Falling Into Your Trap
Apology and Guilt; Fear 2/2

”Gue nasty, Kak”

Hala knew that that should not be what he said first to remove the silence in the room room which was only illuminated by a lamp sleeping on the nightstand next to the mattress that they were currently sitting on. Hala did not know how she ended up in the room of Sinar with the man clasping his hand as if he would never let go at any time.

But Hala has to end it now. He could not continue to hurt the light like this. Light must find someone else who can love him with all his heart. It wasn't her who couldn't take Hexa off her heart at all even though her best friend had turned into a mad monster that scared her to death and reawakened her long-standing panic attacks that she had managed to control.

”Why all of a sudden, babe?” Sound Soft light. Warm and sweet when all the man did was worry about him and right now his thumb was focused on stroking the back of his hand.

”Gue nasty same lo, Brother. Lo don't pantes get me this jerk” He continued. Although it felt like stabbing himself with being a mentally ill person, for Sinar to escape from it was one mission he had to do right now.

”Who said, that, hm? Don't think of anything weird, yeah. The story will be later, okay? Rest yes, dear” Eyes The loving rays aimed at Hala blatantly without any shame at all.

Hala could not see all the love in the eyes of the light. He could not bear it because the guilt continued to eat him alive.

”Gue was ci*uman with Hexa, Sister. And I enjoy what he sells to me”

It hurts to say something completely different to what happened. The tightness in Hala's chest spread like poison that quickly processed to kill him. His head screamed that that was not what he should have told Sinar. That's not what he should have told the man. He should thank Sinar, explaining the whole situation.

But what's going on? He chose to be a jerk and shameless.

Hala couldn't. He swore that he could not continue to get love from Sinar while he himself could not repay everything equally for the innocent man.

The light stayed for a long time. Hala could not continue to be in this silence or she would cry. The woman would roar to Sinar to apologize for hurting the man. It has disappointed the light in such a way.

All Hala had to do now was, make Sinar hate her. That way, Sinar knows that he loves the wrong person. Let the light hate him. It was faster than what the man had now given her.

”Darling..don't joke that, dong. Not funny, tau” Sinar chuckles. Although weak and feels very forced because his body looks stiff. Hala wailed in heart. Screaming as the grasp of Light tightened in his hand and trembled finely.

”Gue can not continue my commitment the same lo, Brother. You deserve someone better than me. I've never been able to return your feelings at all, brother. I still love Hexa. I don't want to hurt you worse than this” Her voice came out hoarse. It felt like there was a fish bone stuck in her throat, Hala tried to stabilize her voice to make it appear that she was not wavering.

”Hala.. please. I don't want.” Light whispering. His body fell in a posture that showed his weakness.

Hala threw away her face. He could not see a ray more broken than this. He did not want Sinar to be with a broken person like himself. He wanted to save the Light from the same destruction. However Hala told the truth that she still could not love Sinar like the man loved her as much as the ocean.

”Kak. Don't force me. I can't like you anywhere either. I've betrayed you behind you. You should be disappointed with me, brother. Don't be stupid just because of me. I want to stop. We're done, yes, Kak”

There's no question. Hala says it with a dot at the end of the sentence. He wanted to release the Light so that the man could find his other happy. Hala does not want to bring Rays into a toxic relationship. The light must be free from him like it or not.

”Gue is not! Hala, I love you! I don't care what you do behind me as long as I know that you belong to me, La. No, I don't want to let you go. Please.please Hala.m I've had enough of my life to mess with. I can't help it if you leave me too, Hala... Pleases. Don't leave me. Don't.”

The sound of light sounded painful in his ears. Hala did not want to see how the current expression of Rays was. He's not capable. If he saw the damaged Rays as well, he was afraid that he would say everything to the man without lacking any one. He did not want Ray to go any further into his problem. Had enough.

But the hand of Sinar was getting tighter. The vibration was getting stronger and the sound of Rays sounded hoarse and fragile. Looks like she's gonna cry. Hala wanted to beat herself up if the man cried in front of her. The light cannot cry, he is a strong man. The light must not weep because of this evil self.

”Kak. I can only hurt you. I still like Hexa, Brother. I don't feel the same even when we have a commitment. I-I,”

”Gue don't care!”

Hala jerked her face back at the light. His eyes were perfectly rounded when he saw how broken the Light before him was. The man was crying. Tears spilled bit by bit on the tired face of Sinar.

Hala felt slashed.

It shouldn't be like this.

Hala heard the breath of the vibrating light. Although unlike her, the tears of Light continued to descend from her two eyes slowly and endlessly. The light did not sob, but his reaction showed how raw the man's emotions were now.

”Gue doesn't matter you play behind me even though I don't believe you can afford to do that. But I dare swear, I will not problemin it as long as I can still point to lo how much I feel until I can make you melt the same I Hala. I dare to take risks. I dare to be sick to you. So please don't, huh? Don't stay in me.”

Look at Hala, what the woman has done to a man as pure as the Light.

”Kak. don't.”

Hala was unable to continue his firm attitude of expelling the Rays. He felt drowned again.the taste that had destroyed him now came back again.Tears burst out, but the Light with its natural warmth immediately moved to wipe him with his thumb. There was a faint smile on the man's face and in the end, Hala collapsed.

”If you keep kayak gini.. Sister. I can't.”

”Please be honest with me, Hala. honestly what happened until you got scared like that? What makes you so sweet? Please dear. I almost died scared of squirming you just now. The story to me the real incident? Can be beautiful?”

The soft words of Rays are like hypnotizing him to tell everything to Rays. Among her stuffing that came back because of the fear that she could not bear anymore, Hala pondered everything that happened. From the start his mother who hurt his heart before he confessed to Hexa. Then Hexa turned into a person she did not know. Heksa who forced her to return and become selfish until Heksa who abused her without her consent.

Everything Hala told the Light who listened patiently. Despite all that, Hala knew that Sinar was angry. His jaw was tense as he absorbed all of Hala's explanations to the end. If Hala had not reflexively pulled the man's hands together in one frightened grasp, Hala was sure that Sinar would have risen and punched Hexa right in the jaw.

”Gue. I'm a traitor, brother. Lisa's.. Lisa hates me, brother. I've added to Lisa's list of destruction. I'm a jerk, brother. I don't deserve to be Lisa's best friend. I'm afraid I'm afraid of losing Lisa. Lisa is my most beloved friend, my sister. But I ruined his trust and I know. I know very much Lisa hates the same traitor”.

“Shh.. It's not your fault, dear. Lisa must understand that we're obviously doing well, okay? You are not wrong. You're forced. Don't worry, huh? I'll help you solve your problems with Lisa. It's okay, okay?” Again, Sinar persuaded him with the extra patience he had.

The gaze of the light was too excessive for his heart. Hala could not take a chance like this but Sinar always kept thrusting her at him. Give it openly and shamelessly.

”Kak.. Sorry me.”

Small voice. She's exhausted.

”Nnothing dear. You are never wrong from the beginning. We're taking a break, huh? You must be tired, right? Come on, let's sleep here with me”

Hala did not rebel when Sinar helped her to lie down. The man quickly positioned them in the middle of the bed. His hands tightly hugged Hala as they ended up under a warm and soothing blanket. The small kiss he took to calm Hala and lull her into a dream.

”Kak. My face is wet. Later sis clothes follow wet.” she whispered, afraid to disturb.

”Oh. Wanna wash your face first, hgga?” The light quickly offers.

But the idea of moving away from this warmth was not very approved by Hala's exhausted brain. So, Hala simply shook her head and glued her face as a whole on Sinar's chest. The man's heartbeat made him sleepy. Although she should feel guilty like a bad person, Hala would ignore her now that her eyes were too heavy to stay awake.

The last thing he could remember before falling asleep was the soft sound of Rays in his ears and a small peck on his forehead that did not even feel at all as if it was just a past breeze. But, those words would make Hala's sanity kill him for being the most jerk on the face of this earth.

”Sleep soundly, unfortunately Sinar. I love you so much, La”

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...Apology And Guilt; Fear 2/2...

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