NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
Flashback 5 (the first reason why Farah likes Raka )

POV Raka's.

Feelings come by themselves without being asked without being invited.

But if the feeling is only to destroy or damage a relationship that has been established for a long time, whether the feeling should remain in the defense.

Having a sense in someone is everyone's right and not being able to choose to whom this heart will anchor.

I realized the feeling I had would hurt one person but if I accepted him then I hurt myself and him too

For accepting him for not wanting to be hurt, but I sacrifice my own feelings.

I like her sister but her sister likes me.

If I had my feelings reciprocated to her sister whether the relationship between the two sisters would have remained the same as it used to be when she knew her brother was hurting here or she would have let me go for her brother.

But I will not accept that, not that I am selfish just the feeling of not being forced on someone.

If he relents then I better go and leave all the feelings that once were and look for another port.

It's not that I don't think about her feelings, it's just that I have feelings and want to fight for them.

If the one who wants to give up on others even though it's my own sister, I can't.

If I wanted to, it would hurt each other and I wouldn't want that to happen.

I will choose to go and find a heart that truly accepts me for who I am and does not give me to others for the sake of mutual happiness.

Where there is giving up the people we love will get happiness.

I still remember my conversation with Dean when I came into his room that afternoon.

"Eh prospective daughter-in-law om come, why miss the same candidate-in-law,"

Welcome Dean when I was invited in and I sat in the front seat of Dean who was only limited to his work desk.

"Eh, has it been inaugurated?"

My joke when I landed my ass in that soft chair.

I looked at this handsome face that was sitting in front of me carefully.

It is only fitting that his son is beautiful and succeeds in making me fascinated in the beauty that he has only the person he is betrothed to you is not the person I want.

That's what I'm dealing with right now.

He was married to his brother while I liked his sister.

Is this fair but I feel I'm innocent here because I can't be forced on who will dock.

"You want to speed up? Or just impatient?,"

Temptation of Dean to me.

I just put on a confused smile to answer what.

I'm here to find a friend to talk to instead of in the daddy room discussing things that piss me off.

Daddy I am so very yes.

"It doesn't look like it, um,"

My answer was ambiguous so that I could see the puzzled look on the handsome face that was about to enter the age of five heads.

Yeah, I estimate daddy's age and Dean's already going in head five.

But their facial lines have not shown such age.

Still young in middle age.

I want to be like those who are young.

"Why not be? Om understand if you're still in school but don't have to rush too,"

Ah, this is not what I mean.

I mean, I'm not the same Farah because I like Sarah, her sister.

Is it time for me to tell a story or tell you if what I like is Sarah not Farah.

If I say now whether it is good or if Dean could be the same about Vya can slowly give understanding to Farah if she must realize if the feelings cannot be forced.

If the feelings I made Sarah weren't for her.

Yes, maybe I should be frank so that my feelings can be calm jiga and not always in terror by being paired with Farah.

"It's not like that but I already have a woman I like,"

I honestly have come to the conclusion that I will tell or explain if I cannot accept Farah as my partner.

Even though I know, I am not necessarily a match with Sarah but for now my heart already has Sarah without the girl knowing.

"You mean you have a girl you like? Who's the lucky girl or Farah there's less than this om kid?"

Reading Dean's surprise, I said that I already have a girl I like.

But instead of being honest it is better than being silent as if giving way as if I were receiving all of this.

It would look so cruel if I were him and without a word of rejection.

I don't want to be impressed with hope.

Ntar I was thought to be a false hope giver again like the word PHP trend.

"Who's the girl? Is she more everything than this angel om?"

I haven't been able to answer and Dean's even more curious.

I'm like a suspect who's just being interrogated.

I scratched my head that wasn't scratching.

"Jawab Ka, don't scratch my head like this,"

Hah, what Dean said I'm master! Just the real one.

Let me not see the shape of the lice alone I never

It's really magical in the mind of my future-in-law.

Indeed, if people scratch their heads it's all what? Not even times.

"If I tell you, I hope you don't be surprised or yelled,"

I have to warn you so that there is no sound of Dean screaming that will make me shocked.

"Yes, I promise I won't scream,"

But I'm not sure, but it's better I tell you now.

"Just tell me who the girl is and om wants to see later.

Is he better than the son om,"

Well I haven't talked even in pieces again.

"The girl is also the son of om but the man is not Farah,"

I said quickly so as not to be pushed again.

Om Dean this if it is in kepo mode, it is like a mother-mak who shop at the vegetable maker ask for a discount.

"You mean, you like Sarah,"

Shouted Dean, his voice filled the entire room.

Though I've said don't be surprised and yell eh instead yell too.

I'm not clearly saying not to scream.

Good thing would be papa-in-law if not heh already I jitak also this om-om.

"Yes, um,"

I reply by still holding my chest in shock at the scream incident just now.

As long as I know Dean this is the first time I've heard Dean yell at the woodsmen.

There are yes people like Dean and if God allows it will be papa-in-law again.

"You know if you like Sarah, Farah will get hurt.

Can't try to accept Farah because she already likes you so much Raka,"

I was stunned on the spot.

What does it mean to say that Dean.

I was told to like and accept people who were not in my heart.

I do not want to but some time after being told will be in a match with Farah I have tried but the heart can not be forced.

Once again one's heart cannot be forced to like one cannot enter our heart.

I didn't answer Dean's words.

Dean's request is very difficult for me to do or until anytime I won't be able to do.

Not unwilling to try it just tried my heart still refused.

So it's not my fault either.

When I think there's nothing else to talk about, I say I'll just go home instead of discussing or forcing things out of place.

I deserve to fight for my own happiness.

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"You know if Farah likes Raka that way,"

Vya begins to tell the true story.

"Yes, I know you've always wanted to match them all,"

Yes, Khira still remembers the incident even though it has passed a dozen years ago.

But the wishes of his best friend are still as before.

"Yes, I know, and you also know that what Raka likes is Sarah,"

Vya added again to tell from Dean's story.

She likes Sarah.

"Yes I know, the brother who knows himself,"

Khira was not surprised anymore about Vya's words.

He knew from the beginning that what Raka liked was Sarah.

As a parent Khira only wants the best for her child.

Doesn't want to force her child to accept people she doesn't like.

Getting Raka to accept Farah is like plunging her son into the abyss of misery as well as the inner pressure of everyday life.

"So what do I have to do now? I can't see one of my kids getting hurt,"

Vya is frustrated to think of the best solution to a problem that started a dozen years ago and is now reaping results.

Not a good result but a dizzying result.

Results that do not match the expectations or do not match the expected.

The result that makes the head hurt seven circumference.

Huh why is it like this.

Kan means to want to restore a good soul mate for his son but instead find a hollow road full of puddles of water that if not careful when passing can cause us to fall in there.

Though that desire will be realized also even if not with Farah.

But if Raka is with Sarah there will be a civil war.

But hopefully if that time comes Farah can accept if he is not created for Raka.

No soul mate knows who will be anchored and whose heart will be linked.

"Don't you, I'm also dizzy.

As a parent, I felt what it was like to be you.

Both of your children who can not defend one of them.

If one is in bela then the other one will feel in the child threshing.

But here I also can not force Raka to accept Farah is not, as a parent I also want my child to be happy.

So I can't do much and I can only pray that when that time comes I can only hope that Farah will be able to accept everything with a chest of airs,"

Obviously Khira who can not do much, since Raka said to like Sarah than Farah then at that time Khira can not do much because it can not tell Raka to change feelings.

The feeling of entitlement is common to every human being.

It cannot determine on whom the heart will anchor.

Can't manage if we want him to mate us.

Can't say I just want him when our soul mate line opens him.

So the matter of feeling is already an absolute decree.

If feelings can be changed and controlled then there is no such thing as heartache and resentment in the heart.

If feelings can be regulated then the hatred in the heart is not embedded until it becomes an endless grudge.

"I also know Ra, all this also started from me a long time ago.

I should have heard what you said first.

I'm the one who wants to match children since they're still in the womb.

I was impressed to force from the beginning when you have told me that our children's match problems do not need to interfere and now I feel a little sorry because of my previous words.

Now I'm the same Dean began to find distance so Farah does not often meet Raka one of them is looking for a tutor for Farah right you have known Farah likes to make the same learning reason Raka to meet that's why we are looking for a tutor so that Farah does not meet Raka too often.

Hopefully our plan will start to have results because I can only hope that this way Farah will slowly start to forget Raka and get a man who can accept her for who she is,"

Obviously Vya at length because he knew from the beginning the desire was not necessarily as expected and now proved with Raka who likes Sarah.

It is still fresh in Vya's memory when Khira first rejected the proposal and Vya kekeh also proved what was planted once now has harvested results.

Breathe deeply and then exhale slowly.

"Will Farah go to college where her grandmother is?"

After Vya, his parents now choose to spend the old days in his hometown with a soothing village atmosphere for the elderly.

Since Vya's last visit at that time Vya's parents chose to settle there compared to the city that will be a lot of air pollution.

So if Farah went to college there already automatically Farah will rarely meet Raka and will find a new man there, hopefully it can penetrate Farah's heart and be well received by the girl.

"But that's not how Vya separates them, this is just teenage love and not necessarily going to the end.

And don't forget the soul mate and the feeling has been controlling.

Who knows, later we have difficulty separating them eh know-taunya braid or have a taste between them.

So just follow the flow.

In the affairs of love, there is certainly a thing called heartbreak.

You forgot my story of how and what I was like.

So don't make this a burden,"

If in the affairs of love there is no such thing as heartbreak then they are not perfect they undergo the affairs of romance.

We will be faced with what is called heartbreak and sadness.

It is natural that when we find happiness we know how to maintain a relationship and assume the relationship is not a toy thing or think everything will be okay.

Relationships must have a name in the test as well as trials.

Experiments are various and it depends on us how to deal with and overcome a problem.

"Yes also yes Ra, I still remember very well how you and Reno had a relationship long enough but who married even Arka.

Ah your story should be my reference.

Having an old relationship does not mean that person is our soul mate.

Marriage will not last as long.

Sometimes the sadder thing is to keep people's soul mates the way you and Reno experience.

Eh you do not have the same intention as the ex-husband, right? Reno's son is close to Riska, too,"

Temptation Vya tried to calm the heart after hearing Khira's explanation that had a point.

Liking someone now doesn't mean it's going to last forever.

It could be just a pseudo feeling like the feelings of teenagers in general.

Reflecting on the story of Khira and Reno who are in a relationship long enough does not guarantee they will be together.

Even in the days and hours approaching Ijab qobul Reno did not come and was replaced by Arka.

Who would have thought Khira's surrogate husband at that time led Khira to her true happiness now.

Evidently their household is fine there is only a small problem as a sweetener.

"If I personally have no problem if Riska is close to Rafa ya Vya.

That's their right.

Messages bang Reno I do not matter, our past affairs are finished and you also know our relationship is getting better every day.

Don't just because bang Reno my future husband who didn't become until I forbid children to be close.

Not the concept.

As long as the kids like each other, I don't have a problem.

Right from the beginning I said if the problem of heart and soul mate is a patent can not be contested.

Messaging with Reno is not a bad thing.

She's from a good family,"

Khira doesn't matter her son's close at all whoever it is the same son of the former doesn't matter at all.

No one's heart knows who's going to dock.

Don't be the same ex-child as the enemy's child if it's their soul mate we can what.

Instead of making peace with the past it is better, long-time enemies will only add to liver disease.

Different if they fall in love with each other different religions then tolerance does not exist.

The love of different religions is not a mistake but do not leave something old for the sake of the new.

This means that the love of different religions is to leave the religion that we have long ago left only for new people.

It's not wrong, it's just that it's not all good.

If he could leave his Lord for us it would not be strange if one day he would do the same.

"So it's not a problem with Reno?"

Khira nodded her head in agreement.

Orders are also still fellow humans also there is nothing to be troubled.

"But yes also yes besananan same ex there is no harm as well,"

Connect Vya who justifies Khira's speech.

Former humans are also not invisible creatures.

"Are you also having the same old intentions?"

Timpal Khira raises her eyebrows teasing Vya.

Kan both have an ex and do not rule out the possibility if their children will be friends or save each other's taste.

"As you said earlier, being with your ex doesn't hurt,"

The two of them laughed together while discussing the same besanan.

What would happen if it really happened.

Whether at the meeting they will reminisce first before discussing the problems of their children or directly on the purpose of their gathering.

Ah sure will be a lot of nostalgia reminiscing about the once wonderful times of his time.

But hopefully not.

"For sure if the film will be titled 'my ex besan ku' ah strange yes the title but interesting as well,"

Talking about the past will never end.

The past is the longest time in between.

The past has many forms and paths.

There are also many stories in it either sweet or bitter.

The past is enough to be made a memory and also a reference in the future in order to change in a better direction.

There is no one who has no past and there is also someone who has no future.

So don't worry about something that hasn't happened yet.

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