The End of Hope
85 Eps. Uh, I

Naya turned to the source of the voice, which was behind her. Ares had already walked over, then pulled the chair that was in front of Naya. They are in a small cafe that is very crowded, because it is famous for its drinks and cupcakes. Naya had already ordered two avocado juices for herself and Ares.

'I didn't expect it, quickly he came too'

"Oh.., good," said Naya.

"The cafe is crowded. Did you meet in this crowded place?" ares asked as he tasted the drink in front of him.

Naya nodded slowly while stirring up the juice in her glass.

"This crowded place is enough to be a witness for us, so there is no need for me to bring the muhrim or the father to bring the children to be a interlocutor" said Naya.

"Hm...Then just talk. I'll hear"

'Hais. A lot of times, it's not lunch time'

The two of them sat at one of the tables near the window, they sat facing each other as if looking at each other, whereas Naya looked out of nowhere, aries stared right at his eyeballs. Naya leaned her body and kept her hands on top of her thighs squeezing each other.

"I'm sorry .. "that word first came out of his lips.

"Sorry for what ...?" Ares said.

He leaned forward and propped himself up with both elbows on the table, hooking his fingers together.

"From my father's question yesterday, I felt that I was avoiding" Naya said, holding back the turmoil in her heart.

He tried half-dead to calm himself and tried not to look nervous or to look mediocre. But his voice still sounded a little trembling. After a moment of silence, Naya continued her words.

"Maybe you also feel like I hate you? Again sorry,"

"Oh it doesn't matter, what matters is you don't hate me?" hearing Ares' words, Naya shook her head strongly.

Naya then replied, "Actually I .. "he fell silent again while biting his lower lip.

Then he lowered his head deeply and covered his face with both palms and saw his shoulders shaken.

'Hey, what? Is she crying, why is she crying? I'm not wrong, am I?'

Ares circled around him, Iya looked completely wrong and agitated, worried that the people who saw this incident and saw Naya crying, would blame her as if they were fighting, she said, or people will judge that they are both a couple who are at odds.

Ares rubbed his face with his own palm, he let out a loud sigh and said, "What are you crying about me wrong are you?"

Maya does not answer she uses her right palm to wave at Ares hinting he says no.

'no? what does it mean to be wrong or not to talk?'

Ares let Naya finish her sobs, for a while. After Naya stopped crying, Ares took some tissue and stretched it out in front of Naya. Naya greeted him and immediately wiped her tears clean.

And then again, "sorry..."

Hearing Naya's words, Ares sighed while turning his face away. He alleviates his anxiety by spending the rest of the drink in his glass to the toilet.

'Should I be honest with him? Who does she have to listen to my honesty with? Am I really feeling guilty until I don't know how to behave in front of him?'

Ares saw that Naya had calmed down a little, and an overwhelming awkwardness occurred until she said, "now tell me why you cry, have I hurt you?"

Ares's question almost made Naya tear again, but Naya held her back, looking out the window. He sighed deeply after that he ventured to look at Ares.

He said, "Sir Ares is not wrong." with an awkward gesture.If he had a conjunction so that he did not speak directly to Ares, he said, but what he meant could be understood by this man.

"I've let my husband go, it's been a long time. I avoided Mr. Ares not because of that, but because I was ashamed" Naya said slightly stammered.

Hearing Naya's words, Ares chuckled.

"Why should I be ashamed? Have you ever done anything wrong with me or have I ever done anything embarrassing with you? No, right?"

"Yes, it's not. But I just want to say that I don't hate you. I didn't avoid it because I still remember my husband. And all that because I'm ashamed and I'm sorry."

"Then?"

"Hmmm. That's all." said Naya calm down.

'Ahk, that's right, Naya! I thought you were ready to be the mother of my children'

"Naya, you want to know something about me?"

Ares asked as he tapped his fingers on the table, while all his other limbs did not move including his eyes, calm, did not move from Naya's face, and all the rest of his body did not move, like observing the next reaction of what he was about to say.

"I was, since seeing you get close to Yoni, I already like you. If only you were a girl or a widow like you are now, I would have asked you right away, I looked for where your parents are, and asked you to be the mother of my children."

Ares did not show his true feelings at that time, because he realized that Naya was married, and when Iya found out that Naya was divorced, he kept restraining himself, because he saw Naya was not interested in him. Even impressed to stay away from him.

The strength of a man is not seen from how much his ability to realize what he wants, but from how much his ability to hold himself back, when what he wants is in front of him.

The deg! Nah, kan. Naya's heart was about to jump from its place, hearing Ares' honesty. He who was initially reluctant to tell the truth actually now heard the honesty of Ares made him like a dazed person, staring at Ares and the scenery outside the window in turn.

"You don't believe it?" ask Ares. Naya still did not know what to answer, because she did not believe Ares would be frank like this.

"Now, if you want, tell me where your parents are, I'm going there now." Ares showed his sincerity, and spoke calmly again.

"My parents are far away from here, sir. And I'm not ready to go back to the household yet either" Naya said, holding her heart down.

Naya's speech is like signaling to Ares, if his parents' house is close, then he will definitely allow it.

After a moment of silence, Naya said again,

Naya is seen holding back tears while tears have condensed in her eyes. Ares, who had been leaning back, now straightened his back and folded his hands on the table, looked at Naya straight away.

he wet his lips before saying, "do you think I'll act like your old husband? get married again, is that it?" then looked away while smiling.

"I'm not like him, Nay!" Ares Tandas.

Hearing Ares's words, Naya nodded, she rubbed her eyes to let her tears back inside, then said,

"Sir, sorry. I'd be honest with you."

"Yes, to be honest."

"Sir, every time I see my father, I will remember the embarrassing events I experienced. Remember sir, every father met me, I cried again, I messed up. So, when I meet my father, I still feel the shame and sadness that I felt first. That's why I avoided. Sir, as now, I remember the time I was accused by the actor, the crying time in troto _ _ " Naya's speech was interrupted.

"God! Had enough. If so, excuse me. I must apologize, for I have made you sad." Ares is overcome with guilt, it turns out that he accidentally hurt Naya.

As he said, Ares looked at the clock in his hand, he took the wallet out of his pants pocket and took out two hundred rubuan pieces of money, which he put under the glass.

He got up from his seat, and as he passed by Naya he said, "you take good care of yourself. I'll go first."

"Eh, I.." said Naya stopped because Ares had already left.

With a quick step Ares towards his car, and driving it, headed back to the office. The indistinct feeling that was present in his heart he poured with a strong grip both hands on the steering wheel of the car, while plugging the gas on his car at full speed.

While Naya sees Ares' departure and the money she left on the table in turn, with a feeling of wonder.

'Am I wrong, didn't I agree to be honest with each other, did I mention it? Sir, I'm not done talking!'

Naya shook her head like a confused person until she left, from that place.

From then on Ares promises himself not to see Naya again. Hearing Naya speak honestly about her sad feelings when she saw him, her heart was like it was being hollowed out there was a pain like slicing.

Is Naya or Ares guilty until their meeting is always tinged with sad drama, or is there nothing wrong in this? It seems, all this is just a game of fate that looks very strange in human life.

The trail of rain cannot just disappear, the proof is that when the rain stops, it still leaves a puddle here and there. It took him a while until his tracks completely disappeared. Likewise with forgetting, he needs time to really be lost, let alone forget the painful thing.

Ares is still thinking, whether he will wait or return to fight with the children. Isn't life not a wait, but a struggle? Maybe the sun will rise tomorrow, to mark that there is still hope again.

-

From that day on, Naya no longer met Ares. Sometimes he sees a shadow of his or her car, which is parked in the yard where Naya works, but he doesn't really meet her in person. In addition, Naya never again receives messages, in the form of attention or some questions that Ares usually gives every morning or night.

The relationship between Ares and himself was completely severed as swallowed by the flood and flood, even last weekend the children did not visit the house, as they promised on the previous weekend.

In fact, Naya feels so guilty, she feels that she has indirectly hurt Ares. Once, once or twice, he asked Ares the news of the children, through a chat message on his phone, and the man only answered as necessary.

Naya

"Sir, how are the children?"

Ares

"Thank God, the kids are fine, you don't have to worry."

Actually Ares' message like this makes Naya sad, even more sad when she meets him and remembers her past.

'Oh Allah. Did I make the wrong decision by telling the truth, so that the man felt that he had hurt me? Though indirectly he is like a hero that You sent me'

Can't everyone be a hero to others?

But at that time, Naya wanted to finish her sentence, with a conclusion that, she realized, sometimes the answer that God gave was present in the form of wounds and sadness, only, just that, people are reluctant to accept because they feel that is not the answer they want. But Ares is gone...

"Assalamualaik." Naya heard a cheerful voice from Rama who reprimanded Naya when lunch that day arrived.

"Glamma!" Answer Naya as she is.

"Hey, I saw you daydreaming all the time,

think what? think of me, huh?"

"Akh, no. Just plain," said Naya while serving Rama's order.

'Do you think about Mr. Ares, Nay? He often asks you if there is a meeting together, but always the message do not say the same to you. What is it with you and him?'

"Where are you with Dinda?" suddenly Naya switched the conversation.

"It's still the same."

"Oh. He's changed a lot, Rama. He's been so much better."

"Yes. I also see. Oh yes, Nay. His mother's sick, up in opnam."

"Maashaa Allah..when?"

"It's been almost a week, time, you don't know. Nay?"

"I don't know, Dinda didn't tell me that either."

"Yes, I told you."

"OKAY. Thank you for telling me. Here, drinks. Eat there, don't forget to pray," Naya said as she clenched a glass of unsalted tea at Rama, and the man smiled wryly while bringing his food to the cafeteria dining table.

'Yes, God. I have to go there today too'