NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
If I could

After chatting long enough with his mother Farah chose to sleep after the mother came out of his room let alone remember their chat earlier made Farah keep thinking because as a wife she was really useless at all even the existence of her own husband is unknown.

The girl's mind forbids before getting into sleep.

Somewhere else....

Since Raka's departure saying goodbye from her father-in-law's house, the man is still often in contention with her in-laws who are mainly male in-laws but no one knows because Raka wants to keep it all a secret let alone she has it the mission is of course if many people know then of course everything will not run smoothly.

The man who is still the husband of Farah was thinking carefully about the continuation of their relationship and about the fate of their marriage will be taken where.

Especially after returning from his father-in-law's house he had work abroad so that only a few days ago returned to his homeland and that he chose to stay in another apartment he owned not in the apartment the one they occupied while with Farah.

The next morning,,,,, the,,,,

"Well, why go to my shop? No work or need work?" Don't even know what time they've been to her sister-in-law's shop.

Rasya is indeed this morning quickly come to the store especially he will also deliver his beloved wife to college.

Moreover, the man who is not a virgin is always delivering his wife to the campus even though the distance of the store to the campus is not too far but he does not want to let his wife go alone let alone until seduced by students just there.

Even without being escorted like that, his beautiful wife could not turn away from him, let alone their relationship was not one or two months but had been several years but still he did not want to release Riska from the observation his eye.

"Gue was bored" they entered his friend's room and threw his body on the sofa and happened to be his sister had left for campus so he could freely tell stories with his best friend.

"When I'm tired of lo, too," Rasya took a drink for Raka and put it on the table and sat facing her best friend.

"Damn lo," said Raka drank the canned drink.

"So?" Rasya already knew if his best friend was separating the house with his wife and it was all Raka himself who delivered his wife.

But that is the reality of life because all desires and expectations do not always run smoothly or directly obtained without trial or test.

"Gue let him stay at his parents' house for a while, if there is no change maybe the green table will finish," not that Raka no longer loves Farah but she also wants to be happy and embrace with her loved ones.

Not that he does not want to keep the person he loves at this time but the struggle during this time Raka feels enough and he also wants to be happy even though he has to give up his love now but at least he can open a step and open your heart to another heart.

If I can be honest she would love to ask Farah to keep their marriage but if the attitude of the girl has not shown a change maybe parting is the only way although it will definitely be very painful but at least let go will make us immediately treat the wound and give the opportunity for others to fill the recesses of our heart.

"If in my view, Farah actually still loves you, it's just that your rejection at school makes him close himself and assume that his disappointment is more profound than his attitude now hurts you intentionally," only Rasya is the only witness to the story of Raka's domestic life until now and how her best friend loves someone but that person actually put hatred in her heart.

"Lo don't need to entertain me like that because I don't need the words entertainer now because whatever happens in the future I have sincerely accepted," it is not that Raka wants to resign to the fate of her household but she has a sense and limit of patience and sanity that needs to be maintained.

And if he wants to be selfish maybe he can have Farah but only his body is not his heart but Raka does not want to do that because he wants to have Farah's soul and his body is only meant for this man.

"Actually he just needs time and reassure himself that the husband he wasted all this time loves him so much now but you're also wrong for never expressing his feelings of belonging to him," indeed, there is a fault of Raka for never saying about the feelings he has for his wife instead he harbored himself without wanting to tell the truth.

"It's not that I don't want to tell the truth just that I don't want him to assume that I love him as a substitute or as an outlet because all he knows is that I once loved his sister and I didn't want to he's negative and thinks he's a substitute," during this time Raka also showed her sincerity towards his wife but it was so that the girl's heart that had not been open to him until the feeling placed so far blinded everything.

And also Raka did not not want to talk directly only she wanted Farah to know for herself because she wanted Farah to reply her own sincerity without hearing directly from those who supported Raka.

"But when are you going to hold all this?" Rasya knows how to hold back the feelings we have towards the girl we love, of course very stifling chest let alone knowing the girl is close to another man.

"Wait for the right time and if I'll never say it let me feel this I calm myself because forcing the will is definitely not good, end," but Raka will not give up until here alone because for him they are quite once in a lifetime due to having a wife enough Farah a.

If fate had said something else and separated the two of them it might have been better to choose alone rather than marry who would only make her feel like walking on coals.