Falling Into Your Trap
About Taste (Hexa Sight) : Unexplained Emotions
Heksa was not sure how long he stared at the computer screen containing data and systems that he was still unable to complete at all. He also did not know how long he had been awake.
Resting became something difficult when he could not control to the beautiful dreamland he wanted. Even about that, Hexa had also forgotten that beautiful dreams can be defined as what they look like.
Four cans of coffee he bought at a nearby supermarket from the office littered his desk. Hexa had no idea how she had not thrown the empty cans into the nearest trash can that was only seven steps away from her room. But, he found himself not so concerned.
Then the worker walks around like a meaningless bee hum, a strange whisper and a reprimand that comes into blunt speech that is unable to be defined by his bare brain leaping.
There was nothing wrong, Hexa offered her that belief. Because actually, there was nothing wrong in his life. Everything goes leisurely as how there is a daily routine that was previously Hexa Lakoni, of course, he was very poulted out of his head.
However, even though he always told himself that nothing was different, nothing had changed and not even anything disturbed him at all, he lied. Hexa knew she was lying to herself. Because in fact, the earth has shifted south. Or it's north, or it's a bit southwest.
It was like his world was split into two parts that were not as big. The earthquake that hit like a sharp knife that ravaged him felt real.
Hexa didn't want to think about it at all. But she could feel how her world was turning upside down when Hala expressed her romantic feelings towards the man. Everything changes after Hexa finds out that Hala loves her as a man.
His dear friend who he loved to death put a sense that could not be received until anytime in his life. Perhaps if he could exaggerate, Hala's feelings were so unacceptable that Heksa was buried six feet below the surface of the ground and not breathing anymore.
Love is not a bad thing for him. He often sees that feeling in many people around him. But, Hexa never thought that love was there for her and spun very close to her.
It's not that Hexa can't feel love either. There are many kinds of love in this world. There are millions of reasons behind it. All valid. The feeling of every person in this world of the kind of love they bring to their hearts is their personal right to feel it. They're not bad-, not at all.
But again, for Hexa it does not exist. Don't blame him. Heksa loved Hala with every fiber of her being. But the love he brought for his best friend and his patron from childhood was not the love of romance that anchored in the relationship of lovers. He also knew that the love he had for Hala was not just friendship or brotherhood. It binds more strongly between them.
But to say that she wants Hala as her life companion in a romance like her parents? Well, Hell. Sure didn't.
Heksa is not a person who likes romantic relationships with love based in his heart. The love of romance for him was a sharp bladed dagger that would hurt with a gaping wound.
He doesn't know exactly. But maybe it started when his real, jerk dad molested his beloved mother. Sometimes, the middle-aged man would easily spit out a lot of harsh words and mockery on multiple occasions.
Often, the madman flirted with his mother as well as with Hexa herself. Sometime when his monster father begins to lash out the beatings again, words about how he went crazy and did the damn thing because his father loved them ring in his ear. Because his abusive father loved his mother and his lousy son.
He did not understand how anyone could say they loved by doing disgusting rude things. In fact, it is able to show how weak a fool like his father can become.
Then some time later, Hexa found herself numb. His heart cannot feel or even, refuses to fall for the idea of loving and being loved by others in the same context as his strange parents.
The love of romance that leads to a long-term relationship with many not-so-subtle touches here and there is absolutely nothing she can feel anymore. It was what Hexa believed as long as she grew up that she traces her life to her now two-headed age.
Ah, the dating context..
Hexa hated him so much.
Nope. It's not that he hates people who date. He doesn't matter about it. It's just, it's not for him. He does not like the idea of himself dating someone or being tied to a relationship with a certain person.
Although her mother eventually divorced her son-of-a-bitch father and fell in love with another man who is now her stepfather, Hexa was already too numb to see how a relationship that included her would intertwine.
Maybe he was afraid of turning into a monstrous monster like his stupid real father at a time he didn't want to? Given how that bastard's blood flowed powerfully in his bloodstream and could not be removed at any cost. Even by dying he would not be able to change the DNA he had.
But when he thought about it, he could not put one on his fingertips. Maybe that's not how she's afraid? Maybe he's just numb forever.
Thinking back, his mother and stepfather were currently fine. They do fight quite often, then quickly make up. But in the eyes of Hexa, everything feels bland and fake.
His stepfather was not bad, The man even let him buy a house next to Hala as a form of his request before he entered High School. That's good, but sometimes his father is grumpy and coercive. Huff is used to it.
Now, the love he holds is his love for his dream of his dream job. He fell in love with this stupid game he was playing one time while hiding from the crazy bullies who were targeting him. It was an arcade in one of the rather quiet little alleys. He had forgotten what age he was then, to be sure, his father still beat him up and the bully still liked to play around with his lousy son like him.
There is a heaven that this game brings. It was Mario Kart. Back then, it was quite difficult to play with him who was still a child in an Elementary School uniform. But it's good. Then, it was from there that he found another exciting game and started having fun in it.
It was his first love. The love she holds as her childhood savior. When he began to deepen his love of gaming, Hexa had a definite purpose. Being a game maker in a famous Japanese company was what he held tightly near his heart. So, all her love will be devoted to that one beautiful dream.
Although Hala's presence arrives and saves her some time later, besides the game angel she finds, Hala is another permanent thing that goes into her definition of love. It couldn't be pinpointed in the one place he wanted. Hala was like the ruler of his heart, free to play and wander in his heart. It was not a brotherhood, it was also not just a friendship that was originally offered. But still, Hexa could not put where Hala actually was.
He will also fight hard with the idea of having a romance with Hala. Because that's not where his feelings come from. She could not see herself dating her guardian angel whom she was guarding and she was happily desperately by her side.
Hala is like a buffer of his life, rather like a complement in the house where he wants to breathe.Hexa needs Hala as a booster of his gloomy life.
A person who belonged to him where he could hang his life continuously like a rope. Hala is one of the reasons to continue to live and fight through the storms of his life.
Just that's all. No less and no more.
that was why her emotions suddenly became unstable when Hala expressed feelings for her. That's not what's in his life scenario. This is what probably triggered the fire in his heart so that Hexa subconsciously cursed with great anger.
For him, Hala attacked him with something like a wartime flag that would destroy the future he proudly designed and lived with all his heart.
Recalling his feelings on that day, the flames in his heart peaked again. Unknowingly, he groaned in frustration while shuffling his greasy hair. His head nearly slammed into his desk before a shock from the claps of his co-workers sent Hexa back to reality.
“Heh, intern! Don't get into a trance here!”
Hexa blinked a few times. Looking up, he found one of his seniors who became his mentor from the beginning he managed to do an internship in his company which is now in front of him.
“Eh, I don't have a trance, so Ko Feng” Hexa was a bit surprised by his hoarse voice. Quickly, the man began to neutralize the strange tone of his frog voice.
The person called Ko Feng frowned. The young man who was Chindo nationality was staring at Hexa with mysticism.
“Lo really like depressed people know not, Sa? Lo if there is a stick the same new system do not be on it. Kabarin. How do you know I can help you. Gini-gini I'm still your mentor, Heksa” Ko Feng patted his shoulder. Seemed to really care.
“Please Ko Feng. Maybe I'm just tired of this. The system is not much of a problem, but I sometimes still forget because I am not used to the new upgrade” Hexa defend themselves. Didn't want himself to look like a pathetic gloomy person anymore.
“Then you have to rest, Sa. Don't take overtime. It's nine o'clock now, it's time to go home. Overtime do not be very diligent, deh. Do you think overtime bonus is half of our salary a day? Time loss energy tau. Which fortunately even company” Ko Feng ignited with a scolding.
“Manalagi lo is still an apprentice. Your salary is not yet full, Sa. Do not want to be a slave capitalist, deh” he said again.
Hexa laughed and immediately nodded. Found a bit of solace from his cloudy and turbulent mood since that day.
“Iya, Ko. Thanks for taking me. Here I want to go home. Ko Feng be careful on the road, ya”
“Bareng aja, Sa. I wait until you really get home. Don't just say doang lo”
Hexa was a bit surprised. “Nothing, Ko. I really went home with this. I'm sorting out the daft table. My table really messed up because” explained then quickly, pointing mmejanya that is really messy.
“Udah, safe. I turned back the same anyway. Senior orders and mentors you do not neglect”
Folding his lips with an unpleasant look, Hexa still complies. So, the man began to clean his room deftly. Five minutes later, he ran towards Ko Feng who was waiting.
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The journey by car from the office to his home is not so long. The streets were already somewhat relieved at night, so it was no wonder that he had currently arrived within fifteen minutes. Waving politely and thanking his senior, Heksa turned around to start entering rruma.
Sighing, he opened the door, feeling his head throbbing in pain once. So subconsciously, when he turned on the small aisle light to shine a light on the main lounge, his lips immediately said the word without being able to be prevented by his head first.
“My head is very sick, Hala.. can request a hug not this malem?”
It fell into an ordinary strange whimper that he often called for when he set foot in a familiar place. Hence, when he smelled a scent that had also been recognized by his entire five senses, his head was short-sighted and unable to think. Usually hit first like a race winner.
“...Ah.”
A consciousness stopped by when he did not also find the legitimacy of the host. His eyes wandered around the room completely untouched for days. Her feelings grew sour when she knew she wasn't supposed to be in this house.
This is Hala's house. Which is why he used to stay here. Perhaps if it can be described, Hexa can also be said to be a permanent resident of this house.
Swallowing spit, Hexa's head is getting sicker. Groaning no matter, he threw his briefcase onto the sofa he knew exactly where it was. His feet were walking on the cold floor which stung haphazardly. Even so, that aimless move stopped in a main room. Hala's room, or she could call it her room as well.
His mouth was bitter, he should have turned to go home to his true home, but his senses were like death and betrayal as his hands opened the door of the room. The warning on his head was also dead when Hexa threw her tired body on the mattress which again felt very cold, indicating that the mattress had not been occupied for a long time.
Heksa was still in a very familiar place. He could not make himself move to go home, his body was heavy. A deep sense of longing burst forth, cornering the anger and disappointment that should have been stronger than others due to Hala's fault.
Heksa complained, probably because he was so tired that his motor nerves could not work together properly. So for that reason, he let his body do what they wanted.
The room was dark, but Hexa still knew what details were there. With her eyes closed, her heart kept wondering about where Hala was now. Where the woman slept, where she took Pipang with her - the cat she claimed was her child - was also nowhere to be found on the first day that Hexa returned home after her madness had subsided, though not completely.
It disappeared after that day. No contact, no news. But, the house is not locked. Still open to Hexa, judging by how the usual spare key is still located in the place he used to put.
Maybe Hala is waking herself up. Maybe Hala is trying to figure out that the woman was wrong. Perhaps Hala will return after the woman is conscious and ashamed of her inappropriate heart.
Heksa tau, Hala will come back to him sooner or later.
However, when he started checking his untouched phone since this morning in his jacket pocket, he was, there was such a bad feeling of falling in the heart of Hexa that the man was not aware that he was already sitting tensely on the bed in a split second.
It was a noisy group chat. Carrying news that made Hexa's stomach wrapped around in a strange pain and her heart pounded three times faster.
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...[.Cemara Family]...
Narrative Jpg:
Hala!
@Mama Pipang appeared
Show up or I rummage about the loooo house
Will I spill your tea or will you spill it first??
Ner is a child
Jihan Archer:
What's nih? What's nih?
Is there any new tea??
Master Teacher Fajri 2:
????
What's nih?
New Alpino Tsel:
Spill dong bundd @Mama Pipang
I'm helping with the tag, Lis!
Lisa Jpg:
Let her son show up
I was surprised to get news not from the person directly
The kids are really outrageous
Mama's Lips:
Huh huh? Why do I bother woii
New office nyampe also gosh
Lisa Jpg:
Oh, you really-yes!
Mama's Lips:
Why else, huh? My feeling is all right??
Jihan Archer:
A lie! Where's my morning tea
New Alpino Tsel:
Precisely because it is still morning, the tea is still anget. Spill off, La wkwkw
Mama's Lips:
I swear I don't understand. What's wrong???
Lisa Jpg:
Bener really lo ya. I'm spill it myself
Mama's Lips:
Plss is still morning not on crazy. What is anjirr
Lisa Jpg:
Lo be the same Kak Sinar but do not tell me as your friend! Tega bener lo Laaa
My brother's itu.
Afraid of being asked for taxes??
Jihan Archer:
HUH UH?? SERIOUSLY??!
New Alpino Tsel:
Anjir seriously??? Crazy Hala you are already the same Bang Sinar
Crazy, I'm really surprised by WKWKWK
Master Teacher Fajri 2:
@You
Waduh bos, it's been done with Bang Sinar. The tea is really warm, mah
Mama's Lips:
I'M NOT BEING???
Lisa Jpg:
Totally lying. Your own girlfriend who told me yes, traitor >:(
Jihan Archer:
Dih, that can't be Hala. Your own boyfriend has confirmed WKWKWKW
Hala is not single anymore jiakhss
Mama's Lips:
The vow..
I'm not being! Don't forget about loo
I just committed to doang with Kak Sinar, yes! Not so!
Master Teacher Fajri 2:
Errata, not yet hahaha
New Alpino Tsel:
Wkwkwkwkw same time. Commitment continues to be broken again.
I was surprised to get this info early in the morning
@You, how are you sir? Healthy?
wkwk janda Hexaa
Mama's Lips:
Al shareloc, we're fighting a battle right now…
New Alpino Tsel:
*location
Nooh
Mama's Lips:
Stresses
Lisa Jpg:
Seriously lo, La. I am so sad to know from my brother..
Mama's Lips:
No that's…
Lisa Jpg:
Yaudah anyway everything comes from the new year! Sinar ngundang kak all of you made her termites Hala the same doi all the new year together. No one gets to go, okay?
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Heksa stopped reading hundreds of splashy messages in his group when he had already gotten the gist of the whole discussion. Frowning, Hexa did not understand what made her heart still pound strangely. His head was throbbing again, there was a strange painful feeling where it felt like he wanted to spit out a few liters of coffee he consumed.
Hala's commitment to Sinar was the last thing she wanted to hear. Not how, he knew that Sinar liked Hala. Hell, everybody knows how Lisa's sister feels. Heksa also did not forbid Hala to establish relationships with others he chose.
But what makes everything strange and absurd is, Hala has romantic feelings for her. Hala loves him, not Sinar. Heksa knew very well that Hala was not joking at the time and of course he knew it was real because of the circumstances that are happening now. From how her relationship and Hala is broken because of that declaration of love.
How could it be that, in a time that was not even a week long (this time he realized how long he had been crazy with his strange gloomy feeling) Hala could make a commitment with Sinar? Are women's feelings easy to change?
Bad thinking continues to hit him from all sides. His heart felt squeezed with strange transparent hands. Bitter and sour is what he feels. Hexa with a disgusting feeling of heartache, immediately rose from Hala's bed. Run at super speed to go to his own house.
His breath hunted when he was already in his own residence. He decided that he would take a shower. He would rid himself of any dirty feelings that enveloped his body at this moment. His thoughts on Hala really made him disgusted and annoyed. It felt black and dense so Hexa wanted to rub her skin until it was raw and flushed.
Heksa did not expect this feeling, nor did he expect the obnoxious information that now haunted his head and hit his heart with the power of monsters.
Whatever this is, Hexa feels very dirty-,
And even, lost direction.
He felt lost, strangely in a very bad way.
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...About Taste (Hexa Sight) : Unexplained Emotions...
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Relax ajaa this is just a filler as a complement to the storyline, the next chap goes back to the main character of kita🥰