NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
Is This What He Feels At That Time?

Raka looked at Farah for a moment then turned her gaze in another direction.

Seeing Raka throw face makes Farah's chest throbbing pain and from this alone he can conclude that Raka does not want to go back to establish or improve their marriage relationship.

What else since then men keep their distance and do not want to touch him.

**I was so mean and made my brother hurt so deeply, but is there really no chance?**

Farah could only smile wryly.

Realizing his mistake during this time and understanding Raka's mood which of course was not okay all this time.

"Can our relationship be repaired?" Farah was still staring at Raka with a hopeful look.

Still very hopeful if their relationship can still be repaired and she will be a better wife and serve her husband is not like at the beginning of the marriage and never appreciate at all.

Tock....

Tock....

Raka got up from her seat and moved to her chair and told someone knocking at the door to come in.

"Sorry sir, we'll be meeting soon," the secretary lowered her head or felt that she had interrupted her boss' time let alone a glimpse of Farah's sad face and she thought something had happened that she herself did not know.

"All right, I'll be there soon" and the secretary came out, leaving the two men still silent in their respective places.

After being silent for a while, Raka got up from her seat tidying up the suit she was wearing.

"Abang has to meet, you brought a car or the same taxi?" Raka approached Farah therapy was still within a reasonable distance.

"Abang hasn't answered my question yet," Farah didn't want to leave before getting an answer from Raka.

"Abang meeting first, you carefully turn it around," after saying that phrase Raka came out of her room leaving Farah alone.

Farah looked at that burly back with a pushy look.

His struggle to come to this office has not been fruitful but he will not give up just like that because to return something he has destroyed is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand.

"Still angry like her, but naturally si," because there was nothing more she wanted to do Farah chose to go and she planned to visit her in-laws especially her female in-laws.

He should know and ask for advice even though later he will definitely get words that make him feel more guilty but Farah will not back down because she did this not just because of her guilt but because the old feeling that never went from his heart.

Arrive at the luxurious residence of Arka and Khira.

"Assalamu'alaikum," Farah entered the house as a housekeeper opened the door and walked towards the family room.

"Wa'alaikumsalam, let's sit down. Mommy kangen tau. You rarely stay here plus brother busy out of town and abroad," now Farah knows what her husband's activities have been for the past month and certainly it's very busy considering having to work hard to advance her company as many of the dependent heads of the family live there but are male it did not get the support of the wife he loved so much.

"Thank you mom," Farah put down the parcel she had bought earlier and sat down next to her in-laws after greeting.

"Mommy's healthy?" Farah saw the beautiful face of her in-laws even though age could not be lied to anymore let alone her in-laws older than her in-laws.

But the beauty guat still looks especially supported by treatments that are not cheap, of course, aging is slow to occur.

"Mommy's healthy, you why are you gini?" Khira sees Farah's body being thinner than usual.

It turned out that not only was Raka aware but very old as well.

"It's just a lack of rest, mom, but I'm okay?" How could he not lose weight because the last two weeks Farah realized her mistake and regretted it to the effect of reduced weight.

"Don't be tired, if you can't just mending at home and spend the husband's money," gives advice that is very liked by women is to spend the husband's money.

But not for Farah to hear the word husband instead he increasingly regretted his actions.

But it was not Khira's fault to discuss this, as she was not aware of the problems that were going on between her son and daughter-in-law.

"Yes mom,"

**If later we are better, that's also if bang Raka wants to make up**

How can she enjoy her husband's money if their relationship alone for now is on edge and does not know when it will fall and it all depends on the decision Raka has not given to Farahs.

"Yesterday my brother went to Paris, didn't you? Because you can't leave the office when you go to Japan" you want Farah to cry for now.

Even after many mistakes made to Raka, the man covered everything and still told about his kindness to his parents even if he wanted to, he could tell all the ugliness of Farah and hated by her them.

"Yes mom yesterday was busy," Farah was forced to lie rather than be labeled as a bad wife because she never once treated her husband well since marriage.

"Mommy knows your marriage seems sudden but believe me that brother is a good man, mommy praises not because he's mommy's son but we all know how the brother's attitude so far.

Mommy just hope that your marriage is lasting let alone married to someone we already know different from mommy who married a man who is not mommy recognized at all even just met and met each other recognize after the marriage contract because it was before the marriage contract prospective husband mommy did not come and replaced with Daddy who was then as a guest.

So sudden marriage is not something that makes us unable to accept because we who do not know each other can live happily as long as they willingly accept and want to undergo a household hick without any compulsion at all," Khira just does not want if her daughter-in-law has not been able to fully accept the marriage they live when from the beginning Farah never received until she and Raka separated the house.

Moreover, they are married who have known each other since childhood so it will not be difficult to be together and accept each other.

A few days had passed after Farah's meeting in Raka's office and until now she had not been able to meet her husband, each came to the office but Raka was not there and was attending a meeting outside the office.

"Where should I find a brother?" Farah drives her car away from Raka's office because she won't give up and give up.

"Almost have lunch first," Farah stopped by a restaurant to fill her stomach.

Just as he was sitting inside the restaurant he saw Raka sitting with a woman who was a short distance away from where he was sitting.

"That's a big brother," Farah pretended not to see and she stole hearing out of curiosity what they were discussing?.

"Do you know that I have loved you for a long time?"

Degs...

There was Farah throbbing pain when she heard a woman expressing feelings to her husband and Farah's brain thought about what this was like when Raka heard and saw her with her boss.

It feels really painful.

"Do you know I've been waiting for this moment long after our long separation?" The woman kept talking to me with Raka only she heard but with silence the man made Farah flounder as he was also curious about the catch that Raka would give.

"You know who I love!" Raka replies casually but Raka's answer makes Farah feel even more pain in her chest because she assumes that the man still loves Sarah to this day.

Farah smiled wryly as she squeezed both her hands under the table because she should not have quoted the person's conversation even though it was her own husband and now it ended in heartache.

"I should have been able to be predictable from the beginning," because Raka who never expressed her feelings to Farah so that the girl concluded that her husband still loves her sister.

Farah lost her appetite and went from there and slipped some red money because she had time to order food but her appetite was lost hearing the answer from Raka.

"It's fitting that he won't fix our relationship and still loves Sarah," Farah drives her car away from the restaurant with pain in her heart but she cannot be angry with her own sister for it is impossible to destroy their brotherly relationship just because of the conclusion Farah took on her own.

Farah is in a very difficult position when she wants to improve her marriage but the husband still loves his sister.

What should he do now? Fixing to maintain or release in exchange for heartache.

At the hospital, Farah went to check on her health condition.

"How's my condition doc?" Farah really hopes that her health condition will be better before getting a kidney donor and she always obeys all the advice of doctors and takes prescribed drugs.

"As I said at that time, Farah's mother must be able to get a kidney donor as soon as possible,"

(Sorry if less connect when discussing the disease yes, the author also does not understand 😩)

Farah breathed heavily because it turned out that only with a kidney donor could save him but until now from the hospital had not received the right donor.

"Are there no dock donors?" Farah also tried to find a kidney donor but until now she has not found a suitable one even though to pay people who want her to have to drain her savings but did not find a clear path.

"Thank you doc, if there's any information on my walnut, I'll also look for a donor,"

After that Farah said goodbye to the doctor and walked to the pharmacy to make up for the drug that will be consumed next because at least this drug can overcome the pain he experienced although it can not be completely.

Even until now he has not told his parents about him who is sick now.

"What should I do now?" Farah is increasingly confused because of the condition of him who already desperately needs a donor but has not been obtained as well.

While in the hospital after Farah's departure, someone entered the doctor's room earlier.

"Can I help you sir?" Seeing an unidentified person enter his room.

"So I overheard your chat and I happened to need money so I wanted to donate my kidney" he said to the point without further ado.

"True, and if you really want to donate your kidney let's do the examination first," bring the person into the examination room to check whether the person's kidney is suitable or not.

After conducting a series of checks and the results were suitable so that Farah could perform the operation as soon as possible.

"The results are suitable and my father will tell me if this person is already in the hospital," as a doctor, of course, this is very happy when the patient gets help.

And he'll tell Farah because the kidney needed is already there and just set the surgery schedule.

The man said goodbye and waited only for news from the doctor.

Farah doesn't know where she is now.

Since it was no longer working, the girl was confused about where to go added her friend who was busy working.

"I have to recover first, just think about the fate of our marriage," for now Farah indeed has to think about her health condition first ask for answers back to Raka's decision on the fate of their marriage.

"To my brother's office while carrying lunch," at least Farah must fight first and whatever decision Raka will be received with a free chest.

Farah gives Raka's favorite food and drives her car to the office.

No need to wonder why she could find out her husband's favorite food because they had been together since childhood so already know what is liked by Raka but do not know who is loved by the man.

Tbc,,,, uh,,,,,