NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
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"Assalamu'alaikum," Riska came home from campus and headed straight for the store.

Rasya did not pick him up earlier because the man visited one of his shop branches that coincided with his wife's hour home so he could not pick up and also the distance of campus and shops was also close to reach with a foot trip.

"Wa'alaikumsalam, I'm sorry dear brother had a visit to the store," Rasya felt sorry for not being able to pick up his wife when it was not a big thing only the possessive man who did not allow his wife to go home alone.

It is like that as a form of expression of his love for his wife and does not want his wife to go anywhere alone and this is always in his monitor.

"No matter my dear husband, this is also close, too," Riska does not matter at all even she is happy to be home with her friends even though she is also not angry if picked up every day by her husband.

But as a teenager who just moved to adulthood would want a way with his friends to just spend time together but the sister of Raka did not mind at all if picked up by the husband.

Although sometimes he comes home alone then he is very happy to be able to walk with his friends even though only until the stop or gate to the campus only.

"So there's a new item coming in and it has to be checked so there's no mistake," instead of not trusting his employees who were there but just happened to be Rasya also met with the owner of the clothing supplier who in the usual place he took.

And also if the wife does not go to college maybe he will invite rather than leave that makes him worried when his wife is fine.

"My husband, I've grown up sometimes coming home alone no matter what, okay," Riska reassured her husband that he was fine to go home alone and not forget to do a warm kiss on a boneless but chewy surface.

"Don't tease baby, it's still morning," since doing his first night at the hotel at that time Rasya never took his rations every night but three times a week because he did not want to make his wife tired even though he actually wanted to but as much as he could must be able to control yourself.

"Same night is different?" Riska blinked one eye flirtatiously then took a cold drink in the closet and sat by the window ignoring her husband After he was seduced.

"Little basic teaser" Rasya approached his wife and sat down next to her and embraced the tiny body and was carried into her arms.

"Darling!" Call Rasya gently and from her tone there is something serious to say.

"What's my husband?" Riska put down the canned drink and looked at her husband with a question mark.

"After our first night," just said the first night word Riska's face had met red because she was the first to offer to be enjoyed by her husband.

"After that night we did it a lot, brother just wanted to know if I was using contraception or not?" Really that question has crossed Rasya's mind for a few days because he has a certain anxiety about the relationship they often do so it is not possible that it will pay off because they are in a phase dustier.

"I mean my husband, delaying pregnancy?" Riska should clarify the question from her husband because she does not want to be misrespected even though the contraceptive problem is very prone to be discussed in a relationship especially at a young age.

"Yes, if you want to delay pregnancy is also okay and focus on the same lecture first," although Rasya already really wants the baby present among them but he does not want to be selfish and let his wife finish college first only after that focus on discussing about children.

"Especially every time we play brother never throw it outside must always be inside," because it is better if thrown inside but yes it will definitely pay off unless it is in an infertile cycle.

"Oh my goodness, what do you think? Riris is not a problem bang if pregnant while in college and also the child's gift does not need us to prevent his presence let alone we are a married couple and also have children faster better so that when they grow up later we still look young and we could be considered as their older brother instead of as parents," Riska did not matter at all if she was pregnant while still in college instead she was happy to mean God was so quick to entrust the little angel present among them.

And also Riska is imagining when she was young but already has children who are teenagers will certainly be very fun and also they will be mistaken for sister and sister couples instead of child couples and old man.

"Thank you dear, it means we have to make it often to be quick so," Rasya can breathe with relief because his wife has no intention to delay her pregnancy just want to quickly have a baby when she was already anxious but her anxiety was very unreasonable at all.

"That's what my handsome husband wants," Riska took a shower and turned her eyes out the window again.

"You will also enjoy even asking for more," Riska covered her face because she was embarrassed because her husband's speech was not a lie because he often asked for more because the taste he enjoyed together made him forget himself and unconsciously asked for more even though his body had been crushed.

Drt,,,, uh,,,,

Drt,,,,, uh,,,,,

Hp Riska vibrates sign of incoming message.

"Just now," Riska got up from her seat to pick up the phone located at her husband's desk.

"From who?" Not just believing, just curious

"Mommy said that later tonight we would have dinner together at the request. He said the house has been quiet since we got married,". Saw a message from her mommy asking her to come tonight.

"Yes, we are all struggling, sorry my brother rarely works," Rasya felt guilty rarely taking his wife to sleep at his parents' house, considering they are both busy so only on leisure opportunities they come but rarely stay overnight.

"No matter what, mommy also understands," Riska also understands the busyness of her husband, what else next month is willing to open a new branch again so there must be careful preparation.

In Raka💜's office

The man was shocked to see Farah resting at his feet.

"Far why?" Of course Raka was shocked to not know the reason why Farah was grateful at her feet.

Hix,, hicks,,,

Instead of answering Raka's question, the girl instead cried with her head down, not wanting to show her face which was definitely in tears.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," that's the only word that can be said for now given how much wrong she's done during their marriage.

"Let's get up, sit on the sofa huh," Raka could see Farah's position like this and lead the girl to stand up.

"I'm sorry bang," Farah refused to be invited to sit down and she had to get an apology from her husband.

"You're not wrong, so there's nothing to forgive," Raka's words instead of Farah feeling relieved just the crying gets stronger because the man hasn't felt hurt all this time.

"I've been evil all along and ignore my brother," Farah still felt at home in her position because it felt like she no longer had a face to show to her husband.

"Who said you were bad? No one said you were bad. Let's get up and sit here" Raka helped Farah stand up and sit on the sofa and the man chose to sit on the other sofa.

Seeing Raka change position to sit makes Farah's heart smile bitterly.

**Even to sit next to me was my brother afraid, so evil I used to**

Farah knows that Raka avoids sitting nearby and of course all that to appreciate her feelings considering their relationship has been far from good.

But he understood Raka's actions because it was not the fault of the man who did not want to be close to him but since it was Farah who did not want him to approach.

"Bang," Farah got up from her seat and moved next to Raka even she ventured to hold the man's arm.

"I'm sorry, I know so many mistakes and sins that I committed during our marriage," Farah was not ashamed to admit all her mistakes because she did not want to be late and that regret would no longer be useful.

So the sooner the better and their relationship can still be maintained.

Indeed, this is the purpose of Farah to come to Raka that she really wants to improve the marriage relationship that she never expected and slowly destroyed.

Now he comes back with hope and hope that their relationship can still be repaired even though the hope is only fifty percent.

"I'm sorry, even before you apologize. So do not be sad anymore and the journey is still long," Raka took a tissue and helped wipe the tears of Farah who is still flowing on her cheeks.

If it may be honest at the beginning of their marriage, Raka felt heartache, but over time she was able to accept sincerely and understand the attitude of his wife

"I've been a sinful and ungodly wife to my husband," getting an apology from Raka could not make Farah breathe with complete relief because with an apology he got that easy it even made the regret even greater.

"Does my brother still hate me?" Recalling his past mistakes led Farah to conclude that Raka hated him for even a month.

"Brother never hated you just at the beginning of the marriage was a disappointment and heartache there but as time goes by Brother ate that in the past Brother never complained you so consider this may be a reply and my brother accepted me freely," Farah thought why there could be such a good man who had been treated so badly that forgiving was so easy.

But as she got older Farah realized that the love she had before should not be revenge and heartache to Raka especially at the age of those who are teenagers love the opposite sex it is faster to feel because the search for identity makes us need attention and attention is specifically given to us.

"I'm sorry, brother," even now Farah had grasped the two burly hands with no doubt at all and Raka could see the heartfelt words spoken by his wife.

"Abang already sorry, now don't be sad again yes," after saying that sentence Raka pulled her hand from Farah's grasp.

Not because he does not like it but he does not want to draw his own conclusions without hearing directly from the concerned.

It's not that Raka doesn't want to hope but that she just doesn't want to be disappointed by something uncertain that she concludes herself.

"Can our relationship be repaired?" Farah wants to finish today also about the fate of their marriage.

For quite a long time he inhabited a marriage that should have been warm actually became cold and almost frozen.

"Our relationship has been good all along," instead Raka never considered if their marriage relationship had been destroyed and she never destroyed the marriage was only the distance created by Farah made their relationship as if not okay.

"But my treatment all along was equally evil, brother," admitted his mistake all along and was not ashamed at all.

Because if you hold an ego then all problems will never be resolved it will only be selfish.

"Everyone never escapes a mistake and they deserve an apology, too," after all, Raka only considers that what happens in the future is reciprocal with events in the past until she considers breaking even all of this.

Raka knows how Farah is and how the character of the girl is so Raka gives time until Farah really realizes what is worth maintaining and which should not be included in their relationship.

"What about our relationship? Can it be fixed and started all over again?" Of course, this is the main purpose of Farah to go to Raka to ask about the continuation of their marriage relationship that will be taken where and need clarity right now.

It had been enough all this time that he was playing with the sacred bond of marriage and it was enough that he regretted all the mistakes he had made and the time had come for him to fix everything including the relationship that had been tenuous and also the attitude of him that does not reflect as a good wife.

Farah waited for an answer from Raka with all hopes because in her little heart she hoped they would still want to establish a relationship that had been destroyed but whatever the decision of the man would be Farah accepted with a free chest because admitting his mistakes so far is very big.

The good and bad of Raka's decision remains Garah accepts and if Raka refuses to continue their relationship then Farah cannot force to maintain something she never expected from the beginning.

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