The End of Hope
23 Eps. Ordinary Woman Love

Naya opened her eyes by gathering her consciousness. Her husband's loud voice was like the sound of thunder booming in his subconscious.

"Eh, Kanda... coming home?" he said as he got up from a lying position on the sofa. He sat down and saw Rudian sitting in front of him.

"Do you wish I didn't come home? Yes already, I'm going to Yola's house again then" Rudian replied in an angry tone and prepared to move on as Naya stepped towards him and held him back.

"No, it's night... Just sleep here. Come on." said Naya as she wrestled in Rudian's arms.

'Did I already resemble the woman who lost her pride. Though aware her husband loves other women but still expect affection from her. This is what makes some women do not want her husband to marry again, because it hurts more to hold on to the reason of love but consciously the gaze and heart of her husband is not for himself, ahk...'

Rudian followed Naya's steps to the bed. The two of them sat on the side of the bed with Naya leaning on Rudian's shoulder.

"What do I want to talk about?"

"Are you serious about the three months you told me?"

"Oh, that's it." said Nyahut let go of her arms embrace her husband.

"I'm serious" Naya said again as she stared at Rudian intensely.

"I don't agree"

"Why?"

"I love you Naya, I want us to be together until we die. Can you guarantee you'll be pregnant for three months?"

"I don't know. Why doubt God? If there's a fate I can continue together, if not already, do you already have Yola?"

"Naya, I'm not ready to separate from you right now."

"Yes, be prepared for these three months. Who knows." Naya's words were cut off by Rudian who smothered Naya's lips with a kiss. The longer it goes deeper.

It was as if Rudian wanted to stop whatever was going to come out of those lips and Naya who was used to her husband's kiss still melted away from it, so she softly replied.

Naya who took the initiative to start by taking off her clothes and also her husband's clothes, to hold a husband and wife relationship with a mind that is still floating.

Rudian laid his body beside Naya after she was done, and he soon fell asleep. Similarly Naya, also lying on her husband's side after cleaning ***********.

"I love you, Nda. I really don't want any of this to happen between us, you remarry and I might get divorced from you after three months. There's another woman among us.. Maybe we'll get back on the road before all this happens?" naya said softly, while rubbing her husband's jaw and did not feel her tears began to flow.

'What kind of relationship this is that is not clear between pleasure and sadness. Some even say that the life of a polygamous woman is like a manned. Steady on the ground neither does it fly. Everything is unclear'

Such a feeling is actually because she is not the only woman for her husband. That is perhaps what makes their reward different for Allah when it is done with patience and sincerity. It's not easy, is it?

There's still three months left, is he strong? Naya's eyes are not also closed, she has insomnia since the incident she caught Rudian together with Yola.

Every night think Naya is always overshadowed by various kinds of problems that she guessed herself and did not necessarily happen. She feels excessive worry, neglected, and alone.

Naya performs regular morning worship, cleaning the house and making breakfast. The pain in his stomach had lessened. But Naya still asked Ms. Nha's permission not to go to work today on the grounds of not feeling well.

"You cried last night?" asked Rudian as he sat down to have breakfast.

One of the things that kept Naya going was because Rudian was very good and he was not a man who liked to be violent or hit. Her husband's shortcomings are only in the material and all this time they can work together. Naya is not a demanding woman, for her all she enjoys is enough.

Naya loves her husband in an ordinary way because she is just an ordinary woman. Although sad and various kinds of pessimistic feelings are present but he tries to be patient.

"Hemm.." answered Naya lazily.

"Other times I hope you don't talk about adultery and my guilt for Yola"

"Ah, you Nda. has not anything to lose him. It's true what you're doing is wrong."

"What's wrong is me, Nay. I'm khilaf. Yola sincere love me."

"If sincere love with Kanda, then he will not sin the person he loves. He will defend his honor for his love. Not even tempted by the devil."

"Yes, I'm sorry."

"I also say I'm sorry to God. I just hate what he's doing, don't like you acting. Because I love you the same way. I'm so scared you're out of control."

"But now it's done, Nay. That's why I'd better get married, right?"

"Kanda, I also don't like people who like to use the word already to make mistakes to be understood. Kanda knows why in religion there is a stoning law for married people but still for adultery?"

"Here you go, don't talk about the law here. You know, I'm not a man who goes to religious studies"

"Well if you don't know, I tell you, because they have taken pleasure, a speck of the pleasures of heaven in an impure way. For those who are married, why is it still adultery when there is his wife at home...?"

Rudian silently heard Naya's words. He didn't seem to enjoy the food. Breakfast that day was the menu. Fried rice and beef eye eggs.

"This is a lesson, Nda. Do not become a habit in the name of khilaf" said Naya, ending her breakfast.

"Later at night I slept at Yola's house. So I didn't go home. Don't wait to sleep on the couch."

"Up to three months of this sleep here, at least until I get pregnant. Let Yola have kanda time during the day. Like the time of the wedding"

"When she wasn't married, she wasn't pregnant, Nay. Now he likes weird cravings."

'Ahk, that's right...'

After Rudian left for the factory to work, Naya called her best friend who used to work together at the factory. He is the friend who likes to give lectures and advice to his friends fellow factory employees. Among the friends of one part with Naya, Farah is the most visible, in addition to her age which is several years above Naya.

"Hello, Farah. It's me, Naya, remember?"