long time with Arka.

Actually this is what she is afraid their relationship will be shaken if there is a one-sided love between their children and her fear is really happening now because only Farah likes Raka while the men it was even indifferent to his son.

"Yes we have to investigate first, I also do not want our good relationship to be tenuous because of our child's unrequited romance problems,"

Vya agrees and follows her husband's advice to investigate the origin of why her son could turn this drastic.

"Why not go to work? The office is not a holiday why to relax,"

She also wondered why her husband did not go to the office and instead relaxed at home. Did he forget that Arka had not entered the office and he did not enter. During yes, both people have the highest position in the office even comfort themselves while the subordinates still continue to work.

"Again lazy and also bored there is no Arka in the office but that is not the reason because there is no work that is too important for today and also no meeting so I prefer just stay home and accompany my beautiful wife,"

Vya blushed to hear the praise of Dean, even though they have been married a dozen years but the chatter is still able to make him misbehave.

The part that was feeling anxious with his wife pinched him then pulled into his arms.

"When I am getting older and you still seem easy, I sometimes wonder if you will remain faithful to accompany your older wife, "

Not without reason he said that, at the age of Dian who just want to get into the head of four is good looks man is not at all faded even the good looks he has can still attract young women out there inversely proportional to his self it's getting older let alone the age difference is 5 years older than Dean.

"What are you saying? Don't say anything that will hurt you and also do you think I'm a seductive man with young leaves out there. And if I'm like that I've been doing it for a long time. Why are you bringing that up again and I feel as long as we live this nearly twenty-year-old household I feel like you haven't fully believed in me and it makes me disappointed you doubted how I love you,"

After saying that Dean got up from his seat and left his wife because he was disappointed after quite a long time they lived together but his wife still doubted his loyalty.

He was upset why his wife liked to discuss things that would affect herself, if Dean wants him to be able to do that but he's not a guy who likes to play out there and hurt women who are already struggling to give birth to his offspring.

He went to the garage and drove his car out of the house because he was upset by what his wife had just said. And Dean's departure was seen by his wife from the balcony with teary eyes.

"I'm sorry, I'm just scared and my confidence is weak lately I don't know why, either,"

Vya let her husband go first to make room for her husband to calm down. After her husband comes home later she will apologize and correct the mistake earlier.

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At Farah's school the girl had just come after delivering Sarah to her school which was not far from there. The line was casually walking towards his class and it must have passed through the parking lot. There he sees a rich man still standing near his car but he ignores not saying hello as usual even writing it does not.

"It's a lot better than saying hello but being ignored and answered soberly,"

The girl muttered her steps towards the classroom that was on the second floor.

Farah no longer cared about the remnants of her feelings for Raka and she preferred to wipe the taste out until it ran out before she opened her heart again for a new one.

He will not dissolve too long in his grief just for the person who never appreciates his feelings. Farah also would not close her heart just because of the one person who had hurt her.

"It feels a lot of relief and my weight feels much lighter because the burden borne so far has slowly been off my shoulders,"

Farah sat on her stool and took out the first textbook. Not long after that the first lesson had sounded and not long ago the teacher entered and was ready to start the lesson this morning.

A few hours later the break came.

"Aren't you joining Raka?"

Ask my dear friend Farah because every break the girl must have joined Raka but this time she chose to sit away from Raka even considered there was no existence of Raka in the cafeteria.

"You know I like that they've been around for a long time and I don't feel appreciated for that long so a while ago I'd rather let go of that feeling than be shackled for too long with pain the endless,"

Explain, because this friend knew how Farah chased after Raka whenever there was a chance and now ignored Raka who was in the same cafeteria as them.

So naturally he was astonished and now he knew what reason Farah did not consider Raka now even though he was real in front of them.

"Yes, it should be so and as a friend I do not want you hurt any further what else a person like Raka even though I admit the charm he a lot of students at school who are crazy about what there are but I'm not one of them,"

Indeed, this voice friend is only limited to admiring Raka from a distance and there is no show of genuineness like other students even openly showing his joy to Raka.

He also did not like Raka just to be amazed by the good looks Raka has but pounding to see Raka was never felt at all.

"Gue was stupid for too long and only this time did I realize my struggle was futile and hopefully it's not too late for me to throw away the taste that had been making me stupid,"

There was a bit of regret in Farah's heart because she was too stupid to approach a man who could have never thought she existed. If only their parents did not know each other maybe Farah's position was the same as the students in this school.

Existing but invisible.

"I hope you do not experience the same thing a second time and I also hope you soon find a man who really likes you and makes you happy so you forget that in the past you never felt the deepest pain,"

The sincere prayer of Farah's friend because as a friend he actually did not have the heart to see Farah chasing Raka segitunya, he lets maybe one day Raka can open her heart and reciprocate Farah's feelings but in fact not an opportunity to get but heartache again and again.

"Actually all this time I have not had the heart to see you ignored so but I always pray that this heart is open a little for loh but in fact he never saw sincerity loh,"

Farah replied with a smile because what her best friend said was true that her sincerity and struggle all this time meant nothing to Raka and instead she was like a stupid woman chasing a man who did not liked it a bit.

"Thank you, my understanding friend, I should have been aware from the beginning and not enjoy the pain I feel every day. And now I realize fighting alone is not good,"

Indeed Farah had decided that Raka could no longer occupy the highest position in her heart.

"But if one day he turns to like you? Will you accept him and open your heart again for him?"

It could be that the thing that Farah's best friend said happened and he was just afraid that Farah would waver and be lulled to give a chance and for Raka to enter his heart again but it also did not rule out the possibility if Raka won't hurt him again in a different way.

"Gue guarantee it will not happen even if in the future he turns to like me, I only give one chance to the same person and there is no second chance so in the future however he fights I will not glance at the past anymore let alone get stuck in it,"

Farah's determination was already unanimous if she had no such thing as glancing back, his life is not like a vehicle that has a rearview mirror but he also uses principles like rearview mirror glancing back so as not to make the same mistakes in the future so quite once he is stuck on mistakes that will hurt themselves.

"This is just my best friend who does not want to glance back let alone to act stupid like you yesterday who even likes people who do not like you, that's a ridiculous act I've seen during my time as a best friend and I hope you don't repeat that in the future,"

If it happens, he will label Farah the most stupid woman because she wants to be stuck in the past who ever incised a wound so imprinted in her heart.

There are still many men on this earth including in this school so do not want to be fooled by party reviews and survive hurt just because of a word maybe one day he will like us. Never do that stupid thing.

"Yes enough once I do something stupid and it will not be repeated in the future, there are still many men who are much better than him and I don't need the good looks of someone important he sincerely likes me that's enough for me,"

Farah no longer remembered liking someone just from her good looks alone because it would hurt herself as had happened between her and Raka.

Indeed at first he liked Raka because of the good looks that the man had but as time went on the sense of it actually appeared even reigning for a long time in his heart.

Till.

"Sister Farah why don't you join us?"

You came from where Riska the beautiful girl was already standing on the severe side while holding a colored drink.

Then Riska took her empty seat next to Farah and looked at the beautiful girl she returned her smile.

"No matter what deck brother again want to eat with brother's best friend, if Riris wants to join the brother,"

Invite Farah, she remains kind to Riska because she has nothing to do with the heartache felt to Raka. Because Riska is not wrong at all.

"Is it okay, brother Riris joined with brother Riris bothered again? "

Riska is sad because this is the first time she joined sit with friends Farah usually Farah who joined the table where there is Raka, Rasya and also Rika friend Riska.

So I kind of felt like that if I joined Farah and her best friend.

'you are not wrong so Brother will feel evil if you stay away from you because of Raka bang that hurt brother and you will remain sister brother as well as Sarah'

"It's okay to relax if this brother's best friend does not bite at all so it's safe,"

Canda Farah for seeing the unpleasant face displayed by Riska and she understood because if Riska this is Raka's sister.

Farah's friendship with him has been long enough starting from the 7th grade until now so anything related to him must be his best friend who knows including Riska Raka's sister.

"It's a pleasure Brother does not matter if Riris joins us and also actually said Farah Kak did not bite,"

Riska smiled at Farah's best friend's reply and she didn't feel too awkward like that.

They chatted casually but none of them discussed sports because of what Farah's best friend also did not discuss the man, the man who had hurt Farah.

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After returning home from school, Rasya was waiting for Riska in the parking lot with Raka. The man was planning to visit Grandpa Rio again. So he went with Raka and Riska.

"Sorry Abang did not pick up to Riris' class earlier and this is because Raka who pulled the brother directly to the parking lot,"

Usually Rasya always take and pick Riska to his class.

And he did not do it because Raka immediately pulled him towards the parking lot when he was about to go to Riska class.

"No matter how much Riris understands that singles like to be envious,"

Reply Riska insinuates her brother who until now is still single even though he likes to roar if he has a girl who is liked but until now there is no sign of wanting to show who the less fortunate girl is, according Riska.

"Lah bocil just had a girlfriend already songong ntar left crying in the corner,"

Hearing Raka's words, Riska turned to look at Rasya and stared with a gaze waiting for a response from the handsome man.

As if knowing what Riska and Rasya's gaze meant said.

"Don't listen to this single one's intentions because he is just jealous and his form is sad once because he only says he likes a girl but in fact it's all a lie and brother is unlikely to hurt Riris because to get it is so difficult when yes Brother wasted easily,"

It was true what Rasya said to get Riska just so easily and had to go through the blessing of his parents that must be obtained so it was impossible for him to hurt let alone waste what he might if he let go, not necessarily he'll get a girl as good as Riska.

Riska was so flattered to hear Rasya's words and without her noticing Riska walked closer towards Rasya.

"Eh uh what do you want? don't stick to a snake feather,"

Raka pulls Riska's bag and opens the car door and pushes Riska into the car and is followed by Rasya, who sits in the seat next to the steering wheel.

"Devil bang ya gini, lo narik me like a monkey boy,"

Annoyed Riska is pulled like someone wants to throw garbage.

His pride in front of Rasya dropped a little because it was treated like that by Raka.

"Not evil but lazy to see people who may soon be bruising,"

Lazy Raka while driving her car left the school yard to the hospital where Rio's grandfather is still being treated.

Rasya is deliberately forbidden by Raka to bring his motorcycle so that the three of them can one car to the hospital.

The man agreed that as long as he was with Riska he did not refuse at all, instead he was happy to be alone ah not two but three but could chat with Riska.

Not long after the car was a little drive up in the direction of the hospital parking lot.

They went out and walked together towards Rio's grandfather's outpatient room.

"Assalamu'alaikum,"

Greetings compact the three of them as they just opened the door and went inside there. In turn they greet everyone who is there.

There are also ovario and Om there so complete both feet and Riska's grandmother is there.

It was the first time they met the parents of Arka and it made her feel awkward because there was a meeting in unexpected circumstances.

"So this is a man who can make a pretty granddaughter opa fall in love?"

Said Dio opa when Rasya greeted him and gently rubbed Rasya's shoulder.

He was quite amazed and saluted with his clever grandson looking for a handsome couple like Rasya.

"Opa don't do that ah Riris is so embarrassed,"

The girl seemed to blush as the man she liked was praised so vividly by Dio's opa.

"Greetings know me Rasya Raka's best friend,"

Courtesy of Rasya to opa Dio.

"Wah Dek turns out he does not recognize you as his girlfriend and instead claims to be a friend of bang Raka,"

Riska's face is upset why Rasya also introduces herself as Raka's best friend even though it is true but she also wants if Rasya recognizes herself as her boyfriend but even sucks like this.

"Udah ah Riris just mengambek and want to be the same grandfather Rio aja,"

Riska prefers to sit on the available chair beside the bed where Grandpa Rio lay and then hold the hand that has begun to feel warm.

"If they don't admit Riris there's still a grandfather who's always there for Riris so there's no need to be sad,"

Entertain Grandpa Rio weakly as his strength has not been so recovered.

Riska developed her smile then spread her head over Grandpa Rio's palm.

"Grandfather is always understanding like them,"

Riska deliberately raised her voice to be heard by all of them and realized that she was upset.

All those who heard Riska's words could only smile and be anxious as the youngest granddaughter of Dio's opa and Oma Dea's.

Riska's position is the most versatile, Arka the last child is the same as Riska as the youngest child as well as the youngest grandson.

It was only natural that he was still spoiled because they were all spoiling the girl.

"Greetings to the cake, I am Rasya,"

Rasya also approached Big Brother Rio and regretted it. Rasya's position was standing next to Riska but the girl ignored the existence of the handsome man. He was still upset about not being recognized in front of Dio's opa.

"You are very handsome and if you choose a partner later, that woman will be the luckiest woman to have my partner handsome you,"

Grandpa Rio purposely said so to tease his granddaughter it feels less afdol if only opadio ya tease Riska. The line is more giving because Rio's grandfather had said that when it was clear that he was Rasya's partner now.

"Prights on all evil,"

After saying that word should get up from her seat and leave Big Brother Rio's room, can still Riska hear them all laughing as it managed to upset her.

Inside Grandpa Rio's room.

"Hopefully understand Rasya because Riska is still small and always spoiled by us all so her nature still likes childish,"

Said Grandfather Rio after Riska was not seen anymore.

"It's okay my cake is also understood because Riris is the youngest child so it's natural if she is spoiled or still likes to sulk,"

Rasya is not surprised if the nature of Riska like that because her youngest siblings at home are also often like Riska sometimes very spoiled sometimes mengambek with simple things.

"But sometimes he is also like an adult if again advising grandfather but more of his childish nature,"

Grandpa Rio still remembered when Riska was staying at his house not there to cook Big Brother Rio's favorite food but because Rio's legs still feel full he refused and said later he would eat but from situ spoke at length as if he was advising his lazy son to eat.

In the hospital hallway.

"They're on all evil,"

Riska walks to the hospital park.

Sitting in the hospital garden while continuing to mutter, no matter what is said.

Until someone came and sat down next to him.

"Why is that sad?"

He immediately sat down and put his arm around Riska's shoulder.

The girl immediately put her head on her shoulder and closed her eyes.

"No, what's just getting bored in grandpa's room again a lot of people,"

Reply Riska did not forget to hold the arm that was made as a backrest.

Riska leaned back comfortably without realizing that there was already Rasya standing behind her while clenching his hands tightly to display a strained vein.

Just after Riska came out, the man followed and intended to calm the girl but what he got.

A stifling sight of the chest.

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