The End of Hope
65 Eps. Did He Not See Me?
Naya rushed to the hospital by taxi. Dero only provided information on which hospital Rudian was being treated at. All the stuff that he had put in his bag, he just left it there. After arriving at the hospital, he immediately asked where Rudian was being treated at the information service.
Until the room in question, Naya stood for a moment, she still doubted whether she would ask Rudian to sign the divorce papers right now or later when he was cured? For humanitarian reasons, Naya postpones her wishes, but on the other hand she already has no place to stay as well as her aunt will soon depart, what is her action this time? Doubt is tinged, and then he enters.
'Later on, look at his condition'
After Naya opened the door to the room where Rudian's ward was, she smelled a bad smell, as well as the messy state of the room, the food marks on the table, the dirty clothes on the floor, and, in fact, the,
'You what is this? Like a room that has not been cleaned for days, is no one waiting here?'
Naya saw Rudian rubbed weakly, there was an infusion hose attached to his left hand, he looked to be asleep. He stood by the side of the bed, there was only Rudian there, there was no one else, this room was a room for two but the other bed was empty.
Curious about the unpleasant smell, Naya immediately checked around the room, she would not wake Rudian up. Because of the pity in his mind. Naya began cleaning the small table on the side of the bed, putting the trash in one plastic bag and cleaning the dirty clothes in one bag in another.
He came back to Rudian and finally he knew that the unpleasant smell was coming from him, the dirty clothes also spread the same smell.
Carefully he opened the blanket which turned out to be wet with a liquid of dirt that might come out of Rudian's body. Seeing all this, Naya took the initiative to buy instant diapers for adults that are commonly used for emergencies like today.
Naya returns after finding what she was looking for in a store closest to the hospital. Arriving at the room, now Rudian is not alone, there are Yola and Sarita who seem to have just reached the stone.
When they saw Naya, they both seemed to have just found the person they had long since missed. Naya was also surprised to get such a warm welcome from the person who had hurt her heart.
"Naya, finally, you're coming, na?" sarita asked gently while hugging Naya.Getting such reprimand Naya simply smiled and nodded.
"How are you, Nay?" yola asked, holding out her hand to greet Naya.
"I'm good. Thank God." answered Naya calmly.
Naya didn't say anything else. He felt no need to talk much with these two women.he approached Rudian who had opened his eyes, but just looked up, the ceiling of the hospital, did not blink, did not even see him.
'Rudy, are you awake?" naya asked, while keeping the adult diaper she bought on the table.
"Oh, so you're the one who was here, clean up this room, Naya?" sarita asked while patting Naya on the shoulder, and Naya simply nodded.
Rudian did not reply, but he flailed his hand as if looking for something. Naya let him go, so she pulled up the blanket and put it in the dirty clothes.
"Who are you?" asked Rudian when his flailing hand had managed to form Naya's shoulder.
'Why is he, can't he see me?'
"It's me, Naya." replied Naya, furrowing her eyebrows and turning to Sarita, asking for an explanation. But the middle-aged woman actually cried by tightly smothering her own mouth. He did so so that his crying voice would not come out.
"Lord!" rudian said, like trying to touch Naya's body more, or it was like trying to have her. Naya approached Rudian and at once Rudian hugged Naya tightly.
While Yola was just grumbling while throwing a look. She was not angry, even let what her husband did, she had expected that if Rudian met Naya, he would embrace her.
'It's an emergency, he's sick and blind. But why?'
If he is aware and fine, then contact without permission from him during the iddah period is not allowed. Unless you intend to referent.
"How are you, Naya? You're okay, right? I know you must have come sooner or later," Rudian said with a smile. Then release the hug.
"Hmmm..." Naya propped him up by muttering. Then walk to the bathroom. Setting up tools to clean Rudian.
"You stay here, I'll talk to you" Rudian said.
Naya prepared a washcloth and bucket of water, which was already in the bathroom, bringing her towards Yola, saying.
"I don't know if I can stay here or not" his eyes looked at Rudian and Yola alternately.
Suddenly Yola ran to the bathroom and she vomited with a loud and long voice. Naya took a deep breath. Then she undressed Rudian without any disgust and began to clean him, and put diapers on him. When he finished, he said,
"Where's the change?" put out a hand to Yola.
Dengab the face of the pajas and covered her mouth, Yola gave a sleep pajama stel that Rudian used to wear. Naya still remembers, she used to buy him those pajamas.
Naya almost let out a tear, while Sarita from earlier was just crying without a sound. He took special food for the patient when the clothes were neatly attached to Rudian's body.
"Rudi, eat, yeah. This is your food still intact. Do you want to be alone or be fed?"
"Boat me huh? I can't sit down." said Rudian without burden, he seemed to have resigned as well as his illness.
Naya adds a pillow to Rudian's head so that he can eat comfortably, Rudian can only move his head, hands and toes, but he can hardly do anything.
"You still work at the restaurant?" ask Rudian on the sidelines to eat.
"You're still in the old boarding house?"
"Still"
"But what's to say, before I got sick, the place was still in a land dispute. How can?"
"Don't think of anyone else's business. You're still sick. It is better to think of yourself." said Naya while continuing to feed Rudian. She turned to Yola, who was busy with her cell phone, sitting on the empty patient bed next to Rudian's bed.
'His heart has not changed, but her husband is sick'
Although a bit difficult, finally the process of eating while sleeping is complete. Naya looked satisfied. Indeed Rudian ate this devour every day, his will to ssmbuh was very large, although he knew the possibility was small.
The brain disorder he suffered had reached its final stage of development, after a process for many years. Multiple clerisis, or double sckerosis, a neurological disorder of the brain that can result in blindness or spinal disorders, and impaired body movement. This disorder will be temporary if not accompanied by other disorders of the brain. But other disorders result in paralysis of brain function in Rudian caused by the accident he had experienced, making his condition continue to decline over time.
After Rudian fell asleep because of the medicine he had taken, Naya sat side by side with Sarita in the waiting room of the hospital. Taking a deep breath, Naya hears everything Sarita tells her how Rudian came to be.
Naya was silent, contemplating while looking at the darkness of the night out there accompanied by the light of lights and flickering stars. Karma-kah? Wasn't this just a month, did karma really exist, and if it was karma for Rudian, why did he also experience the same pain? Honestly he still loves her, there is still affection for Rudian, even sometimes he still misses moments together.
'Am I a naive person, still loving someone who has hurt with this deep affection? wrong feelings?'
It was painful to see a loved one suffer such a fate. Rudian's hair bleached very quickly, even though he was very young. Naya used to think of it because of lack of nutrition or because Rudian likes to use hair oil excessively. Rudian was already very forgetful in every way, and he did not seem to gain weight despite eating a lot.
According to Sarita's story, it has been three days that Rudian is no longer treated in the ICU room and must use a Cardiograph. Later if a day until tomorrow the development is good, then he can go home. He meant that good development was Rudian no longer needed an infusion as an addition of drugs and vitamins to his body. But he will remain in his current condition. If he is lucky, then the spine and nerves in his eyes can function again.
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Sarita was visiting Rudian's house, because she wanted to see for herself the results of an ultra sonographic examination of the fetus conceived by Yola. He came with food at Rudian's request, because he wanted to save more. His needs increase, as Yola's sister is now home and he still hasn't made any money. So Yola and Rudian still have to bear their lives together, while the needs of the baby and the cost of giving birth must still be considered.
When Sarita came, the house was in a mess and there was no food. Until Sarita brought food, Rudian immediately ate with greed. It was like he had not eaten all day. Yola was seen relaxing on the bed, and Dero went somewhere.
At that time Sarita asked Yola to help her clean the house and advised her to keep a lot of cleaning, so that the baby would be white. Myths like this are still a lot of people. When pregnant must be like this and so so that later the baby can be like this and so.
It was then that Yola suddenly ran into the bathroom and vomited, long enough she was like that there. Panicked, Rudian quickly caught up with Yola, calling out YolaIa's name. Not noticing the slippery floor, Sarita had just mopped it. Until Rudian slipped, and fell, his head hit the wall, and fateful again, when he was about to rise he reached up and used the side of the table to support his weight. Because of the dizziness and vertigo he felt, Rudian fell back and hit his head again for the second time, right at the back of his head.
"Judge...!!" sarita screeched as Rudia looked like a pair of pinsan and motionless.
"Rudians! Rudian!" sarita said while crying and screaming, while Yola approached her husband's body guiltily, but helplessly.
"Why Rudi, ma'am?" tanya Yola sambi wiggled Rudian's body.
"Hurry up on the moon!" sarita shouted again in panic. Yola made a call to the local health service.
Sarita was still struggling, she patted her son's cheeks hard to wake up immediately, but it turned out Rudian could not bamgun until the next day.
Soon the ambulance came and immediately brought Rudian's body to the hospital, until then by the doctor he was sentenced to coma.
When Rudian fell into a coma in the emergency room, Rudian's body was like a breathing corpse. He's totally helpless. Initially treated there, Sarita could never stop her crying, she felt very guilty because she was not careful in acting, she felt very guilty towards Naya as well. He was afraid that this was called karma.
For two days in the carefree hospital icu, Rudian only received nutrients through infusion until his body looks thinner. Another bitter fact is that he was conscious of being unable to see, as his brain function was impaired. Also damaged spine that causes him to not be able to move freely.
Sarita often cried, so she could not keep Rudian in the hospital. Once in a day or two there was no one waiting for Rudian in the hospital. Yola and Sarita will come once a day if Yola comes home from work, and will be left if the night is sudden.
Sarita is still in shock, Yola will often vomit or get tired from having to work, Dero is impossible to keep, he never wants, even the boy suggested to persuade Naya. Bastian has to work, because the cost of the hospital will be borne both with Yola and Bastian.so that's the result, Rudian will only be visited every day. Though Rudian could not move, it was only natural that he had to shit on the bed of the hospital ward.
"So, now you don't want to stay in the hospital? How will Rudi be healed if he feels abandoned? no mother, no wife?" naya asks Sarita, who has finished her story.
That middle-aged woman then grabbed Naya's hand and asked her to wait for Rudian.
"Naya, please. Take care of your husband, you're still his wife because your iddah period is not over and you can still refer, how?
" Sir..."
"Naya, think again..."
Naya laughed at Sarita's plea. He felt like a fool who controlled his life only for personal gain.
"Later if I want to take care of Rudian, I also have to find my own food, I also still have to pay for my own residence, buy diapers myself, buy my own quota, buy my own quota, must be willing to wash Rudian's own clothes, what else must yaa.." said Naya there are still remnants of bitter memories with all maslah masalunya.
"Naya," said Yola suddenly Yola called out to him. Then he said again, "If you want to be a brother, you don't have to bother about eating. Relax about all that, I take care of it. Naya tried not to care.
She remembers, when she was Rudian's wife, no matter how much she tried not to care, in the end she still lost, and came back to care.