The Obsession Of Jerk
Chapter 44: The Realife

His hand held the doorknob and twisted it. Before he opened the door, Sean's voice made him stop his movements.

"What are the risks of treatment if Zee is pregnant?"

His body stopped moving, his blood rippled violently, his heart was beating fast again. His expression could not be described at this moment. His feelings suddenly mixed, his stomach was nauseous. A few seconds Zee fluttered in his place.

"For pregnant women, the risk of stress is higher and more vulnerable, not to mention the drugs that will be consumed." The voice that Zee recognized made his consciousness return.

Slowly and carefully, Zee closed the door again. He stepped back into his room with a flailing feeling. The night wind pierced his skin as soon as he opened the balcony door. He stepped still with an empty view towards the chair on the balcony and sat on it. His hand moved holding his still flat stomach, fixed with his blank look.

Feelings of sadness, anger, hate, despair, disappointment mixed into one. Negative thoughts begin to take hold of him. Unknowingly her nails hurt her wrists until blood dripped. Sobs began to sound, the claws getting stronger and more on his wrists.

"Babys!" sean shouted as he stopped Zee from continuing to hurt himself.

"Lino!" Sean's voice rose an octave as Zee continued to hurt his hand, ignoring Sean.

Sean took Zee into his arms. Her crying grew louder in Sean's arms. Sean patiently continues to stroke Zee's hair and kiss her trying to channel comfort and tranquility to the unstable Zee, at least for now. Long enough Zee cried roaring until slowly sobbing her tears slightly reduced. Only a mouthful came out of his mouth. Sean hasn't asked. He still calms her.

"Can you tell me why now?" sean asked without taking off his arms for a second after Zee stopped his crying. There was no answer that Zee gave.

"Bad dream, hm?" Zee remained silent not responding to Sean's question. However, a few seconds, he nodded once in Sean's arms.

"It's ok, It's just dream.. I'm here will protect you, Bae... It's ok," said Sean still by rubbing Zee's hair. He took off Sean's embrace and looked down at his injured hand.

"Wait here, I'll bring the medicine box." Sean kissed Zee's forehead and passed away.

"It's a relief" he whispered softly as he leaned his head against the back of the chair.

Sean returned with the medicine box in his hand and opened the medicine box and began treating Zee's hand painstakingly. Zee just stared at Sean without blinking in silence. Sean looked up at Zee who was looking at him with red and puffy eyes with a swollen and messy face.

"Is there anything you want to say?" asked Sean softly.

Zee pulled out his hand which Sean was treating and then got up to his feet and then walked away leaving Sean alone with a frown on his forehead. Sean followed Zee back into the room and covered his entire body with a blanket.

"Darling..." Sean crawled onto the mattress approaching Zee's body which was covered entirely.

Zee held back the blanket she was wearing and ignored Sean who kept trying to open the blanket. Sean gave up on pulling the quilt with Zee, but he still hasn't given up on asking this girl. A few seconds later, Zee no longer felt his blanket being pulled by Sean. Long enough for him to start feeling hot and stuffy. Suddenly a heavy breath was already blowing in his ears tickling his ear leaves making his hair bristling. Followed by the hand of someone who has hugged his stomach tightly.

Sean...

Zee opened the blanket that covered her body and turned to turn her back to Sean. He closed his eyes and didn't care about Sean.

"Cumbers..." Sean gently kissed Zee's slightly warm shoulders, he joined the body close to Zee until their bodies stuck.

"You're mad at me?" asked Sean softly.

Zee still chose to shut up with her eyes closed tightly. But with ears wide open to hear what Sean will say to her.

"Don't touch me!" snapped at Zee and looked at Sean in panic as well as fear.

"Hey babe...what's wrong? I'm not gonna hurt you, just calm down..." Sean reflex got up and looked at Zee worriedly.

He stood up to grab Zee's body which was a few centi apart. His outstretched hand wanted to hold his hand, but Zee avoided Sean's hand.

"Zee.. babe..." Sean's voice brought back Zee's consciousness. He looked at Sean with a look like he was worried about something.

Slowly the anxiety stroke disappeared, he sighed and held his head slightly by grabbing his hair. Without saying much he walked away leaving Sean.

Brak!

The sound of the toilet door being shut tight gave off quite a noise amid the silence inside Sean's room. Sean stood up from the bed and caught up with Zee who had just entered the toilet door. Sean's thoughts immediately led to that incident. The incident where Zee tried to end his life. And it happened in the bathroom.

"Zee..."

"Darling..." Sean knocked several times the door in front of him that was locked from the inside.

"Babe, are you ok?" asked Sean who didn't hear any sound from inside.

Sean's getting crazy banging on a door that Zee doesn't show at all. Zee grew tired of hearing the screams and pounding that kept coming from Sean. After washing his face, he came to the door and opened it.

"I'm just tired and want to continue my sleep. Sean. Please don't bother me. I want to be alone." Zee first let out his voice cutting Sean who was about to raise his voice.

Zee walks past Sean while massaging the base of his nose. Sean followed Zee who was already sitting on the mattress while covering his body. "Well if you're just tired and want to continue sleeping. I'm not gonna bother you." Sean takes over the blanket from Zee's hand and covers Zee's body.

"But please don't be like that anymore, honey.don't hurt yourself again Zee." Zee again did not answer. Just turned his body back to Sean and began to close his eyes.

"I feel like I've always failed to take care of you when I saw you do it. I failed to be the one you could trust to say your grievance. I failed to make you happy. So please don't hurt yourself anymore. Because it's hurt me too Zee." Sean said softly in his last sentence.

Zee with all her might held back her trembling body as her tears began to fall back. He squeezed the blanket he was wearing and closed his eyes. His emotions are really unstable right now. For a while he had to avoid Sean first.

"I'm in my study if you need anything, yeah. Nice dream, Bae." Sean gently dyed Zee's hair and turned off the room lights.

The sound of the door opening and closing again made Zee's cry break instantly. He beat his stomach strongly hoping that everything that happened to him was just a nightmare. However, as hard as he tried all this was not a dream that he could just forget when he woke up. This is the reality of his life that he hates more and more. Why was this innocent baby present at such an inopportune time?

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