Falling Into Your Trap
The Destroyed Wedding; Noren

Noren has never had a malfunction in his life. Since the beginning of the path of life written by both parents and arranged neatly may never turn into a failure. In fact, he never remembered that he made even the slightest mistake that made his footing foundation collapse resulting in chaos that would result in a huge aspect loss.

Nor does Noren ever remember whether he ever fell on his way of growing and developing. Everything he wanted was achieved for free. Everything is perfect, nothing is wrong. So, why did he feel that he was in the destruction of the world he was treading on? Why does it feel like his heart just exploded in his chest cavity?

Right, he's broken. His soul and mind are not the same as humans in general. He's seeing a psychiatrist, right. But it was his personal damage. None of the ones he held suffered the same damage as himself. However, what is this? Noren was never ready to get any damage out of himself. He was never prepared for the destruction of his perfect and flawless life plan.

But, everything was smashed apart, a burst of unceremonious flames right at the moment that should have been his happiest day. He never predicted events that made him unable to do anything, unable to think faster, clearer. Where is that reflex that he so proudly has?

Everything was proceeding very slowly in both of his defected eyeballs. His life was felt uprooted when he saw the figure he loved leaping freely into the air. Falling in the strong gravitational pull of the earth.

Noren couldn't describe how he felt. Everything feels broken, not just the individual in him, but everything he wants in his life. The figure he loved and he dreamed of during the crazy years he spent loving. He can't breathe. Tight, very tight. It felt like he could do nothing. His brain was dead, motionless, unable to. Noren never felt like this. He's scared shitless, half dead,

His body shook violently. It took a few seconds rather long to battle with the deadlock of his brain and the nervous jamming of his body to move. To immediately run limped towards the place where Nalisa jumped into the air. His eyes blurred, his steps were shaken along with the unbroken pull of his voice shouting his love name.

Noren was crushed right in front of the 400 invited guests watching. Many shouted, many were shocked to death to see the attempted murder before their eyes. Noren doesn't care. He did not care how this ruined appearance was. He didn't even care when he bumped into some important invited guests around his path. All he needed right now was to head to Nalisa's place. See what happened to the woman.

“Ngak.. This is not possible. Nalyse.. Natisa...” She sobs. Noren doesn't care that he wheezed. All he had to do was see how the condition of the woman he loved so much was.

If Nalisa chose to end her life because of what Noren did to her, this crazy and broken she would not think twice about following in her footsteps. Noren never thought that Nalisa would become that determined to escape from him. To escape the prison Noren made for the woman. Noren is unable, unable to think that he will lose Nalisa in this world and will not see her charming smile and make his heart always pounding.

“NALISA! NALISA!!”

He shouted again when he had not yet reached his destination. His heart was traveling harder than the wind that was currently starting to blow faster than usual.

“No! No way! NO WAY!! NALISA'S BACK!! NALISAA!!”

“GO! GO!! GET OFF MY ROAD!! MOVE!!!!!”

His voice was not he ignored. The pain in his leg from hitting the side of the chair and table blocked his path and the few people crowding the location made him angry. His heart was more unkempt. He has to see Nalisa, he has to make sure that the woman doesn't have any machete damage. He had to believe himself that Nalisa wasn't dead.

Nalisa will not leave him in this world.

His breathing was choked, his eyes unable to see properly due to the blurring of the blocking water. His brain was still dead, unable to think clearly. His body trembled even more so as his mind began to drift to blame himself. Noren shook his head, trying not to beat up anyone in his path. He heard his mother yelling at the many people around to hold him back. He doesn't care, Noren wants to see Nalisa. Noren wants to make sure that Nalisa is just lying to him.

Nalisa's alive, Nalisa's still breathing. Nalisa wouldn't leave him with this kind of stupid silliness. No, it's not Nalisa who's stupid. Therehewas. The stupid Noren, the jerk Noren, the Noren that made Nalisa do this crazy thing.

“Please.. please.” she cried. This time it was a real cry when his mother started shouting loudly to the guards or guests around him to keep him from wanting to jump in the footsteps of Nalisa.

“RESISTANT! PLEASE ANYONE HOLD MY CHILD!!” Jessica's voice could be heard as clear as the wind, even from her buzzing ears.

“DON'T LET HIM JUMP!!! HOLD MY SON! PLEASE HOLD MY CHILD!!!”

Noren scavenged as his body was being held by several people larger than him. He groaned, trying to break away. A lot of the noise he put out. He just wanted to see Nalisa. He just wanted to know that Nalisa was fine. Please, anyone, he just wishes he had heard that Nalisa wasn't dead. That her love didn't actually do a suicide scene to torment her.

Noren was sure he was going crazy. Noren believes he's more than crazy if he hears bad news about Nalisa's condition. He wants to go to Nalisa's place soon. He'll jump, Noren will jump and throw away all his sanity to follow in the footsteps of the woman.

Damn, he loved Lisa so much that he could think of nothing but death. Besides following that woman wherever Nalisa goes. If Nalisa chooses to end her life, Noren will go after her. He did not care, thinking about life without the woman alone he was no longer able.

“Nalisa secure. He's safe, son. Now hush. Relax... Relax, Noren!”

Breathing's tight. He tried to take something he could control. But impossible. Her ears were like being soaked in a hot water stew. He could hear nothing but the roar of his breath and the destruction of his heart that exploded to the smallest invisible shards.

“Nalisa.. Naly…. Don't.. don't stay with me. please.”

Weak-headed. Noren swore he had never felt this weakness. The lowest point he had in his entire life was this. He was unable to become human anymore, he was unable to control his body. Cold sweat the size of corn seeds was everywhere. Dizziness, it felt like his head was crushed using an iron hammer.

His blood rose, trying to overwhelm all the emotions he was feeling at the moment. Hyperventilation was never a thing in his life. But here he is now. When he fell on both knees, all he remembered was the hotel staff who immediately carried him to stay upright and conscious.

But he didn't want to just hear people's calls about Nalisa. He's got to see it for himself. And that's what Noren did. With the little energy he still had, Noren moved. Tranquil but firm. He wanted to see with his own eyes.

Despite the weight, he was finally able to look down. Right in front of his eyes, though small and tears were not very helpful, there was an object that he believed to be a rescue tool for Nalisa. And also, when he shifted his gaze, there Nalisa was in someone's arms.

Noren has to make sure. He has to make sure that Nalisa is safe. The flop is never zero, but it certainly is. So, with every sanity cell in his brain, he ran again. Noren never felt how hard he tried his body to do all these things, but he ran.

He ran with a tremendous panic. He knows he's not alone. But he didn't care who followed behind him. His mind was unusually foggy. Noren doesn't care if he's out of breath while using the emergency stairs at some point. But when his energy was too much absorbed, he allowed himself to be dragged by a few people to enter the elevator.

Noren has never been this sweet in his life span, but here he is. His eyes stared at the reflection of the figures in the elevator that was getting down. He couldn't wait to be on the ground floor of the place where Natisa was now. He needs to know about the woman's condition. So, when the elevator was already open, he could not wait to run again.

It took him a long time to scream in pain like a possessed man to get to the place he was referring to. And when he got there. He fell down, fell down with all the relief that existed when Huston had already gotten there and carried his son. The man's face was panicked not playful, deathly pale and impatient.

Noren slumped closer, but Huston forbade him with just one stern look. But there is a gesture that indicates that Nalisa is still safe. Nalisa was still breathing in her father's arms. That'sthat's all. That's all Noren needs to let go of all the fear that binds him to the root of his sanity.

He could not hold his weight so he stepped in with little energy left to rest on the nearby wall from his place. With a deathly pale face and bluish lips swollen from having unconsciously bit him on several occasions, Noren rubbed his face with his trembling hands. The look in his eyes was unfocused, but it was straight at one point of hope to look up and down Nalisa's breath meticulously. Strive to make sure the woman he loves stays breathing and alive.

Nalisa is alive. That's all he needs.

An ambulance sounded from a distance. Whoever managed to call the medical team seems to have arrived to handle the situation. Noren stood up quickly as the paramedics quickly opened the stretcher and Huston was helped by them putting Nalisa's body there.

“I came” He immediately volunteered to go accompany her as Huston and paramedics prepared to enter the ambulance.

His eyes were empty, but full of hope in every fiber of sound he let out.

“No.” Huston final sound. So sharp and hard. Typical of a father who is trying not to be damaged to make sure his child gets the best care.

“Please, Pa. Barin Noren.. Let me take care of Lisa too”

Lips vibrate. Asking for hope to be granted. But it seems Huston is still stubborn. He did not want Noren to interfere in the affairs of caring for girls only his puppet. But Noren can't let Narisa out of his sight for now. He should know that Nalisa will be fine and not one less. But Huston refused, telling him to leave so as not to disturb him.

“No yes no. Go, don't block the meds! Don't block me!” Huston snapped again, but Noren did not want to lose. He could not leave without seeing Nalisa fine and had been properly handled in the hospital.

“Sorry sir, the patient should be treated immediately. There is no time to argue. Who will accompany the patient to the hospital?”

One of the medics holding the stretcher spoke out loudly. They should go to the hospital right now. Huston quickly told paramedics to immediately lift Nalisa into the ambulance. Panicked Noren, immediately pulled Huston's hand and knelt down. He knelt down to beg. He must accompany Nalisa. He had to make sure Nalisa was handled properly.

“Please, Pa! please let me send Lisa to the hospital. Please, I want to make sure he's all right. I know Papa's panicking. But me too, Pa. I'm scared, I'm afraid that I'm staying here and I don't know what's going to happen with Nalisa. Pa, I know it's all my fault. Not surprisingly, let me nemenin Lisa and definitely Nalisa is fine. After that, Papa wants to kick me out too. Please, Pa. for this one Noren please be as big as Papa. barin Noren nemenin you to the hospital..”.

Noren had no idea that chest-stifling cry was like this. She just found out that begging can hurt her self-esteem that never falls. But it's not about self-esteem anymore, Noren is even ready to kowtow if Huston still doesn't allow him to go with them.

“Noren-,”

“Pa. please. Noren begged the big one. Noren doesn't care papa wants to be angry with me, Papa wants to upset me, Papa wants to teach me, lanternsin everything because it has made Nalisa like this. But this time, please Noren, Pa. Noren's scared shitless, Pa. same as Papa. Noren just needs certainty about the state of Nalisa. please.”.

Noren lowered his posture again. With all her heart, she had no problem humiliating her already broken degree. He didn't care about his image this time. All he needed was some peace of mind to confirm Nalisa's condition. That's all he needs now and Noren won't let go of this one request.

“Pak, sorry patients should be treated immediately. This time there is no time. The doctor is on the spot and we should come immediately to prevent fatal errors due to delays. The introductory capacity is enough for two people. If not soon, we will further endanger the emergency of patient” Paramedics again demanding that Huston make a decision.

Noren knows he's selfish. But he can't let go of this. The man could not think clearly. His head was unable to provide any other solution he could do to keep abreast of the development of Nalisa's state.

Huston looked very angry. Noren knew that he would get physical injuries for this later, but his shrunken heart felt very airy as Huston simply nodded and pulled his hand from Noren's grip. They are now scrambling to get into an ambulance. It took a while, but it passed very quickly.

Noren still felt his body tremble instead of playing. As he sat in the ambulance, he could see how Nalisa was handled by paramedics for the first treatment for the wound. Look for what's wrong and keep a close eye on the patient's heart rate and breathing. Her breathing was choked when she saw the wide wound on the left leg of the woman.

His body was limp not playing when he saw a lot of blood pouring from the torn wound that was almost invisible where the wound was clear. The wedding dress that Noren had proudly chosen for Nalisa was already thick with the girl's blood on various sides.

“Nalisa..” His lips call the woman's name. His eyes rose to the top to see the pale face of Nalisa who was now covered by an oxygen mask. The woman's hand had been held tightly by Huston whose eyes were fixed on her daughter's face.

Noren was unable to support himself anymore. He just wished there was nothing wrong about the woman. As long as they were on their way to the hospital, Noren never stopped to pray for Nalisa to stay safe and nothing less. All I could think of was the safety of Nalisa. The life of the woman he loved was more precious than anything in the world.

For this time, Noren finally knew what destruction felt like. How does it feel not to have any power that can support his footing. How does it feel to feel guilty. And what it's like to be the bad guy.

Noren. is a bad guy who holds Nalisa in a prison called Love. Bittersweet, but this is the reality that Noren has to face now.

Self-awareness of the mistakes he made. The ugly green monster within him had managed to ruin all of his life.

Noren is not capable. He felt like he was drowning in a vast and deep ocean. He felt dragged in a wave of error that struck him like a heartless great storm.

...…...

Noren, for all he really doesn't want to do right now is take care of everything to shut up the media and the 400 invited guests who attended and witnessed the destruction of his life and marriage. Now, he's in a very busy office where he shouldn't have set foot for a month because of the honeymoon he's been planning for so long.

His office is very busy because they have to work hard to dispel the media that contains news about his failures and downfalls. In fact, Nabila alone looks very frustrated with the phone handle that has never been separated from his hand.

After learning that Nalisa's condition is fine and she only suffered a fracture in the left leg where it will be able to heal and return to normal again in a relatively long time, although it does not take years, but it will improve again. That's all Noren needs to know. Even though he was in this place before Nalisa was aware of his long sleep after pen-mounting surgery to position and maintain the position of the broken bone.

Nalisa is fine. That's enough. And Noren here is responsible for not hurting her by saving the woman's good name from spreading. Right, he's not here right now to save himself. He did not pay the silent money to the reporters and did the press conference as quickly as he could to prevent the news from plunge into the media and also this frustration to keep things stable and safe just for the good name of himself and the company that is on the edge.

Whatever now he will do in the name of his immense love for a. No matter the losses he incurred were almost in the hundreds of billions, it did not matter that his property was drained. To be sure, he must eradicate all things that will destroy the good name of the Cakrawijaya family. That'sallthatis. That's enough.

“Pak, I've spoken to the owner of MediaTV SatuNusa to close all news information about your marriage. That's the last media we've ever contacted. They ask for more money to keep their mouths shut than the station next door.. Is that okay, sir?”.

Nabila, who already looked very tired asked for answers to her dazed questions. Noren, with both eyes that have been decorated by thick eye bags due to the inability to rest overnight because it takes care of all these problems and also.. the feeling of guilt that befell him in such a way and haunted him with a very loud punch immediately replied in a flat voice that he was barely able to let out again.

“Pay only. Direct transfer to their account” His eyes refocus on the tablet with several websites open. Still noticing if anyone escaped the preview he had been doing for hours. “Dan told them, if there was even one bad news about Cakrawijaya and Giovano escaping, I would flatten their company in a blink”

“Good, Sir. I will directly deliver it”

Noren sighed, letting Nabila back do his job. There is a sense of guilt that comes because he is in a very vulnerable state. But he mustn't be careless about this. Everything must be dealt with completely without any leakage.

“I've notified them sir, and they swear they'll filter all the news coming in. Ah, I also have got the signature of the agreement letter which ensures that what they say will be fully guaranteed”

“Good work, Nabila. What is the social media section now? Twitter, facebook? Instagram? Tiktok.. safe? Media abroad? No one escaped one?” He made sure again. Because, once scattered, there will be no such thing as forgiveness and its spread is very fast. Noren didn't want that to happen. He has to be very thorough about this.

“So far, our social media division has not reported any news or leaked videos, Pak” Nabila replied calmly. “If you are still thinking, I will call to confirm it again to Miss Agnes”

“Please.”.

Noren sighed, leaning his tired body against his big chair that never felt as tender as usual. Everything is stiff and hard. He did not know if it was indeed because of himself who could not relax or indeed his chair had to be replaced with a new interior.

“If it's still safe, keep tightening. If you can rent more buzzers and immediately close the accounts that spread it. I don't care if it's a big domestic or foreign account. Whatever threatens the damage of the company's good name and Cakrawijaya must be immediately resolved” his voice is deep, firmly merciless despite the fatigue dripping from there.

“Good, Sir, understandable”

Noren nodded. He allowed his secretary to call the division on duty tirelessly. Noren himself was not sure how he could still function. Perhaps this was the strength of his knowledge of the state of Nalisa that was able to be handled by the best Doctor in the country. Maybe also because of the smooth closing of bad news out there that is disturbing.

It didn't matter whether he still hadn't slept and rested or not. He just needs an update on Nalisa's condition and everything is safely under control.

Noren turned around, turned his back to his desk to look at the sky from the large glass of his room. His eyes were red and tired. But he was afraid. Noren is afraid to sleep because he believes darkness and guilt will eat him alive. He would fall in a tremendous spiral of misery for almost being an assassin.

Someone who will kill the woman he loves so much. That hurts it's terrible. He could see his own bloody hand. No, it's not his blood, it's Nalisa's. With a sharp gaze and incredible courage dripped from there. To haunt Noren all day as if he were cursing all his terrible and terrible deeds.

“Pak.. Mr Giovano?”

“Ya?” in a surprised tone, Noren regained his senses when Nabila called out. He turned back to look at Nabila who was looking at him with a look of worry and pity.

Haha. Thats cute. Pity.

Noren doesn't deserve to be pitied. He was the one who took blood from Nalisa. He is a criminal. He should not be pitied because he is the doer who caused his love to experience great problems and almost leave this world. Leaving his side forever.

“Pak, sorry if I was presumptuous. It seems like you should rest now. Everything is safe and in control. Social media is constantly monitored throughout the day for this entire week. I'm not pretentious, but you look like you really need a break. Everything will be fine, sir. I can't be sure but for everything you've done today, I'm sure everything will be fine”

Sometimes, Noren does not pay much attention that Nabila is a Secretary who will never be replaced. The woman was good with her work and was even able to make Noren realize his own too messy self. The man gave a small smile, his first smile after a day of war with the media's shut-in craziness. The man said thank you in an unconscious slurred voice that he could do it.

He should not look vulnerable in front of others who are not close to him, but all the burdens he now bears, he feels unusually tired. Noren felt he was incapable, he could not. He was weak, he could not put on his powerful mask anymore properly and properly.

Noren felt bitter. He's a criminal. He is a monster. And now, he was bearing all the evil he had committed. I think it's nothing. Still haven't.

“Thanks a lot Nabila. Go home, you've worked so hard today. I will be giving bonuses and raises for this month. Again, I am very grateful for your help”

“Ah, no need, sir. This time, I am very happy to help you. I also hope that Ms. Cakrawijaya will be fine. I pray for his health and healing”

Reminding Nalisa again and again, Noren felt her chest pounding with pain. Natisa has not been conscious post-surgery. The doctor made sure he was okay. Noren suddenly felt very anxious to see Nalisa. Now, it's okay, isn't it? At least, even though he was expelled, he could still figure out how the woman was doing with his own two eyes.

“Thanks for your concern. Go home, I'll be home soon too. Again, thank you very much for working so hard, Nabila”

And with that, Noren allowed himself to go out first. Don't want to talk any longer. While Nabila tidied up his belongings, Mr. Chandra who was his personal assistant came to pick him up. Noren will go straight to the hospital where Nalisa is staying.

The ride in the car felt so long more than usual. The streets are not as crowded as usual. But Noren knew why he felt this way. It felt longer, longer to torment him every second and time that passed. Every time he was dumbstruck and silent, his mind raged and his heart was pounding dripping with blood of fear and an overwhelming feeling of guilt.

True, Noren admitted that what he did was very inappropriate. His mind passed by three months ago. Where he tries to get Nalisa's heart but never succeeds so he is frustrated and lets his ugly monster rule him completely. He gets Nalisa trapped in him and she takes refuge behind the word love. Behind his feelings that were already too poisonous even to himself.

Long ago, he would say the sentence of defense that this was his first time falling in love and was very confident he would be able to make his first love also re-see it like a classic spectacle of antiquity that often he watched silently in his spare time. Although not often, but his very ambitious self feels enough and arrogant that he will get the same happy ending results as what he watched at that time.

But reality runs counter to what he dreams of. He should be able to control himself and wait even longer. Let Nalisa warm herself to him. Develop the same feelings for him. Not by the coercion line. Noren is self-aware. He was already completely convinced that he deserved to be hit by thousands of blows to make him excused.

Excused.

I don't know why it sounds so bitter. He remembered that the light had tried to stop him. Her best friend and older sister of her first and last love of a lifetime tried to make her realize that she was doing the wrong thing. That this won't end well like what's happening now. But all he did was mock and humiliate his best friend. Hit the Rays right over the hole of weakness she knew her best friend had.

Noren never cried, but the last two days Noren could not stop his painful tears and regrets. It felt as if he was drowned alive then burned by the flames of regret that blazed like lava on a volcano when it cast another object that caused the mass change on that ferocious hot lava.

Noren was finally able to admit that he was guilty. That he had made a fatal mistake that required more than an apology. Now, he realized that he had been wrong. That he had hurt Lisa. That she would need some time to get back close to that woman.

One thing he feared was, Nalisa would never forgive him for the rest of her life. Noren didn't want that to happen, but somehow. He's capitulating.

Noren wants to give up.

But it still feels wrong, still burning.

He's got to stop here. Otherwise, she would cry again. This time right in front of Mr. Chandra and the taxi driver who was a stranger he never knew.

“Pak, We've reached”

It only took one sentence from Mr. Chandra for Noren to get out of the cab immediately. Walk her feet to enter and as soon as possible to the place where she can see her beloved. His head was full of questions about the state of Nalisa. Is he human? Is she okay? How's she feeling now?

Noren is hoping for the best, whatever it is for Nalisa's situation right now. He let Mr. Chandra stay to take care of their travel payments. His head was full of Nalisa and he could not stop himself from going faster than he should have done. But Noren is grateful that he didn't run, otherwise he would have been ridiculously reprimanded by the sisters on duty and he didn't want to look more stupid than he already was.

AMARILYS. VIP ROOM 1 – 001

Ms. Nalisa Rebulan Cakrawijaya

Noren had no idea that he could still lift his lips to comment on the smile even if it was just a small pull. His feet brought him to a stop at the door of the room. His heart beats unbecoming. There is an overwhelming feeling of fear and guilt that still dominates it. He knew that his existence would definitely not be accepted by the woman. But he just wanted to make sure that Nalisa was okay. That'sallthatis.

Noren hopes Nalisa doesn't kick him out even if it's the most impossible thing.

His hand is now on the doorknob. He just turned it around and invited himself in. But there are still many doubts, there are still many things that make it fight in the head.

Noren just had to be a selfless person and ask for forgiveness directly to Nalisa by kneeling down. He won't falter. Even though he was still in pain, his heart was still struggling with all the emotions he could not call one-on-one, he was ready to kowtow to convince his woman that he had made a mistake. That he is conscious and he will do his best to change. Maybe it is not instant, but he will do further self-introspection.

At least he tried.

But something pushed him back. Inside, in Nalisa's nursery, she could see the woman awake and fully conscious. His heart warmed as the woman laughed with a very bright face. Despite not knowing what he was up to so cheerfully, Noren felt unusually relieved.

But there Nalisa is not alone. Noren was sure he knew who was accompanying Nalisa this time. Right, it's an Alpino.

Noren withdraws. His feelings were unable to be interpreted anymore. His hand moved to grip the side of his chest where his heart was hit with a painful throbbing. When did he ever make Nalisa so happy and so relaxed? When did he ever make Nalisa laugh out loud and comfortable beside him without the coercion and nagging that woman put out?

When did Noren ever see Nalisa with such an extraordinarily beautiful radiant face? The aura emanated so beautifully and Noren just.. Noren was just knocked back.

His breathing now grew extremely tight. The man clenched his empty hand. Trying not to get any more crazy. But his emotions were too strong that he vented it by hitting the crest just below the signboard. The wall was not broken, but his hand was bruised by how hard he hit even with just one punch.

His pushy eyes, stared with a twinkle of wailing pain and regret at his hands that were still lodged in the wall. His head advanced for him to pin it to the same spot, muttering weakly to pity himself.

“lo is still full of useless confidence. You're still an ugly monster that can't control yourself. Lo loser, Noren. Loser.”

Noren tried to calm himself down. Taking as deep a breath as he could, he decided to just go home. Lamenting regrets and trying to become a normal human being who is still functioning.

Just as he turned around to return, he found his mother carrying a parcel in front of him. Surprised to find his eldest son there with both shoulders down and pain radiating strongly.

“Noren..”.

“Ma.”

Her steps were limped as she approached Jessica. Weakly, she wrapped her hands together to hug her mother. Her tears fell down the clothes around Jessica's shoulder.

Ah.. Noren forgot when he had cried in the arms of the Mother like now, which was certain, this time he could not hold anything back.

There was a white flag that he was waving imaginally as he tightened his embrace on the Mother. The silent cry became a small sob when Jessica patted the dear tired back of Noren.

He finally decided to give up.