The End of Hope
66 Eps. Humanity Only

"Naya, if you want to take care of Bang Rudi, you do not have to worry about eating and others. Let me take care of it," the words Yola spoke made Naya wantonly hit her on the head.

Who is he to organize people at will? Indeed, he always gave up, because he tried to survive in family relationships. But now he had begun to condition his mood, when he had to let go of everything he had fought for. He no longer wanted to be seen with Rudian.

"Yola. Actually, the one who's his wife is me or you, si?"

"I. You are, have been divorced" said Yola.

'Maasyaallah. Yeah, you should take care of dong's husband'

"Naya.." now Sarita approached, holding Naya's hand gently, "I admit, I was wrong with you, I was not fair with you. But you refer to Rudian. Please," the woman said, and spoke in a clear voice.

"Mother, I went to the house to actually ask for a signature divorce letter from Rudian," said Naya, releasing Sarita's hand and removing a brown envelope from her bag.

"Naya, please.. No one takes care of Rudian, mother is still sick, last time you came, mother again to the doctor as well. Her brother can't take care of her, Yola also has to work. Mother asks for help with you. Please mom, please Rudian, okay?" said Sarita again clasping Naya's hand with tears.

'Oh Allah. Should I go back to my husband because he is sick? May I help him for humanitarian reasons? Who here is being moved by God. Did the mother realize her mistake and apologize? Or am I the one who inexplicably came alone to the house, even though this letter can I entrust through the delivery service? Astagfirullah'

If Naya doesn't come to her house, she doesn't need to know about this, she doesn't even need to meet with her mother and Yola. But once again fate has plunged him to that place and must see the fact that he is needed.

'Should I give up again, just because I think that giving up doesn't mean losing?'

"Sin..?" ask Sarita while shaking Naya's shoulder.

"Well, ma'am," Naya was stunned by the word that came out of her own mouth. It was as if the lips were moving on their own. Is this true, just because of humanity alone until the good instinct of humanity Naya was called by itself.

"Thank you, thank you Naya." said Sarita, hugging Naya tightly. While Naya's body seemed frozen. Silence does not react.

"What is mom sick?" ask Naya.

"Mother, her high blood relapsed thinking brother, so that's it, the headaches continued. I also bothered. Be careful not to be a stroke. I can't be stressed anymore. There was Naya who wanted to take care of my brother" Yola said. Naya glanced in a carefree glance at the woman sitting next to Sarita.

'Astagfirullah, this woman sucks. Can't he appreciate people at all?'

"Yes, already. Mom just calm down now. Naya will take care of Rudian now here. I take care of myself" said Naya helplessly.

Sarita hugged Naya once more, then smiled as she stroked her cheek.

"You've been good, Naya..Thanks again, huh?"

Naya returned Sarita's smile and nodded. Then the two women left after they cleaned their bags. Yola brought home Rudian's dirty clothes, kept some food and mineral water on the table. They came home on a Rudian motorcycle.

Naya was stunned, sitting alone while staring at Rudian's weakly rolled body helplessly. He kept holding the divorce papers he had signed. Relying on the body with tears. He was crying because of the man in front of him. Always because of him, that's love that hurts. Love that must run aground because of selfishness. But now look ready for a more selfish one? his illness?

Rudian's pain forced him back. It seemed like the wheel of fate that had attracted anyone to walk behind it without being able to protest. Is it all the fault of destiny? No. gabe. Where fate can be blamed. He is living out his decision now of his own volition.

There is Sarita who begs while crying, there is Rudian who is weak, if you want to obey his own wishes, then who is selfish? His heart thinks at a time like this, not the brain.

At midnight, Rudian woke up, faintly he could see back. And what he saw for the first time was the face of Naya who was sleeping on a chair with her head on the side of her bed. His hand moved to rub his wife's head was soft. He shed tears. That regret is useless. He is helpless now. It might not even be able to make her happy. Being late? Sure. Consciousness always arises when all is done.

He continued to mwnatap Naya, if not for the calamity he experienced, maybe now he can hug or kiss her. But don't kiss, to hug may be reluctant Naya, thought Rudian. The longing is there, a lot even. But he's not blessed, Naya won't believe that he misses her half-dead. Men are more selfish in love, they do not even want ex-wives to marry again.

"Naya, I'm sorry. I regret. Can my mistake be forgiven?" muttered Rudian softly, no one could hear.

The best regret is one that can awaken the deepest self-awareness.

Naya moved slowly, opened her eyes slowly and looked at Rudian Rudian's hand that was on top of her head. He saw Rudian's face staring at him with his eyes open and he cried.

"Rudi, are you awake? Want anything?" asked Naya while holding her body up. He stood up to prepare if Rudian needed anything. But Rudian shook his head.

"You can see me, now?" tanya Naya and Rudian nodded. Naya smiled and sat back down. Grabbing his phone and looking at the clock there, it's past midnight. It is worth the quiet atmosphere gripping. Only occasionally does the sound of nurses or nurses walking.

"Why are you here? Where's Yola?" asked Rudian in a weak voice.

"Oh, sleep there again. Let's go home tomorrow. If you are healthy. Everyone must be happy. Especially Yola."

"Naya, I'm sorry. I was wrong with you a lot. I'm afraid that if I die you haven't forgiven me."

"You're talking about what the.I can't give up on saying die."

"Yes, there is no hope anymore. My fault is the same mother, as a child, there are many. And my fault is that you're as much your husband as you are"

"Mistakes as a husband in the past" Naya said with a wry smile.

"Yes.." Rudian's voice weakened. Then he closed his eyes again. It was like sleeping but like dying. Naya had no idea that the effects of her illness were like that. He just thought Rudian was sleeping.

'Ahk, it's sleeping again right?'

Naya rested her head on the side of the bed resting on her hands. He tried to sleep again. But can not, finally stand up and go to the bathroom to worship and perform the sunnah prayer that night.

-

The male doctor looked at Naya as he explained everything Naya had to do as his wife.

"We are grateful, pa Rudian's back can improve, but he can not stand or duuk upright, he can only lean. Not moving much, all should be helped. Mother as his wife must be patient" said the doctor explaining Rudian's disease.

"Good, doc. Thanks."

Naya returns to Rudian's ward after being satisfied with the information she had obtained from the doctor who treated Rudian. He saw Rudian who had been sitting in his wheelchair assisted by Bastian, Rudian's brother who had completed his administration.

"Naya, it's over, the doctor is there?" ask Sarita enthusiastically. He cleaned up some stuff.

"She, ma'am."

"You, what is it?" ask Bastian.

"Ask about anything, brother. What I want to know."

"Now you know?" ask Bastian again.l

"Alhamdulillah, already."

"No, just talking about the disease, not talking about the person," said Naya while helping Sarita clean up the goods.

Bastian pushes Rudian's wheelchair out of the hospital and drives Bastian's car. Arriving at home, Sania was waiting and had prepared some food. They enjoyed the meal while resting on the sofa.

After their return from the hospital, Bastian, Naya and mother work together to get Rudian down from a wheelchair to bed. He still has a lot of rest. Because of the drugs that have been consumed, Rudian was quickly able to fall asleep.

After seeing Radian fall asleep again Naya approached Shania and her son, they seemed to be joking. Sarita and Bastian are busy with their phones. Naya grabs Sania's son in Naya's arms. Now they are in conversation. Sanan approached Naya and patted her shoulders, saying,

"You're finally home, I can't imagine, if I'm in your position, Naya."

"Yes don't be overshadowed, brother," said Naya. And Sania nudged Naya's arm.

"You I may not be strong, or I'm gone. It hurts, you have to take care of a sick husband, even though you have another wife. But she didn't want to take care of her husband" Sania said again.

"He has to work" Naya responded.

"Yes, you can change. You've been dealing with it from yesterday,"

Naya was silent for a moment she actually thought the same thing, then she said,

"He still cravings for Sania, can't stand the smell." Naya's words made Sania laugh and nod.

"Yes, it could be. Hopefully not just an excuse" Sania said.

After a night of contemplating it, Naya also wondered why she felt that she was moved to come to Rudian's house and be the solution to the problems they faced about Rudian.

Then Naya smiled and said, "Sister. I'm doing all this for humanitarian reasons alone, as fellow Muslims have to help each other, I've eliminated the feeling of resentment, angry jealousy towards Yola, I've got to help each other, because I intend to help Rudian only as a brotherhood of fellow Muslims, as well as a field of my charity and worship, hopefully be a reward of kindness and become my provision to go to heaven."

Sania hugged Naya and then smiled, taking a deep breath, she said, "Naya I didn't expect, can meet people like you, you can be an example, for people who are patiently polygamous."

Sania was silent for a moment, looking fixedly Naya said again, "You who are patient, you have to take care of a sick husband, when in the past he did not care or was unfair to you,"

"Where did Sania know Rudian was being unfair to me?"

"Oh, I used to see when I was making a big thanks for Yola. I don't think that's fair" Sania said.

"I've also met Bude before, Bude kept telling me many stories about you. So I I knew that Rudian was already doing that to you," their chatter stopped because Bastian came.

"Naya, you are patient, Rudian does need someone like you. I'm just as grateful to thank you for coming back here, too,"

"Yes, brother. You welcome. Brother want to go home?"

"Yes. We go home, we look again tomorrow. You go home too."

"Oh,"

"Naya, if Yola messes with you again, just call me, okay?" Bastian.

"Ah, yes yes. Hopefully there will be nothing" replied Naya.

-

Naya sits on her own sofa while enjoying a television show, she shrinks her folumen so that when Rudian wakes up or calls her will be stung. Until he finally heard Rudian muttering, Naya approached and said,

"You call me, Rudi?" he saw Rudian open his eyes and smile meaningfully at Naya. He sat by the bed and Rudian held his hand.

"Naya, I'm sorry."

"Have it, just rest."

"Does that mean my mistake for you won't be forgiven?"

"Our prophet is a forgiving man, and God is forgiving. Why can't I forgive?"

"Maybe because the mistake I made was very painful. If you're not sorry for me yet, I can't go quietly."

"What are you talking about, you heal fast and live long."

"You think I don't know about my illness?"

Naya is silent, she does not know what to say because it is her disease that will accelerate her age. It has been said that for all who are born and live in the world, God has determined everything, then when man is able, he said, he will undergo it according to the previously agreed terms.

"Don't think badly, worship as much as you can, it's better than regretting mistakes. Think for a good thing what you can do to replace it," Naya said, confirming Rudian's blanket.

"Unfortunately such an opportunity is no longer there."

"Do you feel so guilty about me?"

"Yes. If only I had the ability to repay your kindness"

"Do'll me."

Rudia smiled wryly. He thought that he alone needed do'a from others Why should he pray for him.

"Come, pray for each other. You've realized your mistake. So just multiply the istigfar." said Naya saw the despair on Rudian's face.

Rudian shed tears while nodding. He patted the back of Naya's hand. Then back to mumbling,

"I'm sorry." hearing that Naya nodded.

"Yes, sleep. If you want to sleep again. It's time for some medicine and dinner soon."

"Sleep with me, here" Rudian said as he patted the empty spot next to him.

Naya frowned, what would she do by sleeping beside Rudian as his wife? Then what about Yola and what she would say later, she really could not accept the bad words of the woman anymore. I don't know what he could do if Yola provoked his anger again. Naya is not what she used to be.

"Refer to me. Be my wife again, so that your efforts will be more meaningful until I die."