NOT A SUBSTITUTE LOVE
Love That Pain

After a long talk with his father-in-law, he, Raka says goodbye to leave tonight and before leaving she visits the room of the girl who is still his wife and hopefully there is still a miracle for their marriage.

Although Raka feels that the marriage relationship she is living in is on the edge but she still hopes that there is a little hope that it can be maintained again because she does not want to end all this and is better repaired rather than knitting back with new people.

But if there really is no way anymore Raka also can not force the will.

Geck...

Geck...

"Far this is brother," Raka knocks on Farah's door because she doesn't want to just leave without saying goodbye even though she feels less sure that the girl will open the door for her.

Chequek...

"May my brother come in?" Although Farah was still his wife but Raka could not enter the girl's room carelessly let alone their relationship had not been okay and rather Farah who always avoided so Raka did not want to take action the rash.

Without speaking Farah opened the door of her room which signified that she had allowed Raka to go inside.

"There's something you want to talk about," Raka stood up to keep her distance from Farah, he was afraid that being close together would only get a rejection from the girl so that self-knowing attitude automatically came out if there was Farah in his sight.

Farah did not answer Raka's words and it seemed that she was also waiting for the continuation of the man's words.

And it was fortunate that Raka understood that Farah was waiting for what she wanted to say.

"We both know that this marriage did happen suddenly and we also both know that you really do not want this marriage even seem very resistant, even when our marriage is still intertwined you are like giving another man a chance to enter a crack that has been fractured since the beginning and like allowing that man to destroy our marriage.

But I do not know that you say our marriage is the beginning of your suffering is this marriage a calamity to be avoided or like an unregulated scum? ah that's not actually remember you said it's over the most important thing now brother will leave you here in an undetermined time to think whether you want to really end this marriage or not no, if you've been thinking immediately contact your brother to still want to continue or we meet in court.

I'll give you at most a month to think about all this and as long as that time has run out and you haven't decided it then our divorce papers will get here take good care of yourself brother left first," Raka had decided to give up her love even though it was heavy and painful but I did not with the passage of time she could forget and look for a companion who really wanted to accept him.

Let him be judged as to what is most important he also wants to be happy even if not with his love and with a new love.

He does not want to dissolve and drown in endless pain because life continues and does not need to contemplate something that only makes us not go forward.

Although it is all heavy but he must be able to get through it because if not with Farah it may be out there happiness he is waiting for, true happiness.

"Before you leave, can you hug me?" Raka was aware of this request but she also very much hoped that Farah would allow him to hug her even if just that second was more than enough.

Farah pensively stood in her place at the request of Raka which she thought was impossible but she looked up to see the handsome face of the man it felt like she did not have the heart to hurt her husband the umpteenth time.

So he just answered with a nod of his head, and.

GGRREEPP...

"Thank you," Raka immediately embraced the tiny body after getting permission from the concerned because if lingering fear Farah changed her mind because to get an opportunity like this is not easy.

"Thank you for allowing your brother to hold you, take good care of yourself as long as you are gone and if you are not a match, may you get a much better man than your brother.

Do not forget to eat yes remember you are sick again, brother will try to find a donor so that you are healthy again, Do not ask where you know all this because you just want to make sure the bank is always in protection,"

"During the marriage business you can feel what you feel once cheeked by our loved ones it does not taste good, yes, but brother understood and considered it all punishment because in the past brother had liked you too ah really bad it even feels so stifling chest," Raka continued to talk at length while hugging Farah occasionally the burly hand rubbed the tiny back that was in her arms.

And as for Farah she was still silent on the spot and did not reply at all to the embrace of Raka but at least she did not attempt to let go.

"If we really can't match anymore, hopefully he can replace the position of brother to work on you. Brother apologizes that as long as we are married brother can not make you happy.

Already yes if you keep talking it feels like the time it takes longer than this and you should immediately go take good care of yourself, i love you," before releasing his embrace Raka several times shrunk the head of Farah and after that he left the girl who was still sculpting standing in place.

Farah simply turned her body to look at Raka's missing footsteps behind the door she instantly closed as she passed by.

The girl had not been able to speak against what she had just heard and she did not expect that all this time she had hurt Raka intentionally.

And the last sentence that Farah caught from Raka's words was that the man loved himself but left his life as well.

"He loves me, don't hear me wrong, right?" Farah still did not believe what she heard at the end of the sentence spoken by Raka.

It felt absolutely impossible if the man loved himself even once he remembered once how Raka had so eluded him whenever Farah tried to approach.

So if now Raka loves him like a dream in broad daylight when it is night.

"Where's he going?" Raka did not say where she would go and just say goodbye to her father-in-law.

So Farah was confused herself to go where the husband she had never considered all along and now she was confused because she did not know the schedule of the man.

With a limped step he walked towards the bed to recover his strength because he was hugged and got a confession from Raka making Farah's bones relax for a moment.

Finally Farah chose sleep after her raging thoughts were made by Raka.

He thought about what Raka said earlier whether the man really loved her or was just a prank to seek sympathy from her.

The next morning after performing the morning prayers the girl came out of the room to help her make breakfast.

"For ma'am," she had to act as if nothing had happened last night because she didn't want her parents to know the fate of the marriage she was living in was on the verge of collapse.

"For my sister, help me cook. Mama kangen cook with sister tau," Vya invites her eldest child to cook together because before Farah married they often cook together or sometimes assisted by Sarah.

Farah happily helped her mother and she breathed a sigh of relief because her mother did not ask the reason for her arrival last night even her mother was mediocre.

Without Farah knowing that the mother had been explained by Dean about her daughter's return to their home so Vya did not ask her daughter again.

"We cook simply because the food is not complete because aunt has not been shopping anymore," finally the mother and child chose to make a simple breakfast menu even so their compactness did not decrease.

While waiting for their breakfast menu ripe Farah arrange dishes and glasses and do not forget to make fruit juice to complement the breakfast menu this morning.

Things that Farah never did during marriage with Raka even in cooking by Raka he never touched or ate it.

"Bang Raka sure is happy to eat sister's cooking every day let alone the smart brother cooking," Farah who was putting a spoon stopped her hand movements heard the words from the mother.

She was stunned standing in her place that she had never done any of that during her marriage and also she preferred eating out or buying food and she ate inside the room.

'Cooking! Did I ever cook during our stay?'

Of course the answer is not let alone cooking enter the kitchen area Farah just to take a drink and that's even when there is no Raka in the apartment or not out of his room.

"Sister likes masakin the most at breakfast the same brother?" The girl's face was getting cheaper hearing the follow-up questions from the mother.

I want her to go to the room to calm herself down because she really feels like a bad wife to her husband.

Raka once said that Farah did not want to accept Raka as husband enough to accept him as a friend but Farah never did that simple thing and preferred to avoid Raka while in the apartment.

"What kind of breakfast do you like best?"

Farah who was in droves with questions like that was even confused to answer what because she never did all that during her marriage became she was like a suspect who was being caught even doing the action.

Farah's brain swirled to remember all the sins she had committed during her stay with Raka even as she remembered there was not a single good she did nor her actions to appreciate all Raka's efforts.

"Definitely brother often asked to be cooked seafood right because he likes it the most," Vya still remembered about the speech of his best friend Khira and besan him who said if Raka liked the food of processed seafood.

Moreover, he had known Raka since he was still in the womb and was friendly with Raka's mother before they were married even still sitting in school so it could be said that their relationship was long established before their children were born to marry now.

"Let's arrange the food because it's ripe and soon papa and Sarah will definitely come down," Vya who speaks more while Farah does not answer a single speech from her mother because she does not have an answer.

Luckily her mother did not ask any further and did not demand her answer because according to Vya that her son did his duty as a wife all along well.

Finished breakfast with farewell to leave for the office even he took the time to deliver Sarah to campus when his sister had said she would bring her own car but Farah kekeh to deliver her sister.

And Sarah could not refuse her brother's invitation.

"Anything's not staying, brother?" Sarah had been curious since she did not see Raka's presence there and only now did she dare to ask.

"She's on a business trip" Farah replied quietly as she was less sure about the answer she gave because Raka was saying goodbye last night and told her to take good care of herself.

Raka has nothing to say where she is going and now Farah really feels as a wife very indifferent to her husband.

"Why didn't my sister come? It's good to go with your husband on vacation," what Sarah has in mind is that she works with her husband and then takes part in a business trip must be very fun working while on vacation especially with her loved ones.

But it was only Sarah's desire because it was inversely proportional to the one in Farah's mind.

"So much work in the office," after all this who would dare to ask to come along when Raka was on a business trip she was just a wife who never considered the whereabouts of her husband so she had to know the limits because all this time Farah herself who had building a barrier between them even though Raka always tries to destroy it.

"If I was in the position of brother I wouldn't let my husband go alone because I didn't want him to be teased by the little girls out there let alone that brother is handsome, both and also a successful entrepreneur will certainly love it a lot out there. If you can't keep your brother well then one day don't cry if you choose to go with a girl who can make him comfortable," on every occasion that there is Sarah wants to realize the brother that Raka is a man who deserves to be with her brother especially Raka has no shortage to be a couple.

So if Farah wastes the opportunity, it does not rule out the possibility if Raka is tired of the struggle.

Not long after the car Farah was driving stopped at Sarah's campus.

The girl said goodbye to her brother and soon came down.

"Why does everyone seem to be cornering me?" Does Farah not think that they all have no intention to corner him.

Because they do not know how the marriage relationship he with Raka so natural if the mother asked like this morning and Sarah said so because she had seen and heard firsthand how Farah gave a gap to his superiors to enter into the ongoing marriage relationship.

So here they are not too wrong just the mother who does not know anything and Sarah just does not want her brother wrong in making a decision.

"Can we meet now?" Farah is not in the mood to go to the office and she calls her best friend to meet because she knows her best friend is on a day off work.

After getting a reply Farah headed to the place they had agreed to meet.

Arriving there after parking his car Farah searched for a place where his best friend was.

"Lo's face why is it so tangled?" Farah's best friend could see that the girl was thinking a lot without Farah having to explain.

"Gue is okay, it's just not healthy anymore," Farah gives an excuse if she is not healthy even though it is true because the girl's physical condition is not okay.

"Gue sure that's not the only reason there must be something else right," they are friendly for quite a long time so it will be very difficult to keep something secret especially if it has been face to face like this.

"Bang Raka sent me back to Papa and Mama's house,"

Hukkkp...

Hukkkkp...

Hearing the words of Farah his best friend was immediately stoned.

"Lo repatriated with him? You guys quarreling?" Just like Farah thought last night because she didn't expect Raka to send her back so soon.

"Have we not been in a fuss all this time so," Farah was also confused between having to tell a story or just hold her own because she could not bear to be alone against what she heard from Raka last night.

"So what?" Of course he's getting curious if Farah doesn't tell a complete story.

"Gue is escorted home and he is just saying goodbye because he is on a business trip but," Farah recounts all the events experienced last night as well as Raka's remarks expressing her feelings that the man loves Farah.

Farah told me everything and nothing was missed.

"So after she expresses her feelings and says loving you she immediately leaves without waiting for your answer?" Farah's friend was really surprised that Raka could love her best friend so fast especially she was the witness that all this time harakat never responded to any struggle Farah to approach him.

"Yes, he went straight away without looking back and I'm now confused what should I do?" after getting an expression of love from Raka last night Farah's feelings become confused whether it is true that she has forgotten Raka completely or still keeps the name of the man in her heart.

"Lo was actually still in love with him or not?" because all this time Farah always said that she had forgotten her feelings for Raka but who knows the contents of someone's heart even though they have been friends for a long time.

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Comen dong, Raka and Farah want to be in one or separated,,????🤗